I have been back at home for Christmas and I thought being home for a week would be a good thing but I feel like the change in my surroundings has made me feel uneasy. I feel irritated and very out of it. Dissociation can feel so exhausting and scary. I wish I could just enjoy my time with family without being worried something will happen when I lose myself.

Every time I go home and back I live about 9 hrs away my ocd acts up. Change has always been a trigger! Your not alone

It’s the worst :( thankfully my family has been really helpful but I just feel so uncomfortable

what does your disassociation feel like? Mine like blocks my emotions and feekings of love towards my FAM... Even feelinga of attraxtion towards my husband? Have you dealt with this? Also when does it let up? I've had a really anxiety and panic filled month

So mine feels very void of emotions as well but it also feels like I am out of my own body like the things that are happening around me are not actually happening. It makes me feel so uncomfortable in my own body. Sometimes it’s only for a moment and other times it can last for days and all I want to do is sleep to make the feeling go away.

I started feeling this about a few months ago after a really bad harm OCD episode toward my fiancé. It’s been really rough but I just have to find something to ground myself.

Mine feels like its lingering and like I've lost my sense of self and who I am? Is this common... Never had this before do not really meaning to seek reassurance

Yes when I first started experiencing this I felt so numb I could barely talk or walk I just felt like I was no longer there. It gets easier with time but it definitely takes getting used to.

I relate❤️ im sorry you feel that way. The more you concentrate on it, the worse it will be. Just be like “im uncomfortable and thats ok. Im safe”

That has been the hardest part is powering through it but at least I am not alone!

It makea harm ocd so much worse. O want to feel love again

It can yes. Like I said it does get easier as time goes on but it does not help with other things.

I’ve recently started having harm OCD episodes. Sometimes I feel so hopeless, like I’ll never be the same again.

It feels like that for awhile but I promise it does get better! You will have some days that will still be a battle but you will also have days that feel like you don’t have it at all.

How do you cope with it? My wife has been so supportive of me. An the harm ocd is somewhat towards her. The thought of it make me so scared because I’d never harm her or anyone.