I can’t do this. I’m freaking out. I’m hiding in the bathroom I don’t want to be around anyone I’m so ashamed of the intrusive thoughts I had today. I don’t know what to do

It's a intrusive thought u didn't want it so there's no need to be be ashamed🙂

I know but it was so bad. It was about my niece. She was wearing leggings and it said “she looks sexy in those leggings” and I tried arguing with it and it kept repeating over and over and I’m so scared right now because why would I have a thought like that! Especially only when she’s wearing leggings and not another time? What if it was an actual opinion? I’m so sad right now.

Ur having no pleasure from it, its distressing so that's a good sign that it's not a desire so there there isn't enything to worry about:) hope that helped

Thank you that does help it’s just so scary. I don’t even want to be around her anymore and she’s visiting for a week

Don't avoid her that's a compulsion witch will keep u trapped in the ocd be around her do exposers and over time u will train ur brain to not be so anxious around her and don't try to argue with ur intrusive thoughts just leave them be because thoughts arnt a sign of true desire

Thank you I appreciate your help thank you

@Just Breathe ❤️ Ur welcome

I just don’t understand how it was as soon as she put black leggings on that I had that intrusive thought. Does that make it real?

@Just Breathe ❤️ No its prob just a trigger

@Just Breathe ❤️ I suffer intrusive sexual thoughts my self so ur not alone

@Anonymous Thank you for understanding. I’m sorry you are going through sexual intrusive thoughts too. They really suck

@Just Breathe ❤️ Only way to get better is to just Accept Uncertainty, I’ve gotten over HOCD , POCD but got Existential ocd

@InaPanic Accepting the uncertainty is so damn difficult. I know inherently that's what I need to do but I struggle so much with it. It's awesome to see you were able to conquer some of your obsessions though. That makes me feel like I can too.

@InaPanic It’s so hard to accept uncertainty but if that’s what I need to do to make this all go away then so be it because I’m so tired of living my life in fear

@Just Breathe ❤️ That’s the Spirit , just give all you got this was my Hiearchy wrote gay story , recorded the story and listened to it every night, read coming out stories , Watching Modern Family, Broke back Mountain but your Female so maybe watch Black Swan and The L Word

Thoughts don’t mean anything, I notice the more I try not to have intrusive thoughts the more I have them.