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I think pretty just depends on the person like I’m not bi I’m just saying that they’re plenty of pretty guys that are still masculine you know what I mean? Male beauty 🤤
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Yeah ofc, I’m just hyper focusing on the female aspect of it rn
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@PinkLotus Yeah I get you. I just had the most disgusting thought with an even more concerning reaction. I was wondering if I could share what’s going on in my head right now. I don’t want to make your day worse because you’ve been really nice to me there’s a lot of people here that are nice actually. But I just got yelled at like an hour or so ago by my mom saying all your OCD is fake and she’s throwing everything in my face she’s one of those people that when she’s mad at you she’ll throw your mistakes in your face at least she does that to me. And I was just I really need someone to talk to and I’m scared because it’s probably really fucking triggering and it’s long simply because a lot of my entries are like an hour and a half two hours apart you know so it’s like something that’s going on like throughout the day. But I really need some help and I feel bad for bugging people I feel like I bother people here and I don’t want to
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@PinkLotus Um…hello? Is that a no? It’s cool if it is but I’m kinda dying over here 😓
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@Bookworm91 No it’s okay! Of course you can vent, I just went to play video games with some friends
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@PinkLotus Oh ok thanks
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@Bookworm91 Sorry I’m going to respond as soon as we stop playing
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@Bookworm91 You definitely don’t bother and I’m truly sorry your mom said something so cruel to you. She doesn’t determine what you do or don’t have, if you didn’t have it you wouldn’t have these crippling thoughts and obsessions all day long. Hang in there ❤️
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@PinkLotus I absolutely HATE doing this. But I’m desperate. So very desperate TW Why can’t I have peace!? I imagine flirting with my guy and saying I’m not gonna look on your phone I will not look at a HETEROSEXUAL guys phone and I’m scared there was a strong curiosity my brain like I do and I’m scared it was and I don’t want it to be positive or prove that I am I’m not bisexual I don’t wanna look at boobs. I’m serious proves I am but I don’t wanna gay or bi I don’t want to be changing. Am I? I’m scared of how happy I felt and that curiosity and how it was I don’t want it to be positive anymore I’ve seen boobs plenty I don’t like it and I don’t want that to change! And I’m like why am I feeling like that in the back of my head I know I don’t like girls they’re not pretty in that capacity and I don’t like boobs that I’m scared they are I don’t like the ring around the nipples I don’t like boobs I don’t want them to become something positive! I don’t like the way to stick out I don’t wanna do what guys and babies do! I’m scared I must be and I said nothing wrong with that I’m not bisexual I don’t give a damn with her or not there’s nothing wrong with it I said I don’t care about liking but I like boys not both I don’t have boobs to be a thing for me so why did I feel like that when I was imagining flirting with him I’m scared that it wasn’t sure when I said that I don’t I’m scared that positive I don’t want to be positive I’m scared I am shifting and I do I don’t wanna look at boobs I don’t want to be a positive curiosity I’m scared because I need myself looking naked women along time ago and I called them but they’re not hot I’m scared approved but I don’t wanna be bisexual I keep saying I can help if I want to want to be by I want boys not boobs and I said that but that they’re but they’re not better boys are I’m scared I said I finally but I don’t feel like it I don’t want to understand what guys feel about boobs and I keep doing this motion with my hand like I do I act like I welcome I don’t welcome it I don’t want the warm weight of boobs in my hand or my mouth I don’t want boobs I hate this so much I’m really scared it’s real but I do wanna keep nodding deeply boys are better I don’t like boobs and I just get a mask but I don’t want except I’m not bisexual I don’t like boobs what’s going on I hope this has something to do with a muscle relaxer I took Flexeril and I have a shot of tequila less than half a shot but still I’m scared it’s really serious and I’m done I am I don’t want to be in and out I said I want to but I don’t wanna live that life I’m not bisexual I don’t wanna be me if that’s what it is I’m not bisexual
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i feel u, everytime i make a fake scenario in my head it's like in a man's pov. girls are pretty especially feminine clothes but i don't want to be with a girl (romantically/sexually)
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Yup it’s just the worst
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I won’t explain this again if you’ve been or going through it you know what I’m talking about. I felt good about women about an hour ago and now I’m worrying again I’m anxious and the groinals are back and it’s so annoying because I can’t study. And honestly I’m so sick and tired of this. I’ve been a girl crazy my whole life and my mind randomly decides “well what if you are gay” like bro. I’ve never seen a guy that way and in general IT WAS NEVER SOMETHING I THOUGHT ABOUT OR ASSOCIATED MYSELF WITH. IVE NEVER FELT ANYTHING TOWARDS A MAN AND NOW IT FEELS LIKE IT RANDOMLY FLIPPED. I CANT DO THIS BRO. WHY WOULD THIS HAPPEN IVE BEEN GOING THROUGH INSECURITIES ALREADY AND MY ATTRACTION WAS THE ONLY REAL THING I HAD LEFT AND NOW THIS. HOW MUCH DO YOU HATE ME GOD.
