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Sometimes it’s normal to have these thoughts and don’t have the anxiety anymore and it isn’t because of how much anxiety they are giving you right now that makes the thought seem more real , don’t worry about it , if you need someone to talk , you can to me , I’m a straight man and all this stuff is getting complicated for me as well
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I was watching a video right now of this girl who quite pretty and has a bf but like out of all of the girls I would notice her more and I don’t even think this sounds okay coming from a straight woman but its like i notice her and then have thoughts like oh she’s pretty why does she have a bf?!? Like why would i get that thought and also like out all of the videos i saw hers only and then thought she is like pretty to date and like that felt too real and normal like I would say about a guy and like had thoughts like oh can’t date her she has a bf and these thoughts we’re not feeling intrusive like what does that mean? And if i am getting these thoughts i should panic amd close the video as a compulsion if its ocd but I didn’t and continued to watch it and i feel like writing this post too is just a forced compulsion cause i scared or whatever and why do i sometimes start agreeing to ocd or defending my denial and not ocd like I believe its denial more than ocd when i should be screaming and saying no its ocd and not denial and the thoughts that i had just felt so natural like I don’t know if they are real or not?!? Like where am i supposed to go from here and what can i do?!? And thoughts like dating her just seem non ocd cause ocd is as i have heard not imagining or fanaticising emotional things and this did feel something dk what but something and soocd is usually sexual intrusive thoughts w/o emotions so what were mine is this even ocd?!?
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@Brave through Sometimes I get these SOOCD thoughts but they come with no anxiety and I don’t avoid looking at them that much and that is normal , sometimes I got a voice screaming in my head stuff like “ what if “ or even “ you are in denial “ , and that alone makes me really annoyed , you’re clearly desperate and I truly believe that you have SOOCD , you’re not happy with your thoughts , I had my attraction towards the opposite sex diminshed as well , and sometimes it scares me that the possibility of kissing someone of the same sex isn’t too much anxiety provoking but I don’t want this , I know that I don’t want
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@2022Recovery I am genuinely just exhausted rn cause I constantly think what if I didn’t write all this like sometimes my brain tells me i am forcing all this and if I didn’t people ir even i would never know would that been true and caused me to accept it? Would i have and been okay with it!!? And when you say i know I don’t want it i used to say that earlier but the what ifs never end and my brain is so foggy and that anything for sure is always questioned as what if you want and then I don’t believe the statement i know I don’t when I should be idk if i am even making sense…
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@Brave through I know exactly how annoying this whole questioning , analyzing , avoidance , this whole process , I know how exhausting it is because I am going through the same , I was better for a week but now I feel worse
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@2022Recovery Same i am exhausted and tired too of feeling the similar way and idk what to do usually I don't notice the same sex at all when i am out but if sometimes i do as I notice the opposite sex my brain tells me and my confused heart and emotions too that you noticed her the same way you did him and there's no difference lime whats the difference line that mean you're bi and just in denial cause it's difficult to tell as you noticed them the similar way….. like what and where is the difference and this feels so real to deny like i don't know then what to even do.
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@Brave through I have the same feelings and this is all so debilitating, I hope you can find some comfort in the future
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@2022Recovery I wish the same for you may we all have a better and mentally healthy recovering next year:)
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@Brave through I hope so , this last part of the year felt so bad but I hope I can recover from it
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@2022Recovery We are all in this together and we will defeat it and become more stronger
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- 23w
I’ve had so many moments of clarity with my OCD that I love my boyfriend and I’m beyond willing to go through this to be better and be with him. in the back of mind I’ve in a way known I was at least somewhat sexually attracted to women (I’m a woman) since the start of the ocd it was always like “okay. Fine, but I don’t want to date a girl” I only just realized this after the ocd started, I never really argued with this. my ocd has always revolved around if I’m romantically interested in women and not men. I’ve done so many compulsions through this year and a half and 9 times out of 10 have come to the conclusion that I don’t want to be with a woman romantically. I always end up feeling like I know I love my boyfriend. But the doubts don’t stop about whether I want to spend my life with a woman instead, my heart literally breaks to think of not being with my bf and imagining him with someone else. I don’t want to be with a woman I know deep down somewhere underneath the anxiety that that’s not what I want. It doesn’t feel natural for me, unfulfilling. I want to tell my boyfriend about the possible sexual attraction to women (ik it’s still ocd related) but I’m scared that once I tell him, I’ll realize that I actually do want to be with women and not with him. Ugh I’ve spent hours today ruminating about this after being solid in my commitment with him for a little while, I’m stuck in this loop and idk how to get out right now
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I’m 25 and never ever thought this before my soocd relapse. I have a bf of 5 years. Never been a high libido kinda girl. Don’t get me wrong I do get turned on by my bf but not like every day you know? - That had always been in the back of my head, is this normal and ok? But my ocd has latched onto the most scariest what if EVER. My brain is now saying How do you know you won’t prefer to sleep and kiss girls if you haven’t tried it: and it’s that unknown that is scaring the shit out of me. I DONT AND NEVER HAVE wanted to sleep / kiss a girl. But now my intrusive thoughts is all I think about!!! I don’t want I don’t want I don’t want??? So why does my brain think BUT WHAT IF??? I know ocd thrives off uncertainty which is why I think this is happening? But I don’t wanna find out or work it out because all I want is to be with my bf and marry him!! Is this just the epitome of OCD?
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- 19w
Sorry long post. Anyone feel like now they’re just in extreme denial. Like when I was little I noticed guys more than girls in movies and was more drawn to them. I remember changing my mindset to switch that. 98%of my life has been straight until recently. I felt drawn to some guys but never thought of it sexually. Always had girl crushes dreams and porn. Now I watch porn and I feel like straight takes longer and then I go and watch gay porn and feel nothing until I tell myself it’s two attractive dudes and love is love and imagine physical sensations and then it hits like suddenly. Like I have to convince myself it’s alright. Then when I try again I can do all that but feel nothing and then straight porn works. Idk if it’s just getting a fix or the first time works with anything or what but it’s confusing. On top of that I’ve felt girl relationships including my wife maybe miss something and a guy maybe matches that feeling that but then I feel like I’d be missing something without a girl or my wife. Idk I’ve had some rough times in life with male figures in my life but idk. I feel like I have to convince myself more and more that I’m straight even more than the first time I dealt with this. Can someone relate? Please
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