TWA I’m scared I said the more I looked at this girl‘s boobs the more and it’s usually the opposite but I don’t like her boobs I feel so funny in my stomach they I just called them but they’re not hot or sexy but they were really big and round and pushed off the chest I said exactly the way I but I didn’t like it exactly the way I… But I don’t like it! And I’m scared and the more I looked the more worked up I got but not in a good way and then there was a throb down there And I said boobs are brothers they’re not far from the definition of disgusting they’re not far from it! So what did I say that repeatedly? Boobs are I said not far from there the definition of disgusting! And I said the more I looked at the woman’s boobs the more that I never like that before I never liked it usually it’s the opposite I’ve never liked it! I can’t believe I said the more I look the more I like I didn’t like it I just got me feeling more and more anxious why did I throw up down there!? I said the more I look the more like I never liked it I don’t know! The more I looked and I can’t stop saying like I didn’t like it I’m scared I’m just history changing like I’m lying to myself the more I looked and I can’t stop saying liked and said I should embrace I don’t wanna embrace liking I don’t like boobs! The more I look the more I don’t know I’m scared I really did I didn’t I don’t why did I throb I never like boobs are usually the more I look the more I don’t like it! Is it don’t look anything more than I don’t like anything about boobs why would I say anything more I don’t like boobs I don’t like anything about them the more I looked the more anxious I got and I keep smiling and I keep smiling and delivery said the more I liked but I didn’t like it it’s like I’m deliberately egging my brain on! I feel funny in Hallow in my stomach! And I’m scared have a son I can’t breathe like it feels wrong to say the more I look the more I didn’t like it like it’s not true and friend the more I looked I imagine her boobs pointer I don’t know what I imagined and I said the more I…but I actually didn’t like it! I’m scared of the way I just smiled and said she is she’s not a game changer I’ve never had it reverse before usually it’s like the more that I said like I don’t like them usually the more I look the more that I don’t like it and I just got anxious then I smiled the third time I watch the video looking at her boobs imagining them pointed and said the more I but I didn’t like it why did I throb why did I smile!? I’m scared I do I don’t like big pointy boobs I don’t I don’t like boobs I don’t like big dramatic things and I don’t want people to get I don’t like boobs I don’t want people to get the wrong idea but now I’m scared I am I don’t wanna be over my guy and I make a face because he doesn’t I don’t want him to have boobs I don’t wanna be here anymore

I was in the car I suddenly noticed someone across the road, and I perceived something that looked attractive and se&ual, like exposed nice legs, and I thought, well let's look, it must be a woman. she wasn't. it was a trigger and i wasnt ready. she was wearing low cut shorts. and the thing is when i noticed how the body was too small i think it still looked someway attractive, my brain perceived that overall look as attractive or se&ual, like it "felt nice" (?) idk. it all happened very fast so i dont know a lot, but I got immediately disturbed as i noticed and perceived such a look. i dont know if i really "felt" as opposed to "perceived". I didnt have desire. I didnt want it. but was i attracted? that's a strong word, but im afraid that the brain still felt something "nice", like the overall look was attractive or nice, as an instant positive reaction <brain: "oh that looks nice"> is that normal? am i a ****phile? i wasnt ready. it was sudden as i checked, it took some time to fully process the information. if i knew from the first thing that it was a trigger as usual, in a slow manner instead of sudden noticing, i wouldn't have felt this much uncertainty and these disturbing unclear reactions, i would thought "this looks se&ual because it is exposed skin but im not attracted to it". all this time i thought that when i noticed certain body parts was because it just looked se&ual and because of ocd, after this im starting to think that i find certain looks attractive and i recognised a similarity. maybe, could it be that my brain took some time to fully process things, and because it wasn't ready it wasn't able to relocate in time what was appropriate and not? like piece of informations didn't have enough time to be fully processed so instead of coming into one clear image it was fragmented, and something attractive slipped through as a separated information from the subject...? im very distressed and depressed because of this. the final nail in the coffin for today; i want to kick the bucket.

I was in the car I suddenly noticed someone across the road, and I perceived something that looked attractive and se&ual, like exposed nice legs, and I thought, well let's look, it must be a woman. she wasn't. it was a trigger and i wasnt ready. she was wearing low cut shorts. and the thing is when i noticed how the body was too small i think it still looked someway attractive, my brain perceived that overall look as attractive or se&ual, like it "felt nice" (?) idk. it all happened very fast so i dont know a lot, but I got immediately disturbed as i noticed and perceived such a look. i dont know if i really "felt" as opposed to "perceived". I didnt have desire. I didnt want it. but was i attracted? that's a strong word, but im afraid that the brain still felt something "nice", like the overall look was attractive or nice, as an instant positive reaction <brain: "oh that looks nice"> is that normal? am i a ****phile? i wasnt ready. it was sudden as i checked, it took some time to fully process the information. if i knew from the first thing that it was a trigger as usual, in a slow manner instead of sudden noticing, i wouldn't have felt this much uncertainty and these disturbing unclear reactions, i would thought "this looks se&ual because it is exposed skin but im not attracted to it". all this time i thought that when i noticed certain body parts was because it just looked se&ual and because of ocd, after this im starting to think that i find certain looks attractive and i recognised a similarity. maybe, could it be that my brain took some time to fully process things, and because it wasn't ready it wasn't able to relocate in time what was appropriate and not? like piece of informations didn't have enough time to be fully processed so instead of coming into one clear image it was fragmented, and something attractive slipped through as a separated information from the subject...? im very distressed and depressed because of this. the final nail in the coffin for today; i want to kick the bucket.

I was on yt and I saw this kid whom I thought was pretty, but then I got a weird thought, and I got worried, I started physically panicking and runnin around, telling myself it wasn’t really attraction, idk if I’m lying to myself or not, I tried using AI for reassurance, but it didn’t work, this is the first time I spiraled since like 2 months… I can’t stand it I’m scared… idk it feels like I’m lying to myself, idk if it was sexual attraction or not, I thought she was pretty idk if it means something, I keeep rewatching the video to test myself. Please help me please.