I’m so scared. I keep thinking what if my real event OCD is so bad that it puts me in a category as something I would NEVER want to be. I’m freaking out. I can’t get relief from this at all. I’m starting to think I deserve this 💔

Thank you so much for understanding and I hope your right because my mind won’t shut off about things and it’s twisting it to make it sound worse. Like way worse if you know what I mean. I hate to even talk about it because it’s scary to me. But thank you for understanding and I’m so sorry for posting about it so much. I can’t get any relief from this. Part of me wants to move forward but ocd isn’t letting me and it’s holding me back from doing things I love and being around people I care about. I hope one day everything will be ok again. Thank you again and Merry Christmas!

@Just Breathe ❤️ Merry Christmas to you too, and don’t worry about posting so much. You’re currently spiraling and are in the thick of your OCD, I was in the exact same spot these past couple of months and I only started to start being a bit better like a week or two weeks ago. OCD is hell, remember that false memory comes in a lot with real event and it can distort and twist our events to make them far worse then what we originally feared, the only thing keeping me sane of my fear from the dating apps is looking back at who I am and knowing that I would NEVER do what my OCD is convincing me of and it brings me a lot of peace when I remember something new or am able to get rid of the false memory surrounding something, but OCD will only keep getting stronger the more we focus on the events, which is why I just think about how I’m going to have a nice dinner with my family for Christmas and that I’m going to go see Spider-Man for the second time on Sunday, because that’s all that’s what’s going on in my life right now and the past holds no wait on me except for in my mind, I know I’ve changed and am better, and that I’m trying to be a good person every day and every chance I get, that’s all I can do and I think it’s enough, you’re even was a long time ago, you’ve lived your life after that and you should continue living your life like you were before, without constantly ruminating on the event, you’re not a bad person, you just have OCD, I genuinely and whole heartedly wish you the best and think you deserve to be happy

@OCDHaver Omg I saw Spider Man also the day before last and it was so good! I’m just hoping that it’s just ocd doing all this and I’m not worried for a reason because there’s this voice in the back of my mind that keeps saying it was legally wrong and that I’m a really bad monster who deserves to be punished and it blocks out all positivity or good things in my life because it scares me so much and causes a lot of anxiety. I know I would never make the same mistakes knowing what I know now and I hope that I can be forgiven and I can truly love myself again because I know I have potential and the strength to do better in life I’m just being held back but so many things in my past, including that and trauma too. Thank you so much. That means a lot and I believe the same for you too. You deserve to be happy and I wish you the best as well.