Pls help me I genuinely require it rn…… I sometimes have the same question and think what if I actually thought cause i wanted to think about it and it wasn't intrusive and what if one percent possibility that I actually did then it would just mean my ocd is a cover up and its a lie idk if i am making sense but it usually happens in dreams and sometimes i think i think stuff cause i want to could that actually mean something like i think it could right?!? Is this even ocd. Like how is this not ocd if i am thinking of something because i want to and it doesn’t feel intrusive is it ocd doing it to me or me just denying cause a lot of coming out stories mention the word want or like or desire what if or if mine is the same then where from here cause i think I actually did and it didn’t feel intrusive and me just reading this as third person would just say after reading this she is just in denial cause these thoughts don’t feel forced but feel like they are rather a choice and no one here has said this with ocd or ig will even relate to this what do i do?!?

Just the phrases I don’t think and i am not sure are things i think is hard to accept or to even listen to :( thankyou though

@Brave through I know exactly what you mean, the uncertainty is really hard. I’m sorry if my response was unhelpful or triggering in any way

@Anonymous No it was quite helpful its just that ocd is exhausting and i wish nothing but the best for us :)

@Anonymous Just one more question….Do you feel like you KNOW that you're lying and you don't have OCD but you just keep doing it? I'm struggling with this right now.but is that actually ocd cause it constantly feels like that… like what are We supposed to think of this then.lak but this is scaring me a little now I didn't have this the first 2 years of it but now suddenly its all i have... Like what am I supposed to even think or feel cause it feels like i am just lying…. how is this ocd?!?!

@Brave through I think if it’s something you’ve been ruminating on for years, your mind could easily twist things further into thinking you’re really lying. I’m trying to approach this subtype in the simplified line of thinking that I’ve seen come up in my other subtypes. Like this, “I have a fear, I obsess over it, try to find the answer, try to find reassurance, I get temporary relief, then my mind starts thinking of other ways that relief is wrong. And then it goes on and on until I’m either exhausted or find something else to obsess over.” At the end of the day, it’s OCD

Just the I don’t think phrase and not i know phrase makes it more easy to believe that it could just be denial like idk