⚠️⚠️ TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️ ⚠️ PLEASE PLEASE HELP I can’t stop I’m not gay but I keep making a face at my guy and I keep shaking my head and the negative like don’t I like pectorals I keep saying and I don’t like tits I don’t wanna be bisexual I don’t like tits I can’t stop shaking my head and the negative but I like pectorals I don’t like tits why am I treating his chest like it isn’t shaking my head in the negative I like his chest I’m making a face like pecs are and scared am I’m NOT faking I like pecs not tits I’m really scared feel like I’m Not faking why am I making a face I can’t stop like it is I even made a face and acted like and I’m scared I mean it but he’s not nasty They’re talking about horrible things some guys do I said don’t I DO even like guys

I’m trying it’s not really working. I hear my mom watching Forrest Gump and she’s at the part where Jenny singing naked and I keep thinking of her vagina and I don’t like it but I keep acting like I do and I don’t and I act like I don’t mind but I do like it it’s really an emptiness basically no reaction but I keep going through these kind of shallow motions of acting like I’m going to I’m scared I am I don’t wanna develop anything and I’m scared I don’t want to do anything sexual I don’t wanna start I don’t want JoJo and I don’t wanna find it attractive and I’m scared I don’t wanna think of her I’m scared I don’t want to change your shift I don’t want naked women become part is I feel funny my stomach I don’t want naked women to become positive it’s not something sexy I don’t want to change 🥺🥺🥺

@Bookworm91 I was about to delete this app not my account just the app because I try to delete it to combat my compulsion to talk about it and obviously it doesn’t really work as well as I’d like but sometimes it does get my post count down so that’s good. But I said boobs aren’t they’re not better I feel tight I I I feel tighten my throat like I can’t breathe ‘ cause I made a face over when I love my guys chest and I don’t want it to be combined I don’t I call them but they’re not hot as sexy I’ve never liked big is the same masculine that’s not the right word big super muscular overdeveloped guys like in the chest or any other part of the body like I don’t like huge dudes I like length and leans to my muscle like to the guys I like you know and then act like boobs are I said they’re maternal better than guys and I don’t understand if I’m straight how can I say these things moved or not I said that much they’re not better I’m scared boobs they’re not they’re not better than guys I don’t like them

@Bookworm91 Keep trying. You’ll get through this. Remember your goal is not to ruminate and let the anxiety come down naturally. It’ll be there and it’ll be distressing but your brain can’t feel this forever. It will do its thing and come back down. Just let it do its thing and don’t perform any compulsions including rumination.