Magzzz
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- 3y
Todd James Todd James
- Date posted
- 3y
This feeling is so hard I know. Sometimes its overwhelming! Its all shame related and the more we push the thoughts away the stronger they get. Its a paradox.
OCDHaver OCDHaver
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- 3y
Hey, I know you’ve said in the past that you’re scared for privacy reasons, but please add me on IG if you ever need to, I’m here if you need me, I totally understand how you’re feeling, POCD, Real Event and False Memory are the worst. You’re not a bad person and you haven’t really done anything “terrible” from what you’ve told me
JodiemarieJodiemarie
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- 3y
Hi could I please message you on Instagram? If that’s okay :))
MagzzzMagzzz
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- 3y
I appreciate that but to me I’m scared of what if I’m a c word I hate to even say it. It makes me cringe and so sad. I don’t want to be a monster because of the mistakes I’ve made
MagzzzMagzzz
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- 3y
Maybe I will add you I don’t know. I just have a hard time trusting people
MagzzzMagzzz
- Date posted
- 3y
I keep having thoughts that the mistakes I’ve made make me a p or a criminal or something I know that may seem extreme but it seriously feels that way and I keep praying it’s not true because I never had bad intentions. I still don’t
OCDHaver OCDHaver
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- 3y
@Just Breathe ❤️ I totally understand, my real event revolves around talking with people online, so I understand. But please feel free whenever you need to, it’s a really scary feeling genuinely thinking you might be a p
MagzzzMagzzz
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- 3y
@OCDHaver Thank you I appreciate it. I know you said that you don’t think it’s terrible but is that really true? Do you really think that what I told you isn’t so bad to be in the same category as a criminal or a p? I’m so scared that what I did was so freaking wrong because of the m word being involved but like I said it was about the stupid fetish. Ugh I hate this so much. My mind keeps racing
OCDHaver OCDHaver
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- 3y
@Just Breathe ❤️ You’re definitely not, OCD blows a lot of things out of proportion, you’ll be okay, I promise you, the problem isn’t the event, it’s the OCD
MagzzzMagzzz
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- 3y
@OCDHaver I still can’t help but think that it was so terrible though. My mind won’t leave me alone about it or give me a break. It keeps telling me it was illegal or I’m a criminal which like I said could be a little extreme to explain it that way but that’s what my mind is telling me
MagzzzMagzzz
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- 3y
@OCDHaver I want to believe you I really do. I want to also believe the ones who have told me to just let it go and move on but the thought of what I just said above just makes it so hard to just “let it go”
JodiemarieJodiemarie
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- 3y
If anyone would like to connect with me on Instagram mine is jodie_carterrrr
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