TW: Just feels like I’m so deep in denial. There’s so many signs from childhood and teen years. I wouldn’t even care if I was bi, I just desperately don’t want to be a lesbian or even be with women. I want to be with my boyfriend. I’m so scared. I feel at such a loss but also just totally numb. I’ve read into comp het and the lesbian masterdoc too much in the past that those fears just resurface. Maybe my whole life has been one big lie. Sorry :/

I honestly feel the exact same way, scared that I’ve lied to myself my whole life and because I lied to myself that that’s why I never let myself be bi…even though I’ve never had a crush on a woman or wanted to be with one. Idk this is all just confusing me and I just want to be with my boyfriend and be happy

I’m not the one who posted, but I have the same fear (being scared that I’ve lied to myself and that’s why I never let myself be bi/lesbian). I was never capable of explaining, but that’s it. I’m sad that you too suffer with this thought, but a little relieved that I’m not alone in this honestly. Wishing you the best

@gabi Ugh I’m wishing you the best as well. I think it’s brave we’re both sharing these fears if nothing else. I think we’ll one day get through this

Same

@Ope Just struggling