I can’t remember how long ago I posted but I’d really appreciate it if I could talk about something with someone, please? 🥺🙏🏻

Thanks. I’ve spoken to her before. She’s nice

By the way I didn’t reply just to annoy you I need to get that off my chest you don’t have to like respond to it or anything but thank you I just wanted to say I’m not trying to keep up attention on me you know

@Bookworm91 No ur fine i totally understand!

@Bookworm91 That’s what’s up 👆🏻 😞

@Bookworm91 i didnt see ur orevious post but im willing to talk♥️

@Bookworm91 I’m scared to make a face and my guy in guys in general like I don’t like pets like I am but I like pectorals I don’t wanna be over them and I can’t stop making a face like they are but and I just said boobs like they are not attractive want my boys not boobs why do I keep making a face I want pectorals come back and boobs go away I don’t like them why don’t I have that experience why do I feel or experience what I just did

@ape7 I just replied to your comment with what’s bugging me. Did it not go through?

@Bookworm91 Now it did. Honestly i dont why. The comment is kind of confusing to me but seems specific. You’re trying not to make a fave in reaction to something? Im not a therapist but maybe try just letting it be. Accept it & dont try to actively ignore it. Sit with it. This is erp i believe.

@ape7 I’m really scared I don’t want to sit with that. It doesn’t belong here! Like even before I saw this because for some reason my phone keeps going in and out I said this female celebrity is sexier than this male but I and I said she’s much but she’s not sexier because she’s female . How could I have seen her naked unfortunately I’m scared I don’t want to switch teams she isn’t much she’s not sexier than the male celebrity and I’m scared I do no one can help me and it’s not anybody’s fault I don’t like her triangle boobs she’s not how can I say she’s much thinking of her naked in the swimming taller than me I don’t wanna be bisexual she’s not sexier than the the guy I don’t understand how I keep saying her much she doesn’t have a sexy body and I don’t wanna be here anymore! And I can’t stop thinking about her boobs sticking out and I hate being TMI but before I wrote this I checked my bodies responses and there’s more stuff down there going on then I would like but I don’t like the way I said she’s much when she’s not sexier and if I’m straight why would anything be happening down there I don’t wanna sit with us I don’t wanna change and I’m scared that’s exactly what’s happening. I don’t want to sit with that I don’t wanna except anything like that and I hate saying much when she’s not sexier I don’t want women I don’t understand what’s going on and why is there extra stuff going on down there especially after I said she’s much when she’s not sexier and she’s one of those women or people that would literally fuck anything I don’t know what that’s called and I’m not trying to be belittling that’s just that’s what she is and I’m scared she’s not hot I feel funny I’ve seen her naked she’s not hot or sexy let alone much I’m scared I don’t wanna be bored of guys I don’t want to switch or add teams! She’s not much she’s not hot or sexy or them the mail the guy I shouldn’t say mail that’s kind of weird. I keep insisting she’s not she’s not much she isn’t sexier than the guy at all I don’t want to change I don’t understand how people say sit with it like it’s something acceptable that doesn’t understand that doesn’t make any sense. Why was there extra discharge? I’m sorry if your guy in this is making you uncomfortable I’m really fucking sorry. I don’t mean to I’m sure hearing about female body functions aren’t fun because it to be honest I know I’m kind of worried about what you think. Sorry I know not all guys are jerks but sometimes it’s hard to talk to to a dude about having SOOCD when a lot of guys are trying to twist it and I feel funny I keep saying it’s something hot and when women grow oh my god sorry girl on girl is not sexy. I’ve seen it it’s not sexy I feel funny I don’t wanna see that from a guys perspective and I feel funny my stomach it’s not hot or sexy I don’t understand how guys could think that is. But I just don’t understand why there’s extra discharge after I said she’s much when she’s not sexy at all let alone much she’s not sexier than the guy. I don’t wanna be here

@Bookworm91 Honestly I’m scared at the natural we came out like so she’s much when I can’t stop feeling funny remembering her naked and saying and I’m scared maybe and I don’t wanna be excepting of that or to chill about that I’m not bisexual she’s not hot or sexy and the fact that they’re still extra stuff going on down there scares me because I didn’t feel anything I just feel anxious I’m sorry. I must be grossing you out I apologize

@Bookworm91 I’m scared because I made a face like guys are weird like they are form like I don’t want them but I don’t want the same sex why am I making a face like they’re gross and I’m scared I keep literally being so in Fattic about it like I don’t but I do want men How to make faces like their parts are but they’re not weird I like pectorals how could I have felt so weird thing she is she’s not there’s no much she’s not I keep saying that she’s not sexier I don’t want the same sex I want my guy specifically but guys broadly only I can’t stop making faces like I don’t like literally I made a face like I don’t like guys but I don’t like boobs those are gross to I like guys I don’t like girls guys are not gross and I act like they’re so form but I don’t want the same and I act like they’re gross because they’re different but I don’t I want my guy and I don’t want him to go and I keep saying there’s much there aren’t cuter guys I don’t want her to be I’m sorry everything so mixed up

@Bookworm91 All right I can’t stop I said she’s not checked at the same sex like but I’m not attracted the same sex I don’t even know who she is by the way half the time I don’t even know who I am addressing in my head I said she’s not like but I am not she’s I said she’s not like me I’m not attracted the same sex either I’m done I’m putting myself on time out now

Yeah I’m still using talk to text sadly

@Bookworm91 It’s okay! I’d like to remind you again this obsession is your mind testing itself, throwing intrusive thoughts to throw you off balance. Girls can be sexy and look “sexier” than men without you being attracted to them. Intrusive thoughts are just that, they’re meant to be random meaningles thoughts and when it comes to ocd they become even more erratic and irrational. You can’t control your thoughts, so don’t freak out when you have them. Let them be, you’re okay, you’re not in danger, you can like men if you want to.

