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what does your disassociation feel like? Mine like blocks my emotions and feekings of love towards my FAM... Even feelinga of attraxtion towards my husband? Have you dealt with this? Also when does it let up? I've had a really anxiety and panic filled month
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So mine feels very void of emotions as well but it also feels like I am out of my own body like the things that are happening around me are not actually happening. It makes me feel so uncomfortable in my own body. Sometimes it’s only for a moment and other times it can last for days and all I want to do is sleep to make the feeling go away.
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I started feeling this about a few months ago after a really bad harm OCD episode toward my fiancé. It’s been really rough but I just have to find something to ground myself.
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Mine feels like its lingering and like I've lost my sense of self and who I am? Is this common... Never had this before do not really meaning to seek reassurance
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Yes when I first started experiencing this I felt so numb I could barely talk or walk I just felt like I was no longer there. It gets easier with time but it definitely takes getting used to.
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I relate❤️ im sorry you feel that way. The more you concentrate on it, the worse it will be. Just be like “im uncomfortable and thats ok. Im safe”
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That has been the hardest part is powering through it but at least I am not alone!
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It makea harm ocd so much worse. O want to feel love again
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It can yes. Like I said it does get easier as time goes on but it does not help with other things.
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I’ve recently started having harm OCD episodes. Sometimes I feel so hopeless, like I’ll never be the same again.
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It feels like that for awhile but I promise it does get better! You will have some days that will still be a battle but you will also have days that feel like you don’t have it at all.
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How do you cope with it? My wife has been so supportive of me. An the harm ocd is somewhat towards her. The thought of it make me so scared because I’d never harm her or anyone.
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I am in the same boat. Unfortunately my hocd started with my fiancé who I love more than anything. I am still trying to find ways to cope but I usually just tell myself that I can get through it and try to distract myself with a good movie or a game. I am still struggling myself but getting better.
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Every time I go home and back I live about 9 hrs away my ocd acts up. Change has always been a trigger! Your not alone
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It’s the worst :( thankfully my family has been really helpful but I just feel so uncomfortable
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TW I’m feeling really bad about myself today. I feel like a fraud and a liar. I’ve been unable to enjoy my time with my girlfriend because I’m bombarded with my thoughts. I’ve been asking for reassurance from so many people and nothing is helping. Nothing makes me feel better anymore and I’m worried that this is just how it’s going to be for forever. I miss when I could just be happy and not overthink so much. I miss being able to get through my days without this crippling anxiety. I’m worried there’s going to be a day where I realize I have no fight left in me
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My mental health is declining due to ocd. It’s like a huge mix between ocd episode and depression wave. I feel weak and hopeless. I wanna cry. I’m exhausted . I feel like I’ve lost myself again.
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Lately, I’ve been feeling so disconnected from my boyfriend, and I don’t understand why. When I look at him, it feels like I’m looking at a stranger, and my mind keeps telling me that I don’t like him, that I never really loved him, or that I was just attached and comfortable. It feels real, and that terrifies me. I know logically that ROCD makes me overanalyze every little feeling, but it doesn’t make this any easier. I keep waiting to feel something—love, excitement, even relief—but instead, I just feel numb and distant. When we talk, I feel weird. When he kisses me, I don’t feel much. I keep thinking, ‘If I really loved him, wouldn’t I feel something?’ And the fact that I don’t just fuels my anxiety even more. It scares me that I can’t remember how I felt before ROCD took over. I look at old pictures, and my brain tells me, ‘That wasn’t real, you were just excited to have a relationship.’ And because I can’t access those feelings right now, it makes me doubt everything even more. I also feel guilty because my boyfriend is so loving and patient, but I feel like I’m hurting him. He tells me he doesn’t feel loved by me anymore, and I hate that I can’t just snap out of this and be the way I was before. It’s exhausting. I don’t know what’s real anymore. I keep checking how I feel every second, and it just makes me feel worse. I know that’s a compulsion, but it’s so hard to stop. I keep searching for certainty, but no answer satisfies me. Even when I try to accept the uncertainty, my mind screams, ‘But what if you don’t love him? What if you’re just lying to yourself?’ I want to be present with him. I want to feel love naturally again. But I don’t know how to get there, and it’s terrifying.”
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