TW I’ve been taking Flexeril/Tylenol p.m. on and off for got a month almost. And I Obsessed about body parts I don’t I don’t like the same sex I have the same OCD as you. And I can’t stop obsessing about how boobs stick out and I really don’t like it. I don’t know I said nothing And I keep feeling these hollow hot rushes in my chest about thinking of how they stick out and saying nothing anything is hotter than that I’m scared that my opinion has changed overtime like I I don’t know if the pills are affecting me because I always get a little weird when I take too much stuff especially since it’s not prescribed to me. But I can’t stop thinking of how they stick out and boobs naked and it I said it used to it and never once did it for me used to not and it’s not necessarily doing it now that’s not the right word but I’m scared I don’t wanna start noticing women and I’m spiraling and I need help but I can’t tell what’s going on. I said nothing and I’m friend I must be I don’t wanna be bisexual okay I’m straight I don’t give a damn about like morality because it’s not a moral issue and now I can’t stop making a face and I’m scared I can’t enjoy guys and I keep shaking my head in the negative like I can’t enjoy guys chest muscles anymore and I make a face like it’s not but it is sexy to me muscles much better than fat solid muscle not huge ass stuff but still. And I can’t I have the tendency to lie on my side when I go to sleep and because I do that I imagine when I don’t I keep imagining having doing what guys and bab doing having one in my hand and in my you know like I said what guys and babies do . Boobs are not hot and I keep feeling weird like in my chest keep filling these brushes like I’m fine that’s the real me like I do I feel so hot and bubbly in Hollow my chest and say nothing anything is hotter than that! I don’t like boobs and I’m fra I’m changing and the rushing in my chest is scaring me and at the the fact that I keep describing them as nothing when anything is hotter than that I said I’m scared there’s nothing anything hotter I don’t wanna change and become so I don’t wanna float I’m not bisexual they’re not hot I don’t wanna be in the middle and I feel like ripping my heart out and I don’t know why because my hearts never been in this and I keep saying till now but my heart still is not into it like I don’t know if you think in symbols but I do like you know how Volvo has that symbol where is the circle with the little arrow sticking out on top and that’s also the male symbol that’s what’s like right over my heart if that makes sense like tattooed into it. My heart is for men like my guy/men like men broadly my guy specifically And I hate acting all excited like and I’m scared anything is hotter as sexy and I said then a pair of nice one I don’t like boobs they’re not nice they’re not hot and I don’t want bigger more muscular guys I’m frightened nothing I said nothing repeatedly and I’m so sorry anything is hotter than a really big muscular guy and then said nothing anything is hotter than boobs and I’m scared I’m so tempted to dis except and live but I don’t want to live a lesbian or bisexual life that’s not my thing I don’t really give a damn about what other people do just I don’t want to be like that. And I can’t stop thinking of boobs I can’t stop thinking of triangles and feeling a rush like but it’s not hot I don’t wanna be bisexual I don’t want to like the way poop stick out I don’t like triangles I don’t wanna suck them I don’t want to have them in my hand and I feel so disgusted embarrassed than anybody knows this And I’m scared tits are but they’re not I don’t wanna feel better saying they are cause that’s what started this like I said too are not hot and I said I emphasize they are but they’re not hot and it felt really wrong to say that and I felt to burn in my chest and now I can’t stop imagining when I don’t want to do I’m trying I can’t stop and I’m scared something shifted and become but it’s still not hot I said it does but it doesn’t feel hot and I keep insisting but it doesn’t feel hot or sexy just a unpleasant I’m trying I can’t stop I’m scared I I don’t I like I I don’t want to put my chin up and what guys and baby‘s do boobs are not hot I’ve never felt like that before boobs are not hot what’s this warm rush of feeling in my chest!? I’m scared I make faces like I can enjoy and find this proves all my other thoughts like I do I don’t like hanging they’re not hot I keep insisting there is and I’m scared that’s my truth and I can’t avoid it for nothing I said nothing anything is hotter than that I keep insisting so strong and there is nothing not about it I don’t understand . No I can’t stop they’re not I feel so funny they’re not hot and I can’t stop imagining boobs in detail and I’m scared I cringe other guys like I don’t want them I said I don’t but I do want pectorals I keep adding and like it must be like it’s OK I don’t want it to be I said it so easily and casually like I said pector or not and I went through with it anyway even though I realized it was wrong pectors are hotter I can’t stop saying nothing that is that’s not my truth I can’t stop packs are it’s not that they’re not and I’m frying everything is changed and I’ve been living a lie I can’t stop saying they’re not they are they are so much hotter PECS are much that I keep shaking my head to the negative acting like my‘s my guys are nasty but they’re not pecs are hotte i’m scared or not but pics the guy can’t stop making a face like not I’m find I’ve been living and I’m changing I don’t scared I act like he’s not nasty my guys chest doesn’t look like boobs and his is not overdeveloped I don’t understand how I could be straight and still say naturally that pes are not but pector are much better I can’t I’m scared that makes me feel tight in the chest like it’s a lie and I’m scared or not I keep insisting that they’re not with a negative shake of my head like no but pecks are much better And I can’t stop amazing boobs in detail now they’re not hotter pecks are hotter than tits tits are not hotter they are not hotter than pecs better pecs are much better pecs are better why am I making faces like they are they’re not nasty pecs much much better I keep saying but in the boobs are not better I’m scared I am I’m scared I don’t wanna get used to it I’m scared I can’t I feel like screaming and saying they aren’t the not hot boobs are not better they’re not hot in the boys boys boobs and I’m scared I’m scared I said I can’t I like that is it’s not my truth I can’t stop I feel like screaming shaking my head and the negative thing not but boys have always been better not can’t stop saying not but boys are better than move and do not that better I can’t stop and I don’t want my truth interchange I can’t stop shaking my head and the negative saying that the boys are better boobs are not better than boys I’m scared and desperate enough right now I’m acting like my my guys not gross but boys are better boobs are not better than boys boys are better than boobs I don’t like boobs turn off better Im sorry for everything. Im sorry