TWA I’m scared I said the more I looked at this girl‘s boobs the more and it’s usually the opposite but I don’t like her boobs I feel so funny in my stomach they I just called them but they’re not hot or sexy but they were really big and round and pushed off the chest I said exactly the way I but I didn’t like it exactly the way I… But I don’t like it! And I’m scared and the more I looked the more worked up I got but not in a good way and then there was a throb down there And I said boobs are brothers they’re not far from the definition of disgusting they’re not far from it! So what did I say that repeatedly? Boobs are I said not far from there the definition of disgusting! And I said the more I looked at the woman’s boobs the more that I never like that before I never liked it usually it’s the opposite I’ve never liked it! I can’t believe I said the more I look the more I like I didn’t like it I just got me feeling more and more anxious why did I throw up down there!? I said the more I look the more like I never liked it I don’t know! The more I looked and I can’t stop saying like I didn’t like it I’m scared I’m just history changing like I’m lying to myself the more I looked and I can’t stop saying liked and said I should embrace I don’t wanna embrace liking I don’t like boobs! The more I look the more I don’t know I’m scared I really did I didn’t I don’t why did I throb I never like boobs are usually the more I look the more I don’t like it! Is it don’t look anything more than I don’t like anything about boobs why would I say anything more I don’t like boobs I don’t like anything about them the more I looked the more anxious I got and I keep smiling and I keep smiling and delivery said the more I liked but I didn’t like it it’s like I’m deliberately egging my brain on! I feel funny in Hallow in my stomach! And I’m scared have a son I can’t breathe like it feels wrong to say the more I look the more I didn’t like it like it’s not true and friend the more I looked I imagine her boobs pointer I don’t know what I imagined and I said the more I…but I actually didn’t like it! I’m scared of the way I just smiled and said she is she’s not a game changer I’ve never had it reverse before usually it’s like the more that I said like I don’t like them usually the more I look the more that I don’t like it and I just got anxious then I smiled the third time I watch the video looking at her boobs imagining them pointed and said the more I but I didn’t like it why did I throb why did I smile!? I’m scared I do I don’t like big pointy boobs I don’t I don’t like boobs I don’t like big dramatic things and I don’t want people to get I don’t like boobs I don’t want people to get the wrong idea but now I’m scared I am I don’t wanna be over my guy and I make a face because he doesn’t I don’t want him to have boobs I don’t wanna be here anymore

@Bookworm91 I’m scared I thought of cat woman and said I want to I don’t want to let myself I don’t like her boobs I don’t want to I’m making a face and pushing my guy aside as though I don’t when I like picture no boobs I like balls I don’t like boobs and I’m scared that’s choking me like it’s a lie and for me to lie back and say I wanna let I don’t want to let myself I don’t want to like women’s boobs I don’t like hers I’m scared I do I don’t want to be in she wouldn’t I don’t care if she wouldn’t go for me I’m not bisexual I don’t care if she wouldn’t cover me I wouldn’t go for her I can’t stop making face like I am I’m not over guys And I make a face like my guy isn’t my guy like I am I’m not embarrassed I love him he is my guy. And I imagine someone guessing I said or what not him like I’m grossed out but I’m not I like pectorals I like boys balls are better than boobs boobs are not better than pectorals and I’m frightened I’m living a lie what street person says thinking of some other woman’s boobs saying let their souls I don’t want to let myself I don’t want to let anything happen like this I don’t like boobs and I’m scared it’s like all you can control it I don’t wanna let it happen I don’t like boobs why do I say the word let I feel like I’m burning in my chest I don’t like boobs I’m scared to do that I said there but I said heavy I don’t like her boobs in profile I called it hot and I don’t want the heaviness and I said they’re just hot they’re not hot they’re just heavy I’m scared I’m living a lie like I don’t I love my guy I don’t love boobs I’m not bisexual and I keep acting like my guy isn’t my guy if you know what I mean like he’s not but he is the guy! I’m trying to keep thinking of her boobs in the suit I’ll heavy and round in profile but I don’t like boobs on freedom condition myself to to be I don’t like boobs I don’t wanna be bisexual and I feel funny describing and I called them feeling hollow and hot in my chest but her boobs in the suit or not hot or sexy I don’t like her boobs I’m scared to do but I don’t I don’t wanna be over my guy I don’t like boobs

@Bookworm91 Hey so I’m just going to let you know this is a compulsion!!! You’re monitoring and checking your intrusive thoughts and trying to “think” them away which only makes them worse in the long run. You suffer from soocd which means these thoughts are common, I’ve definitely had these thoughts and I realized the more I pay attention to them the more they occur!!! I know it seems impossible but try to take your mind off of this

@PinkLotus Ok. I’ll try. I promise I am. I delete this app as an attempt to stop the compulsion to talk about it but that only works for so long. But I’ll keep trying. Just glad this is ocd and not….anything else

@Bookworm91 When you get that urge to type it out try to tell yourself “ I’ll do it later” then go distract yourself and when the urge comes again do the same thing. Keep pushing “later” without actually doing the compulsion

@PinkLotus Ok 👍🏻