@PinkLotus Women are not ever sexier than men to me but I’m not trying to be argumentative I totally get what you mean I smiled and acted like but I don’t wanna do a guys and babies typically do I ask is I imagine some woman being more tractive and I made a motion like I do but I don’t want to do a guys and babies do and I keep smiling like it’s OK and it’s not. This person in particular was definitely not sexier than any man and I’m scared I feel funny like I must be I’m not bisexual she’s not sexy naked I’ve seen it And unfortunately I can’t help I said but I was gonna say I can’t help but I don’t like it though. I can’t help being reminded of it and I’m smiling like I don’t like the way a woman’s chest looks in any condition when it’s hanging or anything and I feel horrible because I’m probably triggering someone or you or anyone that sees this. I mean I’m seriously trying not to be combative I get what you’re saying but I don’t wanna do a guys and babies do I don’t miss anything hanging off the chest as woman I feel so funny remembering her naked and said can’t help but I don’t like it she’s not sexier she really is not little on much and I’m scared I don’t like any shape of a woman’s you know chest triangles boulders I don’t care and I don’t wanna lose it for my guy he’s amazing I don’t want big overly muscular dudes you know what I mean like over pronounce and stuff. But I make faces like I don’t when I like guy body parts and when you said you can I guys if you want to I made a face and I’m even making one now reiterating that sentence because my phone is stupid I had to correct what it did but when you said you can get like ice if you want to I made a face similar to that of when a kids being forced to eat something they don’t like that’s healthy and I act like that’s disgusting like ugh But I definitely commit like I definitely like male body parts and I make faces like they’re disgusting but they’re not I like pectorals I don’t want and when it comes to females I feel funny I don’t want female body part sex so it’s not males and I don’t want females and I’m so sorry I feel like I’m bringing you or anyone else who’s reading this down. Why did I make a face like it’s I said like I want to like they are they’re not disgusting I don’t just want to I know I like men but I don’t understand why I made a face like that’s disgusting like ugh like why would I and I’m fine I have why would I treat that like that’s disgusting I’ve always wanted to like man well it’s not just that I’ve wanted to I’ve always liked men and I don’t and I make faces is no I don’t but I do like men it’s not just that I want to but I don’t understand why you can like guys if you want to why did I act like that’s disgusting when it’s not I definitely like a body part I said not I do like guys up top I don’t want them to have female body parts I don’t want anybody part of a woman and I just I’m so sorry I know I’m meandering I know I’m Blathering on like nonsensically. I mean I’m reading that last sentence you can like guys if you want to well you said men you can like men if you want to and I’m literally curling my lip like that’s disgusting like I literally I’m scared I’ve switch I try to say but vaginas Waymore not appealing it’s not it’s just it’s way more disgusting to me men are way more appealing. but every time I see that last sentence I act like it’s disgusting and I don’t want you to feel bad because obviously you had no intent on triggering me but I don’t understand why am I acting like you can like a man if you want to why did I treat that over and over again like it’s disgusting when I very much like men and now I’m acting like they are but they’re not gross and I said it’s OK I don’t wanna switch teams I don’t want females they’re not I don’t want them to become so they’re not hot or delicious and I I can’t stop I literally am reading that last sentence and I almost I don’t feel like vomiting but I’m curling my lip like I smell something bad like it’s gross like oh God you can like me if you want to as I don’t want to I can’t stop making a goddamn face and I do want to I only like men it’s not just that I want to so why am I treating it like it’s something disgusting when it’s not

@Bookworm91 I then said to myself you can only like men and for a moment I almost felt trapped but I’m not bisexual and I’ve never experienced that before I can’t stop making faces like it is it’s not disgusting I can say I keep saying you can only like men and why do I keep making a face I’ve never felt trapped before I only like men it’s not just that I want to I can’t like anything else I don’t want to and I’m gonna try to go to sleep even though I’m spiraling and I don’t wanna bug you anymore I just can’t stand how I can’t stop making a face as though I don’t want I do want to I only like men why would I treat it like it’s disgusting it’s not

@PinkLotus I feel like I’m abusing your time and your patience which I’m grateful for not for abusing it but for the fact that you take time to help me. I made a post about maybe four minutes ago three minutes ago I’d appreciate it if you could tell me because it just if you could tell me what do you think because it just got worse. I’m probably not going to be on tomorrow because I’m trying to combat all this other urges to talk about everything single thing but this one is really bad so if you could I appreciate it but I totally understand if you can’t especially since I don’t wanna make your day worse