Rocd question. My brain sometimes makes me see him as just a friend it saddens me but i dont want to see him like that then i get the image of being with him forever and that makes me happy.

When i have this scenario in my head : kissing a girl in my bed , i can image it very much mike i like it and it will come naturally I dont know if i really like it and i dont like that i like the idea Or That i just dont like the idea Also feeling really weird and maybe even sort of disgusted of my bf when i image the same scenario with him, or i feel like i cant image kissing him Wtf is this ?

What is it when you are afraid you have no physical attraction. Yo your partner but you see a future, you want to have kids, you don’t wanna be with anyone else even tho that is a worry. And I can see myself making love

I’ve looked at my boyfriend’s looks for so long that I really hope I value him as a person like he values me. I’ve entered into a mature love, that’s beyond feelings. But I want that attraction back like how can I grow my feelings towards him? Why does it feel so bleh or not like when I first meet a guy and I’m getting to know him? Comfortable?