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i feel you. shit breaks my heart. i wanna be able to live freely with no thoughts. i wanna be able to hang out with my siblings like nothing ever happened. i wanna be the mom i always dreamed of being. this took everything from me..
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The worst part about it is that you can’t do anything to stop the ocd so you have to watch it destroy everything you care about.
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@Anxioushumanchels i get so excited one day about graduation or even just being okay for once then i tell myself i don’t deserve to be happy or i don’t deserve to live. this has taken absolutely almost everything from me.
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@Anonymous_234 You have no control over the ocd so why should you be punished because of it?
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@Anxioushumanchels i keep punishing myself for everything. i tried to spoil myself by buying something i always wanted and i ended up putting it back because of all the guilt and shame 😞
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I feel like I’ll never lead a normal life again with OCD, my thoughts have begun to be convince especially about POCD. I feel like so sad and down that this will be my life forever. I’ll never get to fall in love again without intrusive thoughts. I’ll never be worth falling in love with. I can never be intimate again. I’m just done, my life is over. I can’t even look at my nephew and niece anymore without the smile fading. It feels like I’m so nasty and then my brain convinces me this is how I feel. That there’s some part of me that is a p*do and that’s it. I’m a disgusting human being for that. I just feel hopeless
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Please read this. I’ve had ocd pretty much a lot of my life but never knew what it was until my senior year of highschool. I’m 21 with 2 kids and i believe i’ve had pocd a little bit before my daughter was born (which was 8 months ago). It made me start looking at all kids differently and i hate it. But it really started triggering me about 3 months ago. I’ve been thinking if i’d intentionally touched or harmed my kids the wrong way, or any kids for that matter. This started giving me false memories (or at least hope they are). I’ve been having panic attacks, yelling at myself, punching walls, praying, and even thoughts of ending my own life. I grew up in a severe toxic household throughout my childhood and teenage life. I’ve never wished that on my kids since i became a dad. I wanna give them the life i never got. I look back my photos of my children and i feel like i’m a complete fraud of a dad. I cannot look at my kids or be around them a lot of times. I can’t hold my daughter right. I can’t change their diaper when they need it. Even my son came and was hugging on me the other night while i was watching tv and i acted like a stranger to him. I can very little do this stuff sometimes because it’s either i get relief or i push my thoughts as far back as i can. I get scared if i did something to not just my kids, but any other kids in the past. I have such a a great life and such a beautiful family. It was hard and stressful at first being young with a family but i couldn’t be more thankful at all for them. I’m just so lost and stressed right now that i just don’t know what to do anymore
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- 12w
My pocd actually started cause of I accidentally read a cp manga and I didn’t have any special reaction while reading it. And got loads of false memories surrounding it. Now each time I see a child or literally anything I’m TERRIFIED that I somehow see cp and will enjoy it. Idk I wanna crawl under a rock and live there forever. Life is too much :/
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