TW POCD and Real Event OCD 18+ please I just got triggered by someone’s post because they said they were afraid of getting bored and doing the m word to a young person or cp and it triggered my real event because when I was younger, a teenager, I got into a stupid tickling fetish and because it’s an everyday kind of thing, I came across things I shouldn’t have during the m word because I was looking into a fetish not the people, had nothing to do with age or anything it was because of the stupid fetish and someone here had told me that it’s not that bad and to let it go but I keep getting triggered and it’s making it harder to let go. I never sough out any certain people or anything just the fetish itself but because it’s such a normal everyday thing and I was on ifunny and YouTube at the time, I came across things I shouldn’t have because it had to do with tickling and unfortunately the m word was apart of it which has my mind racing and worrying me about what if’s like if I’m in trouble or a monster because of it when I never had any bad intentions in the first place.. I was young and stupid and it never occurred to me at the time I was doing it that it was wrong because I didn’t even know what I was getting into like I said it was for a stupid embarrassing tickling fetish. I’m so open to talk about it because I don’t want to hide it. Yes it happened and I would do anything to go back and change it and I can’t. I want to give up because of it because I wish I wasn’t so stupid back then. What do I do?