I can’t do this. Everything feels so dark. It’s hurts so much…I wish I could go back. I would change everything in a heartbeat knowing what I now know 😭💔🙏🏻 God save me from this. I can’t hold on much longer

Hi could I please message you on Instagram? If that’s okay :))

I appreciate that but to me I’m scared of what if I’m a c word I hate to even say it. It makes me cringe and so sad. I don’t want to be a monster because of the mistakes I’ve made

Maybe I will add you I don’t know. I just have a hard time trusting people

I keep having thoughts that the mistakes I’ve made make me a p or a criminal or something I know that may seem extreme but it seriously feels that way and I keep praying it’s not true because I never had bad intentions. I still don’t

@Just Breathe ❤️ I totally understand, my real event revolves around talking with people online, so I understand. But please feel free whenever you need to, it’s a really scary feeling genuinely thinking you might be a p

@OCDHaver Thank you I appreciate it. I know you said that you don’t think it’s terrible but is that really true? Do you really think that what I told you isn’t so bad to be in the same category as a criminal or a p? I’m so scared that what I did was so freaking wrong because of the m word being involved but like I said it was about the stupid fetish. Ugh I hate this so much. My mind keeps racing

@Just Breathe ❤️ You’re definitely not, OCD blows a lot of things out of proportion, you’ll be okay, I promise you, the problem isn’t the event, it’s the OCD

@OCDHaver I still can’t help but think that it was so terrible though. My mind won’t leave me alone about it or give me a break. It keeps telling me it was illegal or I’m a criminal which like I said could be a little extreme to explain it that way but that’s what my mind is telling me

@OCDHaver I want to believe you I really do. I want to also believe the ones who have told me to just let it go and move on but the thought of what I just said above just makes it so hard to just “let it go”