Does anyone with HOCD feel like every little think they do adds to their 'evidence' pile? Like from the way you walk and talk to the things you like doing. Like I'm literally looking at the way I'm typing on my keyboard to write this message and thinking ("that looks really gay") I've always typed like this and thought nothing of it and now it's like all these little things have to define me. And I'm sitting her and I AM STILL SEXUALLY ATTRACTED TO WOMEN and ROMANTICALLY but it feels like it's just a lie or dead inside. And then I over analyse and think "ah that wasn't actually attraction you just want it to be." When I FaceTime my partner now it just feels like I'm talking to a friend instead of someone I'm in love with. I feel like I've just given up on ever feeling the way I did about her again, I want it, but I can't feel it I don't think I'll ever be to able feel it for any other women only men now IDK?