TW I wish I could talk to someone I don’t wanna wake up tomorrow I thought of Pete Davidson and I’m scared because I said she is I don’t I’m not I keep saying to myself but I’m not in the middle I’m not bisexual Kim Kardashians not hotter and I feel weird because I’ve seen her naked and I don’t like her boobs and I keep thinking of her naked and feeling funny like I don’t know what to feel her boobs are not sexy and I thought that Pete Davidson is weird because he keeps going for people who are so much older than him. And I’m not here to discuss whether it’s right or wrong you know grown adults will do what they do but I thought old me because his mom is and I thought of her big round boobs pushing up and off the chest cavity I don’t like big round boobs or not hot Kim Kardashian‘s not hot either his mom is not hot like oh maybe he has some weird mom issue and that’s where that thought came from. I don’t even give a damn about Pete Davidson i’m not I’m scared I must be because I said I meant to say Pete Davidson or Kim Kardashian then said she’s thinking of her boobs and smacking my lips but she’s not luscious I’m scared to sabotage she wouldn’t I don’t know how to feel I keep calling them big and hot and smacking my lips but they’re not delicious I said she wouldn’t go for me I wouldn’t go for her I don’t wanna go I said spoiled I don’t care I don’t I almost all my God I meant to say that I don’t care if she’s spoiled and I ended up saying repeatedly don’t care if she’s a girl I do care if she’s a girl I don’t like girls I care I don’t like girls I do care if she is I don’t like her I’m scared I keep remembering her naked and feeling funny why can’t I stop saying I don’t I do care if she’s a girls and she is I don’t want and I don’t know how I feel about that I keep calling them but they’re not sexy I don’t want her big round boobs why can’t I stop saying don’t I do care about I don’t care about her I do care about guys him not her not Davidson someone else I’m sorry. I keep saying I don’t care about her and then said not if she’s like I do care how can I say that I don’t I do care if she’s a girl and I’m scared I’m being mean about my guy like he is I don’t want to I said massively more than that more tractive I don’t wanna more muscular guy I don’t care about her I don’t care that I don’t care about her eye care that she’s a girl that’s why I don’t like her but now I keep amenity her shirtless and I’m afraid that you’re really weird like I’m not sure how I feel like she is so she’s not stupid I said I would I I wouldn’t go for her I keep imagining her naked and I genuinely don’t know how I feel I said I would I wouldn’t go I said she wouldn’t and I’ve know what women look like having sex I wouldn’t go by for anyone so why did I say I don’t care if she’s a girl and I said don’t I care and then I insisted I care if she is she’s not hot and I feel weird physically I don’t know how I feel I can’t stop and I feel weird like I know I don’t want those big round heavy boobs and now I act like but I I said I do I don’t care it’s not that I do I don’t care and I act like but I don’t like I’m scared I’m scared I don’t want those suckers in my mouth I don’t want this I can’t stop thinking of a shirt looks like she’s so but I don’t like it and now I’m scared I am I don’t want to start I keeps and can’t help it like I do I don’t wanna see it I’m scared to do I don’t I keep calling them and I must be an act like I don’t want them in mind I’m scared it I don’t want them in my mouth it’s not attractive I don’t want them in my head I don’t want boobs I don’t like girls I don’t wanna be here anymore I don’t care about her not if it’s a girl if it’s a girl I don’t care about her not if it’s a girl! I would not go bisexual for anyone let alone her

Sexual Orientation OCD

Bookworm91

Date posted: 3y

I’m scared I delete really thought that women are and I’m scared I don’t like when Kim Kardashian women or not so much they’re not sexier at all I miss guys I don’t want girls I don’t want big bulky guys I want my guy

OneDayAtATime

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 3y

Hey I hear u but I think u should make your posts smaller. It would help ppl read it and help u!

Bookworm91

Date posted: 3y

I can’t! I can’t omg I DONT want to be here I want to die

Bookworm91

Date posted: 3y

@Bookworm91 I’m sorry I don’t mean to bug you I don’t mean to be annoying or a burden but I took a big shot of tequila to try to help me go to sleep despite having had Tylenol p.m. like for anywhere from 4 to 6 hours ago but I said something I don’t like I don’t like anything more than boobs I don’t like anything more than him and for me to say that on tequila I’m scared that means everything like my dream and shit and other things are but they’re not true I’m scared I don’t know I don’t like I keep saying say ha ha I’m scared I don’t I don’t care if there’s nothing wrong with it I don’t like anything more than I don’t like boobs I don’t know why do I keep saying this what did I say that when I want to kill it I don’t like boobs I don’t like triangles are boulders and I can’t tell if something happened down there and I can’t stop saying don’t I do like but I don’t know I’m scared I am I act like I’m but I’m not gonna act like my guys but he’s not gross I’m scared I’ve been living a lie but I’m not my guys not gross I don’t like boobs and I can’t stop saying like anything more than I don’t like boobs I don’t know what the truth is anymore and I’m scared to look I don’t like boobs

Bookworm91

Date posted: 3y

@Bookworm91 I’m literally saying don’t like it’s fact I don’t I can’t stop I’m scared I have to embrace I don’t want my truth to be that I keep saying don’t I do like I don’t like boobs I’m scared it’s been a lie and I can’t go back I like boys I don’t like boobs I don’t like boobs why is this happening to me I make faces like he is I want my guy I’m not gay I want my guy back I want boys I don’t like boobs why do I keep saying anything more and I keep protesting and acting serious like I’m mad like I don’t know I said I do I don’t like it I don’t like hell I can’t breathe I don’t like boobs I’m scared it’s an excuse like I don’t but I really don’t want boobs I’m I’m scared I know I’m scared I am not over boys know I can’t breathe I feel like screaming I don’t like boobs

Bookworm91

Date posted: 3y

@Bookworm91 I’m so sorry I’m scared of the face I’m making out want to stop I’m more than like my guy but now I’m not I’m not gay I know that but now I’m acting like he’s but he’s not gross

Bookworm91

Date posted: 3y

@Bookworm91 I said less I Dong like anything more then him so why am I acting like you why do I can’t why can’t I stop it why can’t I stop why can’t I stop I’m acting like a make a face like and I literally look at him like but he’s not disgusting I’m scared I’m just I am the guys I know I don’t have to be but I’m more than like him and I don’t understand

Bookworm91

Date posted: 3y

And now all these thoughts I’m scared I don’t I do like anything more than boobs I actually don’t like them but I’m scared I feel like saying that makes me say that I do but I don’t like boobs and now I look at my guy and I was feeling the like I said it comes and goes it doesn’t really come and go it’s hard to explain but I was feeling my feelings for my guy like really like a while they are really very much still there and I took a shot of tequila a couple of hours ago to try to get some sleep and it didn’t totally work and I imagine pointy boobs and I didn’t really react even with alcohol in my system but then I’m looking at my guy and making a face and I can’t stop and I’m frightened or you can avoid the truth even without call but I don’t like boobs and now I’m scared I’m looking at him like I don’t like he’s gross when Just last night I was feeling my feelings I’m more than like him I don’t like boobs and I act like I do I don’t want pointy boobs I want pectorals I want them to come back and I’m literally making faces like he’s totally gone like I don’t anymore when I’m more than just like him I haven’t been in denial I really more than like him and I don’t understand what’s going on I’m scared literally of the faces I’m making like I can’t stand like I don’t care but he’s not just some guy I’m more than like him and I’m acting like I can’t stand when I love the guy and I’m scared it’s all gone but I’m more than like him I said don’t just but I actually don’t like boobs I’m more than like him why am I making a face like I can’t stand him when I’m more than like

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