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Hey! I’d love to chat.
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Hello! Do you have any experience with HOCD?
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@cf05 I’m starting to believe it’s all just a lie and that I’m bisexual.
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@lennygirl I’m not sure what to do. I’ve tried ERP twice but I can never actually do it. I’m lost, and I feel like I’m the exception.
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@lennygirl That’s what my worry has been, but I am trying to hang onto the fact that I would not feel so distressed and ashamed if that attraction was something I truly wanted
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@lennygirl How have you tried it? I have not started yet but am supposed to be starting this week
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I hate when people write something like this. It always feel like they're trying to bait me into private and take advantage of me
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Look nobody is certain about their sexuality or whether they'll stay attracted to their partner irrespective of their gender or orientation. You gotta embrace that uncertainty in a world that pushes a lot of labels on us
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My problem is that these thoughts came out of the blue and completely go against what I value. I know trying to disprove thoughts only makes them worse, but I am disgusted by the way they make me feel, so I cannot seem to figure out what else to do.
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@cf05 You just got to accept that your identity is uncertain and unknownable
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If you receive any kind of good advice please inform me because I’m still trying to figure that out after anywhere from 6 to 8 years of this shit
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Boy do I. I’ve had it on and off since I was 12, and I’m now 20.
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I’ve had SO OCD since I was 14 and it is hard. It starts to feel real after a while. False attraction, losing attraction, groinal responses, intrusive feelings. It can get intense, but it’s important to keep reminding yourself to accept the uncertainty of it all. It can definitely be scary to do so especially when you fear what may happen but you can’t worry about something until it happens and that’s only if it happens anyway.
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How do you carry on and interact with family members without feeling like you are faking not having thoughts? This is all new to me and the hardest part is not feeling like myself at all but trying to get back to that
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Is yours on and off? And when it’s “off” is it still sort of there but it’s just not giving you anxiety
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@cf05 At first it was hard interacting with others because I felt so weird about having the thoughts. Eventually I learned to let interaction serve as a bit of a distraction. I was able to say “I’m not gonna think about this right now I’m going to hang out with my friends” and it helped a lot with holding off on ruminating and limiting how much I was interacting with my thoughts.
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@lennygirl I’m not sure if you meant that comment for me but yes. It’s pretty much always on but in those past couple days where it wasn’t as bad the thoughts were still in the back of my mind but it was so easy to remind myself that they were not true
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@lennygirl Mines is on and off. When it is “off” I feel mostly fine. I still notice the intrusive thoughts or feelings, but yeah I don’t get anxiety about it. I can just kind of move on with my life. Even if I do feel anxiety it’s not a lot.
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@stop. Mine can be “off” for months at a time. I feel like that’s not very normal for OCD.
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@stop. Also, are you a girl? And how old are you?
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@lennygirl I am a girl and I’m 19. You can’t really worry about what’s “normal” we all experience OCD differently. I’ve been “off” for almost a year before.
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@stop. You have other obsessions, though. This is my only one, and it started at TWELVE. that’s way too young!
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@stop. I’m a girl and I’m 19 too. I have signed up for ERP therapy but have not started yet and am scared that it is going to bring to light the fact that my thoughts are true. , I have only had past relationships with guys and only want that in the future, but these thoughts make it hard to remember any of the rational parts of my past. Have you ever dealt with this and how did you overcome hesitation when seeking treatment?
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@lennygirl And that is perfectly okay. Your OCD wants you to think that it means something but it doesn’t. Many people have one theme. Most people start to experience OCD sometime in their adolescence anyway. You can’t give this meaning and let it scare you.
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@cf05 You really just have to accept the uncertainty that treatment might uncover something. It’s scary, but would you rather be free from your thoughts and possibly realize something or stay trapped and confused?
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@stop. It terrifies me, because why does THIS have to be my one theme? It makes it seem like a sexuality crisis rather than OCD.
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@lennygirl That’s my problem too. This is my only theme at the moment and is absolutely killing me because it seems so much more real than all the others. It’s making me afraid that I don’t know who I am and that I’ll never be happy again the way I was two months aho
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@cf05 Can’t you see though? You’ve had other themes. That means it’s really, actually OCD. you’re also older, and yog e had boyfriends that you’ve loved in the past. do you even have signs from childhood that point to being gay ?
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@lennygirl Pause. That is not true. You don’t have to have multiple themes for it to be OCD. OCD is OCD no matter how many themes. Age doesn’t matter either. You are invalidating yourself because your OCD is looking for reasons as to why it’s not. None of that matters.
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Could you guys please read my most recent post?
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Please, please look at my post and respond. I’m scared.
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Post a link to it
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Please, PLEASE look and respond.
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You’re all ignoring me 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
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Like I can’t think straight. This is making me doubt everything I’ve thought about myself and even makes me feel like I like the thoughts when I know I don’t. Like I would be less anxious at a time while I still have the thoughts and my mind would go “oh so you like it you must be gay” or the other one where I’m not anxious and I think of my attraction for girls that I’ve had my whole life and my mind goes “see now you’re not into them you’re gay” like it’s so stupid but so effective. I clearly remember being into girls my whole life but my mind is making me believe that all these attractions and feelings for women were all fake or “a thing of the past”. But I can still get aroused by women but I have this weird anxiety going on which brings these sensations/feelings and it’s so weird. Today I’ve spent my whole day thinking about it like I’ve been doing for 5 months now. I know that this aint normal but my mind just won’t let me live in peace. I never cared about my sexuality cuz I simply liked women my whole life but now my sexuality is a fundamental philosophy. I hate this.
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I struggle with HOCD or SOOCD. I’m a married young woman to an amazing husband. I’ve had this since I was 16 but it only came in flair ups. However this round started in October, and it’s been really rough and I would just break down all the time. I went up on my medication and I actually noticed a difference! My thoughts were still very present but I wasn’t really paying attention to them or giving them power. HOWEVER right when I thought I was getting better, my brain started feeling and saying to myself that I just know I am bi but you want to make excuses for it like “oh it’s normal to find someone hot since we as a society have an interpretation of what that looks like” or “I see the girl as myself and that’s what ‘turns’ me on” or “well I mean that girl looks kind of like a man” and it’s it’s making me spiral. I won’t ever come out as Bi as deep in my soul I don’t feel I am. I have always wanted to be with men sexually and romantically and that has not changed but my brain is making me believe I am and I just don’t want to admit it. Please help me, what has helped you?
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i had recently been triggered to have so-ocd. its been on my mind non-stop. (i am a heterosexual female) and my mind has been all over the place questioning if i have been in denial the entire time. ive always had people tell me they sort of got that vibe it it never really affected me until my own mother had her suspicions. so i would constantly get triggered un public around the same gender, while knowing my true sexuality. ive always been attracted to men but as of recently ive been having super bad anxiety to where i cannot eat or sleep and feel weak all the time. it was like that for a week or so. now im in the calm where i have been trying accept the uncertainty but it still isnt fair as im getting triggered. im a little worried because it feels like i have been lying to my parents the entire time although ive never had the desire to be with the same gender. and i keep getting intrusive thoguhts that make me feel anxious and uncomfortable. its all starting to affect my friendships as im constantly getting triggered with the intrusive thoguhts. i feel a little less anxious compared to how i was a couple days ago. im really scared on why im having these thoughts now when i have been having romantic feelings for a guy the past year or so. ive also been struggling with false attraction and loss attraction to men. it makes me feel uncertain of my life the entire time
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