What do false attractions feel like? Idk if I’m having them or if I’m just in denial?

I think what happens is I see an attractive women and that is my normal so it feels natural (Even tho my ocd liked to tell me it’s forced) but if I see an attractive man I almost just assume that I’ll find them attractive, and then I ask myself “do you find them attractive?” And the answer is always “oh god yes…” followed by a chain of anxiety and dread. Like my attraction towards men doesn’t ever make me feel good, i have to ask myself “did that make you feel good? Later on and it always feels like a yes and then it’s again followed my anxiety

@Human Potential But sometimes it feels like the attraction to men is automatic. But then it’s really confusing because it’s normal to notice is anyone is ‘good looking’ so it feels like Because I notice that that I am attracted to them? If that makes sense?

@Human Potential I was happy and content. I really was, and all my family and friends could see it. I was in deep love and now when I look back my brain just says “nah yoh werent it was all just compulsive love”

What if you are not sure if it started from a thought or not? Sometimes I feel like it’s the feeling and then the thoughts as well, do you know what that might mean?

@ironmike I get what you’re saying, it’s like you have the feeling followed by the intrusive thoughts?

@BradOCD Which makes it seem more real?

@ironmike What I mean by that is sometimes I notice that a man is attractive and then start getting Gronial responses which is after followed by the intrusive thoughts. Sometimes the order can be completely diffrent as well tho, as in intrusive thought first then groinal response etc…

@BradOCD Yeah exactly

@BradOCD Do you also get it like that sometimes. Because it can be really confusing

I’m just gonna try my best to not give a shit and expect the thoughts. Staying at home doing nothing definitely won’t help it’s fkn holidays let’s just enjoy ourselves bro