Anyone with their bf just say are u sure hes the one? Like deep down i know. But my brain keepa saying have you seen enough men? Its like i dont want to

I’m like 90% sure I’m just bi, more romantically inclined to men, mainly my bf who I wanna marry. But now my brain is like “if you lean into liking women or keep circling and circling for answers you’ll lose all attraction to men and your bf. You’re practically already a lesbian” I feel so tense and anxious I will admit I am talking to chat gpt out of desperation I’m scared of losing all attraction to him I don’t wanna be thinking about women. I don’t unless I’m really stressed cuz when I’m stressed my ocd can take advantage of that I can usually ground myself when I’m in the city with him but I’m back home for most of the summer and I can’t be physically close to him which usually reminds me that hey this is real this is what I really want in life. Him But then I panic and question I haven’t been here in a while tbh. I’m worried I don’t feel enough. I don’t like magic Mike all that much, I like softer guys. But now the fact I don’t like/get turned on by random men on tv but do women in lingerie really stresses me out and makes me worry I’m truly a lesbian but I’m not. Once I started getting to know my bf and my ex bf’s I really did truly genuinely like them and wanted to make out and everything. Idk can anyone relate to the not liking big buff men All my brain is repeating rn is “when he dies you’ll be able to date a woman, when you break up you’ll only wanna date women” and it’s stressing me out. It’s making me nauseous. I was doing well for about a couple days after I initially left but being at home has been so incredibly draining This might give you a vision of how stressful home is: I’ve been on nexplanon for 7 months ish? Only had very minimal spotting during a stressful school period. Today: fully bleeding, like a usual period. I haven’t had my period since having it put in. I wanna go back to my bf so badly rn. I’m so worried I’m faking or don’t feel enough. I’m learning what a healthy relationship looks like and I’m terrified I’m gonna up and leave him when we’re older cuz I’ll finally figure out that I’m a lesbian or smthn. Idk. Someone pls just help me out a tad

i feel so confused my boyfriend and i have dated for 4 years off and on and now we finally have been together for six months again but its been so confusing im battling relationship ocd and i dont know if it just means im not supposed to be with him. we keep running into problems and he just thinks im bot happy with him, qhen he says that i cant discern, i just get confused. i pray to god but i just dont know

I love my boyfriend I find him attractive, and I know it’s a choice to see that and appreciate it, but why do I get struck by some men I see who are cute but I’m used to Josh? It’s like he doesn’t strike me as much anymore. He’s cute, but like I want him to strike me and maybe it takes me recognizing what I love. But I’m used to him lol, like I can notice other men’s attraction and obviously not wanna be with them. I’m just tryna figure out healthy ways of thinking. Like I see Josh I notice him but I’m not struck by his handsomeness I’m kind of used to t I guess? Is this infatuation