PinkLotus
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- 3y
Bookworm91Bookworm91
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- 3y
I’m going through similar shit despite the fact that he’s not my boyfriend although I wish he was. I know How you feel don’t be fooled. Right now I feel so exhausted like I am when I’m not tired of my guy like I literally don’t want another person I don’t want my coworker and I feel warm in my chest but he’s not as attractive as the guy I actually want and I don’t wanna settle and I can’t stand my coworker not in that way like he’s OK he’s nice but definitely no for me though so I definitely understand what you’re going through
PinkLotusPinkLotus
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- 3y
Thanks, sorry to hear you’re going through the same it really sucks not being able to peacefully be with the person you want
Bookworm91Bookworm91
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- 3y
@PinkLotus Yeah 😓
PinkLotusPinkLotus
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@Bookworm91 Did you add something else ??
PinkLotusPinkLotus
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@Bookworm91 Sorry it did the thing with the extra comments again
Bookworm91Bookworm91
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- 3y
@PinkLotus No I didn’t
Bookworm91Bookworm91
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- 3y
@PinkLotus Can I leave something here? It’s triggering as hell but I need someone’s help 🥺🆘
PinkLotusPinkLotus
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@Bookworm91 Sure I can’t answer right away but as soon as I can I will
Bookworm91Bookworm91
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- 3y
@Bookworm91 I keep saying heck no not yeah but it’s actually yeah not no I do want him my guy men not the feminine and I don’t want that dude who looks like a woman and does make up James someone heck no not yeah I said I do I don’t want him I’m thinking of him I don’t want that James feminine guy no offense to him I think it’s cause I’m literally thinking of mail body parts but I keep saying heck no not yeah but I do do want him it’s not no I do want him I want my guy not James not a woman I said so it’s such casual and a shrug my shoulder like maybe I have I don’t want to move on I’ll get over him I want my guy why do I keep saying heck no it’s not I said I keep saying so emphatically it’s not yeah it and insisting it is but it’s not no it’s yeah it’s not no I do want him my guy it’s not that I don’t
Bookworm91Bookworm91
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- 3y
@Bookworm91 I’m sorry I keep saying boobs but I said nothing and shaking my head negative anything is better than boobs I said anything is better than but I like boys not boobs why can I stop saying anything nothings better than boys anything better than boobs why am I compulsively saying that I’m skinny and I don’t like the beat I’m not starting to like the word I don’t like boobs there’s nothing better about them and I’m frightened I make a face like oh now these finally in good shape but like I said I take my guy no matter what but I’m cringing like it is but it’s not nasty and I’m scared I won’t anymore and I’m literally acting like it is and I keep possibly picking even though I’ve never like boobs and I don’t wanna start now I can’t stop making a face like I don’t but I love his chest
Bookworm91Bookworm91
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- 3y
@Bookworm91 I keep saying nothing anything is better than boobs and why do I feel were saying that it’s not I said it’s not it is true it’s not not true why can’t I stop saying I’m scared that is and I have to except it that’s not my truth I’m scared I am I don’t like the heavy round ones or any other shape or size or color I don’t like boobs I don’t like anything about them
Bookworm91Bookworm91
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- 3y
I’m really sorry I must be really annoying and bugging you. Why I just don’t understand I said my heart months and then I shook my hand negative and said not but I want boys not boobs definitely not those and I keep insisting nothing anything is better anything is better than that it’s not hotter it’s not sexy it’s not hot I’m scared why do I feel tight in the chest like I’m lying? I don’t like boobs there’s nothing oh my God I almost said I said in my head nothing I like more I don’t like anything less not more I don’t wanna feel better saying more I don’t like boobs I really don’t like anything less not more there’s nothing good about them in my eyes like that at all actually why would I say nothing more I don’t like them! There’s nothing I’d like less I’m gonna go away now got a put myself on time out because I’m going crazy
PinkLotusPinkLotus
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- 3y
You keep trying to control your thoughts and feelings and that’s simply not possible ! It doesn’t matter what your brain says or what thoughts it throws at you, the more you react like you are and the more you try to question why you’re having the thoughts the worse they get. It’s so easy to get trapped in the cycle but this is making it worse long run. The thoughts are there because they’re constantly ruiminated on which makes your mind have them more. Don’t try to control what your mind says! You can’t
Bookworm91Bookworm91
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- 3y
@PinkLotus Ok 🥺😞 I just don’t want my guy to go away from my head and heart and definitely don’t want it replaced with you know
PinkLotusPinkLotus
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- 3y
@Bookworm91 Of course I 100% feel you, I worry the same. I don’t know much anymore, but the fact that it matters so much to us has to mean something ❤️
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Anonymousssssss
- Date posted
- 18w
Can someone please offer words of advice :(
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- Date posted
- 16w
Soocd: need some response , is this even ocd?
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