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I get nervous sometimes because I don't want to have bad thoughts about him. I hate it. It makes me so sad.
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relate to this. stay strong ❤️❤️
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i used to! i eventually got over it with exposures
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Was that with ERP? I try to let the thoughts pass through, but sometimes I am so overwhelmed they hang over me like a grey cloud... I don't even actively engage, they just don't stop swirling
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@AnonOCDsufferer At least for me letting thoughts pass isn't always enough (or I'm not good at it) I find actively doing exposures way better than trying to accept things
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@k-low Thank you for sharing. I'll give this a go
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It's so interesting to read these types of comments when I'm in a phase of low anxiety. I have had (still sometimes have) the same exact thoughts. But when someone else writes about it I find it so obvious and clear that it's OCD and what needs to be done, but when it comes to myself it's like "wait but it's probably not OCD right now, it's true" and then I freak out about that. Very weird. But you got this! Keep doing ERP I think it can be tough when we thing "oh I don't know if this feels like OCD" but honestly that questions itself is a compulsion. Bc in the rare occasions I actually feel an unpleasant emotions that's not driven by OCD i don't even think about questioning it, it just happens.
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I find that for myself to! It's always easier to see it in someone else! You are right, me posing that question could be a compulsion. That is the same for me, if its proportionate to how I logically feel, I don't question it.
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I experience similar. When I first did my 12 sessions I felt so good, my ROCD started to be background noise. But after some exterior stressors and triggers, it’s coming back and making me analyze every feeling I have around my fiancé and any intimate moment I’m not feeling like I think I should be. It’s awful and makes it so hard to look forward to time together. I just wish ocd wouldn’t attack the people and relationships we care about.
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I am so sorry you have till deal with that. I understand what you mean. It makes it hard to know what you are actually feeling because you constantly think about how you think you should feel and test it against how you actually feel, which I feel psyches me out and I end up feeling more negative, fulfilling the prophecy the thoughts set. I wish it would stay away from loved ones too!
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I’m having what I think is my first ROCD full episode. I’ve had doubting thoughts the entirety of my relationship. But in the last couple of days have been overwhelmed with and debilitated by anxiety and the feeling that I need to break up with my boyfriend. I don’t know if I have OCD officially but talking to therapists it seems that it is likely and I’m going to an OCD specialist next week to talk through my feelings but I feel completely helpless and hopeless at the moment and riddled with anxiety. I’m in a long distance relationship. I seem to have a waves throughout the day when I want to communicate with my boyfriend and tell him I love him etc. but the other 80% of my day is filled with anxiety and dread that I’m going to have to break up with him. I just want the anxiety to go away and to know if my thoughts are real thoughts or OCD thoughts. My biggest fear is that this isn’t an OCD episode and I do need to break up with him. I’m seeing him this weekend and I’m filled with dread about feeling disconnected and anxious and not in love.
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I’ve been with my partner for almost a year now, and my rocd has become really really bad. I keep feeling like I fell out of love and I just have eyes for other people now, and that I would rather be with someone else. It feels like I’m infatuated with other people and it makes me so guilty. It’s been so hard for me because it’s hard to tell if it’s just my brain convincing me I don’t love my partner or if this is really my desire. The biggest fear I have is hurting my partner, so there’s also a sense of urgency that I need to tell them how I’ve been feeling to prevent myself from leading them on I guess. This is compounded with a history of porn addiction that still affects me and makes me feel like I’m more attracted to others. Has anyone else been in this position? I feel like I’m alone and that this is the sign that I’m terrible and shouldn’t be with my partner and that the end of our relationship is inevitable. I can’t tell if I really love them or not and if I really want to still be with them and I hate that I’m having that doubt.
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I just saw my boyfriend, and even though everything was okay on the outside, inside my mind it was a storm. I kept having thoughts like: “You don’t like him.” “You’re not feeling anything.” “You’re pretending.” “You don’t care.” And then, he said something sweet — something that should’ve made me feel happy: “We should marry.” And instead of warmth, I felt anxiety. A pit in my stomach. A voice in my head saying: “You don’t want that.” “You’ll never stay with him.” “If you really loved him, you’d feel joy.” And I hate it. I hate that I’m in this state. I don’t feel connected. I don’t feel clarity. I don’t even know what I feel anymore. I just feel… numb. And the worst part? It feels like I don’t even care. But I know I do. Somewhere, beneath all the noise and panic and obsessive thoughts, I care. I want to feel close to him. I want to stop second-guessing every word, every touch, every thought. This is ROCD. It makes me question everything. It makes me feel like I’m lying — even when I’m not. It steals the moments that should feel warm and turns them into confusion. If anyone else feels this awful mix of numbness, fear, and guilt — please tell me I’m not alone.
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