Feel like there’s no hope and I’m just a lesbian who’s been in denial for 8 years. Feel like I trained myself to suppress my sexual feelings for women, because I used to feel things in my Groin at the beginning of all this but now I don’t. Even if I’m not a lesbian, which literally there is no other possibility considering how much time and energy and the literal YEARS I’ve spent agonizing over this and trying to convince myself I’m straight, I fear I’ve fucked up my sexuality for life. Love and sex is the one thing that I have always prioritized- what if I’ve made both impossible for myself because of this?

Sexual Orientation OCD

Please don’t give up.  I believe it’s possible that the reason why you don’t have groinal responses to women anymore is because you’ve gotten used to the thoughts being there.