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- 3y
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I understand... I feel like my friends don’t care about me so I’m spending Christmas alone without any friends or my parents as they are too busy to celebrate... I wish I had a girl to celebrate with for Christmas but being singles my motif I guess... 😅😅😅 I am truly sorry about the loss of your father... I do want you to know that you are loved and will find your happiness soon... I have HOCD, POCD, and real event OCD as well (I am not formally diagnosed) so I do understand how ocd has cause you so much pain
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- 3y
Thank you for understanding. It’s a very complicated situation but my girl best friend and guy best friend (who I have or had a crush on) are messing around with each other and I had to hear from other people and I cut them both off because I need to focus on me. I relate to that lol I wish I had a boyfriend but I gotta do my own thing for a while and figure out this whole OCD mess. Thank you. It’s just really hard not having my dad around. He always had advice for when I was in situations like this. I have my mom and grandma though but my dad knew my friends too because we worked together so. OCD has been very painful lately because of real event ocd and guilt. This is a really hard Christmas for me honestly.
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- 3y
@Just Breathe ❤️ I’ve been dealing with heart break too... I just realized that the girl friend I like in my own friend group will never view me in a romantic lense and I just feel heartbroken about it... I’ve been dealing with it for a month now and this other guy friend called me creepy/obnoxious because I was constantly checking up on the group... I felt immensely hurt and I haven’t talked to the friend group since... and my HOCD makes me think that I’m attracted to my friend because of how hurt I am by what he said... my POCD has been doing numbers as well and real event OCD too... god Christmas is just a pain rn...
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@POCD/RealEventOCD I’m so sorry you’re going through that. You deserve better. I hate when OCD tries to get into the situation too and then it makes it that much harder to deal with. Yesterday another friend of mine told me that my girl best friend messaged her and said that I need to grow the f up and it really hurt because she’s acting like I’ve done something wrong and I haven’t done anything and then it makes me feel bad because I feel like it’s my fault I lost them both and it’s not. My guy best friend is acting weird too and won’t even talk to me anymore even after we both recently said we would be best friends no matter what. I’m hoping that things will settle down soon but I don’t even want to work with either of them which then makes it difficult to do my job. Just know you are not alone this Christmas. I completely understand the feeling and I hope that you feel better soon. Just keep doing you and try to find some joy or positivity I know it’s hard to do trust me I know but there’s so much more this world has to offer than pain and heartbreak
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- 23w
Today is Easter and it was supposed to be low key for me and my family but my mom invited a family member that bothers my ocd alot and now they are on their way here and I'm freaking out I already had a panic attack (still having it) and my family is not helping either they keep making comments about how they just want one holiday with no problems and some other comments and it's like I'm sorry I'm not normal like my siblings I didn't ask to be like this now I'm just hurt, upset and I locked myself in my room for the rest of day. (And I was doing so good with erp and this is like making me have a ocd relapse)
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- 19w
I’ve recently been struggling a lot with OCD. I have had OCD for a long time I just didn’t realize it until more recently. About seven months ago I developed panic attacks one day randomly at work. I thought I was having a heart attack and went to the hospital where they told me it was just a panic attack and I assumed I would snap out and be better within a few days. However it didn’t. Here’s where it gets scary, I was staying at my then boyfriends house while dealing with blurry vision, anxiety attacks everyday, and more (unsure of what was going on). But at some point I saw my bfs (pew pew 🔫) on his table and it sent me into an anxiety attack after sudden thoughts that I was going to hurt myself with it. I begged him to put it away when I’m not looking so I didn’t know where he put it. He did. These thoughts lasted for about four days but began to go away. (I thought that was it and I would be back to normal). Unfortunately though I ended up moving back in with my family when we couldn’t get my panic attacks under control in time for me to get back to work and pay bills. However, coming home brought up a lot of trauma from when I was kid. My anxiety got worse but I didn’t have those thoughts again. About two and half months ago though, I got sick and went to the hospital where they gave me steroid pills and a steroid shot but sent me into some kind of psychiatric event. Ever since then though, I have been suffering from harm OCD, I have had moments of intense anger that I usually have to completely walk away and go on my own because of how intense they are, and it feels like it’s getting worse. Today I felt fine until about and hour and half ago where I started to dwell on the fact that my suicidal thought was influenced by my OCD and at the moment my OCD is at the worst it’s been. This caused me to get suddenly really depressed and I started crying thinking about how I can’t handle this. I then saw a post talking about how suicide rates are high for people with this form of OCD and it made me question if I am mentally strong enough to pull through this. I fear that at times I’m getting worse. I have good days but I have a lot of bad days. Unfortunately this sent me into such a bad panic attack I went over to my nanas crying about how I can’t deal with this. I took a 0.25 mg Xanax which helped calm down the panic attack portion of it but my brain is still uncomfortably active. I guess I just need hope. I’m so saddened by this. It’s like my life took a total 360 in 10 months and got even worse since the steroid shot. Idk what to do about it. I can’t stop the spiral. I talk to two different therapist weekly and start more next week, making it 5 times a week. I feel no improvements…
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- 15w
Hello everyone, I hope you are all doing well! I lost my dad yesterday and me having ocd since I was 7, it just skyrocketed. Yesterday it was difficult for sure, but I didn’t have any intrusive thoughts about self harm. It all happened suddenly when I was half asleep (trying to sleep even though it was really hard), were I feel as if a switch turned on in my brain and out of nowhere I started feeling angry. I recognised at that moment that I was not angry but that’s what my brain was telling me. And that’s when I had an intrusive thought of harming my mom came to my mind and immediately after that came the thought of harming myself. And it stuck. I know grief can make these themes pop up, but what if this is all real and not ocd? I’m scared. I acknowledge I don’t have thoughts in my head of planning to harm myself, it’s just a feeling that this is going to happen. Now letting my thoughts out brings me relief, even sometimes this intrusive thoughts bring me relief (that is very scary), but ocd makes me so pessimistic, and that I’m doomed in life and the sad life my dad had will also be mine as well. There are moments where I feel hope and relief, but it doesn’t last for long. As if I’m so so sure that this is going to happen. And me having magical thinking ocd doesn’t help either. Grief is hard, sometimes I cry, other times I laugh with my friends and family, but those moments I laugh is when I get terrified ( I read people who have made up the decision to (you know) are happy and laugh. Anyways, I’ve talked to my mom about it, she’s super supportive of me restarting therapy and even though she’s struggling with grief, she’s always there to listen to me and give me all the comfort I need. But I informed her about the thoughts the moment the popped up. Just so that she knows and can save me because I don’t trust myself at all. Sorry for this huge rumble, but I’d really appreciate your advice. I’m scared and so not ready to start therapy (at one hand I don’t want to, it feels such a chore, but I know I need to get help). I’m very pessimistic at the moment and I feel no one can convince me that I’ll get better. I think my future life, and it brings me this warm nice feeling and then it is followed by the thought that this will never happen. And because I have magical thinking ocd, and my uni exams have just started, I had this feeling that this exam season will be endless and it’s never going to end. Guess what, I’m probably going to just take one exam out of three (my mind is like you see, this thought and feeling came true) and that’s where I get super pessimistic. Okay, I’ll shut up for now, please give me some advice on how you try to manage your thoughts and what to do for now. Take care ❤️
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