Could use a little help pls.. going through a lot…Its feels like sometimes i want to think about these thoughts like I willingly think of a girl… and my biggest question what is the difference between knowing that i only like the same sex as friends and nothing more like i like the company and emotionally connect with one of my friend the most so what does that mean how do i not know how i like it and if its more than just friends and if i even consider this possibility what does that mean?!? Like miley cirus too and lili reinheart were both happily in relationships but suddenly came out as bi like what does that signify?!? And like being bi is so causal and what does that mean now then?! Like its like i am with a guy and i can be with a girl too and i feel like if i even think of it as a possibility which it could be and me just saying that says a lot right?!? How can i be so confused if who i am?! And then i watched a reel on Instagram saying i wanna be alone my entire life and fir a second i felt like i resonated with it but i have wanted a family always in the past and now it felt like cause I didn’t want to be with the same sex or take that as a possibility cause i am scared i was okay being alone and this all could just prove my denial is true and talking about denial the people who are actually in it would they also feel like us and how are we different to them?! And these days i feel like these thoughts are not bothering me i am just sitting with them if its ocd and extreme i should be panicky and not find these thoughts so possible and like not intrusive and always trying to figure out if it’s intrusive… is it also ocd that there’s this one part of me thats constantly telling me these thoughts are true and one part which feels its true as well but if feel what does that mean and if it feels is it ocd confusing my emotions or actually true like what?!? Will i be able to like a guy like o used to before all this and now someone will say its ocd cause you wrote all this but if i did cause i know how ocd works and i just wanted to play safe like where does this even end… usually its said to be ocd if one has intrusive thoughts and disgusts it and i feel like in the past when i did that was fake and these days cause i know again how its is fake make a face if i get a thought and what is it with like these non sexual thoughts and thinking that this girl is actually fun or pretty cause thats how i would be attracted to a guy in the first place how and what is the difference with the same sex and like what is that boundary and if this is a possibility it could just mean that its showing bi traits and i feel it so strongly because mostly people have it gay or lesbian and cause i have it with the middle it seems more of a possibility like what do i do?!?