I hate that I dread spending time with my partner! I get so anxious that I might lose feelings when we spend time together or that I will say I want to break up or something. Most of the time it feels like ROCD but sometimes it doesn't and its so scary. Then if it isn't that, I obsess over all the mistakes I have made so I feel guilty and like a secret abuser which makes the relationship hard to enjoy too! Does anyone else dread being around their partner because of all the damage ROCD has done or is doing?

I get nervous sometimes because I don't want to have bad thoughts about him. I hate it. It makes me so sad.

i used to! i eventually got over it with exposures

It's so interesting to read these types of comments when I'm in a phase of low anxiety. I have had (still sometimes have) the same exact thoughts. But when someone else writes about it I find it so obvious and clear that it's OCD and what needs to be done, but when it comes to myself it's like "wait but it's probably not OCD right now, it's true" and then I freak out about that. Very weird. But you got this! Keep doing ERP I think it can be tough when we thing "oh I don't know if this feels like OCD" but honestly that questions itself is a compulsion. Bc in the rare occasions I actually feel an unpleasant emotions that's not driven by OCD i don't even think about questioning it, it just happens.

I experience similar. When I first did my 12 sessions I felt so good, my ROCD started to be background noise. But after some exterior stressors and triggers, it’s coming back and making me analyze every feeling I have around my fiancé and any intimate moment I’m not feeling like I think I should be. It’s awful and makes it so hard to look forward to time together. I just wish ocd wouldn’t attack the people and relationships we care about.