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When i have this scenario in my head : kissing a girl in my bed , i can image it very much mike i like it and it will come naturally I dont know if i really like it and i dont like that i like the idea Or That i just dont like the idea Also feeling really weird and maybe even sort of disgusted of my bf when i image the same scenario with him, or i feel like i cant image kissing him Wtf is this ?
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hi guys i added to list. i’m freaking out i just need some help. signs of comphet (comphet is when lesbians who don’t know it and just follow norms and believe there straight) ive felt: “I never felt anything when kissing boys and totally thought that was normal… I talk to men, go on dates, but I think it’s to keep my life ‘interesting’ and have something to talk about with friends.” • lack of deep, natural emotional connection • • talking about my boyfriend to other people made me feel “cool”, “worthy”, “interesting” and felt like a way to prove myself • being able to clearly articulate all the reasons I liked a guy crush/my boyfriend (he’s smart, funny, kind, handsome, etc) whereas with a girl crush I can’t exactly put my finger on why I like them but I’m just naturally drawn to them • never missing my exes or feeling heartbroken about them (i would feel sad from being lonely and no longer having that daily routine of having someone to talk to, but didn’t necessarily miss that specific person) • i was always very hesitant about “becoming official” with a guy i would be seeing and would make him wait before deciding to date because i “didn’t know if i really liked him or not” only being aroused by their the man’s desire for me • Thinking I was cooler than other girls because I didn't spend any time thinking about how cute boys were or being "boy-crazy". I was under the impression for a while that I must just be less shallow than other people because I didn't really take looks into account when I had a crush on a boy, I only factored in their personality. chasing the ego boost more than emotional closeness agreed with friends or mom about someone being attractive even if you didn’t feel it—another big flag being bored, ditching serious commitment, chasing the drama again it also feels like i’m acting a lot of the time to make it more romantic cause i cringe When you fantasize about men, it is mostly just enacting a kind of narrative. More focused on movement than features- the men in your fantasies might be faceless or blank-featured or their bodies might symbolize some emotion. you might not even be in the in the fantasy, but instead another faceless woman might be. You might even imagine yourself as the man. The narrative follows the sexual script, but the details are more vague and abstract and might even shift and change throughout the fantasy. i dont care about like what guys looks like. like my sister saw a video of a guy working out and was like got damn omg gotta like that. if i saw that i would prob be like damn to try and prove something to myself but i don’t really understand what i should feel it feels like i relate to so much comphet after i read it on reddit and it doesn’t even make me want to cry and die anymore. it feels like i tolerate men or have done it for attention or because i thought it was going to happen at some point cause it was what was happening around me like sister and friends. i’m scared ill never find someone i want to marry that’s a man it feels like it’s all just comphet and i don’t want to actually be with a man the more my meds work and anxiety lessens the more the fear feels real because i can’t get myself anxious about it anymore. i can about other stuff but not this. i always told myself i don’t chase i attract. maybe thats cause i never wanted a big badly enough. maybe what im missing is a girl what if that ends up feeling more real Straight people don’t need to talk themselves into what’s hot. like during the hocd break i would try and like see what was “hot” and and be like yeah that’s hot. i also i refused to masturbate to women and not think about it because i didn’t want it to prove that i still liked it but i mean idk if that was left over hocd
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