I’m scared I am I don’t want to change I’m around my cayenne and I’m not trying to be mean because she’s not a bad person I don’t think like that. But I’m scared I keep saying my gay I don’t have any gay to come out I’m not gay but I keep getting scared my love for my guys going away like I’m becoming I’m scared I keep saying mine is coming I don’t want mine to come out I’m not gay I don’t want to have any I’m not gay I don’t have a drop of it in me I don’t like the same sex out like the body parts and I’m scared I don’t wanna be getting over my guy I feel funny I don’t want bigger more muscular guys! I was trying to look something up beautiful men and I don’t get why beautiful men have giant huge rounded over development and I said they’re not bad but they didn’t feel good you know what I mean I don’t know how to explain that like why did I say not bad we’re not internally I don’t like them and I almost got disgusted why the bites muscular guys and I’m scared thatthat compounds me saying mine is I’m scared I keep I’m scared it’s there and I keep knowing saying mine I don’t have any gay I don’t want it and I keep saying I don’t want it to trump my heterosexuality but I don’t have any gay to have it I’m scared I’m literally nodding up and down like I do but I don’t have any of that in me and now I’m scared to act disgusted with guys I just don’t want more muscular ones and I went to my moms bathroom instead of mine so I can be worn and no one can hear me and I checked myself and there’s way more clear sticky stuff down there that I would like and I’m scared this proves that I am but I’m not gay I don’t have any attraction to women there’s no why do I keep calling it mine there’s no gate to come out and smother something else I don’t have a single drop of gay I don’t have any gay in me and I don’t wanna pick up more muscular guy I don’t want anyone to be have a better place than my guy because I don’t think anybody does but it’s the my coming out thing is I’m not gay I don’t understand how I can say that it’s not mine ! Why is there clear sticky liquid I don’t have any gay why is there extra discharge down there I’m not gay I feel like screaming I don’t feel good I’m not gay there’s nothing inside of me like that so why is there extra stuff going on being around my gay and I’m not gay I don’t wanna be like her and I am not saying she’s a bad person but I keep calling in mine I’m not gay I don’t want any of that I’m literally treating myself and I’m scared I keep imagining it being deep deep inside myself and I keep nodding up and down like I do I don’t have any percentage of it why am I acting like it exist and now when I say that I’m not I’m talking like it’s a lie but I don’t have any gayness in me! So why is there extra discharge and I keep saying we all do it’s like speak for yourself not all of us we don’t all do I don’t have any gay in me and I’m scared why is there extra discharge!? I’m why am I calling it mine and really nodding up and down acting like it exists that I keep acting like a knot up-and-down and I really am I’m acting like it’s there I don’t want it there and keep saying oh we all we don’t all do I said it’s small it’s and it’s not small or big it’s nonexistent why am I actually like it’s there it’s not I don’t have any gay and me why is that extra discharge