Please someone help with my last posts. I feel really along and I don’t know what to. I’m really scared and worried because of the horrible and terrifying intrusive thoughts I had about my little niece. What can I do about this? She was wearing black leggings earlier and I kept getting horrible intrusive thoughts like “she looks sexy in those leggings” or something like that and it just kept repeating the more I tried to argue with it. I’m terrified I’m a monster and I really don’t want to be one. I spent all day with my niece but as soon as she put on leggings my ocd latched onto it and it’s really worrying me. Please don’t judge me or anything I promise I absolutely hate the thoughts. I’m really scared I want to cry and I can’t

They are just so graphic! And whenever it says things like “sexy” “hot” or whatever like that it worries me because it feels so real! Like it tries to tell me it’s true or an actual opinion. Like that’s my little niece! No way would I ever want that or the thoughts! I’m so sad because I feel like I have to confess and I’m scared to

@Just Breathe ❤️ Confess to my mom

@Just Breathe ❤️ I know I’m late to reply, but don’t confess to your mom. I know you might really want to, I’ve definitely been there where I was confessing to everyone left and right, but it really only does make OCD worse in the long run, and I’ve read some past posts off yours where it seems your mom doesn’t really I understand OCD super well, and if she says something out of ignorance of OCD, it can really hurt you, they’re just intrusive thoughts, pay no attention to them

@OCDHaver I just had more intrusive thoughts just now about my little niece again and myself and it was so disgusting and scary. But it feels like I thought it myself and it wasn’t intrusive. Definitely unwanted. I hate them so much but it felt like I actually thought it myself if that makes sense. They were sexual intrusive thoughts and they were so bad. Things about losing virginity and other things. It was awful. There was another really bad one but I don’t remember what it was because I tried really hard to let it go and ignore it but it’s so rough. I feel so much guilt and shame it’s unreal

@Just Breathe ❤️ I’ve had those kinds of intrusive thoughts as well, they’re incredibly disturbing, I know how you feel, most of my OCD surround sexual things, such as my real events, false memories and intrusive thoughts, they’re all horrifying. But please know these are just thoughts, the reason you think them, especially now, is because you’ve become obsessed, you’re constantly questioning your thoughts, past, your intentions, everything. So clearly, if you the more you think about it, the more your brain is going to have them and will use it against you, you need to try and let the things come and pass, feeling anxious is horrible, but just breathe and let then thoughts go, remember they’re not real

@OCDHaver Thank you that’s very helpful and I’m going to try. I know people say not to be afraid of the thoughts but I can’t help but be afraid because they are so horrible to me. But I’m going to try and do what you said. Easier said than done unfortunately but I guess I need to try harder. I feel so defeated especially lately

@Just Breathe ❤️ It is easier said then done, remember we’re all with you, my real event was horrible today. But also remember, it’s not about not being scared, but rather allowing yourself to feel your emotions, to not avoid them and to just let them pass. It’s the only way to take our minds back. OCD will do anything it can to try and stay in power, but facing it head on and not wavering is the best we can do it get rid of it

@OCDHaver That’s very true and I’m so sorry to hear that. Real event is so hard to get through but it is possible. Surprisingly mine has given me a bit of a break but I’m sure it will come back to haunt me again because that’s how OCD is. I hope you feel better and thank you for your help again. You’ve been very helpful and I appreciate that so much