My brain keeps obssesing over breaking up with him for new years because it keeps saying you can start off new i hate this.

Its not reqlly what i want i just want to get new years over with to get it over with

Pls can you help me with my recent

@squishybat Do you ever have happy moments with your bf then like remember how you are thinkinf about him and feel bad about it?

@squishybat I have a really high sex drive right now for him and my brain is like when you see him its like a one night stand isnt it? Do you ever get this

@squishybat Im just trying to be with him ya know wothout my brain trying to make something negative out of it

@squishybat I keep trying to have happy thoughts then my brain keeps obsessing over that i only use him for sex...

@squishybat My brain is ao doubtful if he is the one and it feels true but then when i think he is the one i get this happy feeling. And my brain wont settle until i have the happy thought.

@squishybat Its just that i feel like rocd tries to attack all of the good relationships. And all signs are pointing to him being the one. But i have doubts. It feels like its real but also rocd. Like i want him to be the one then my brain is like are you sure?? Have you played the field enough?? Im worried that if I spend the rest of my life with him it will end in a divorce. Because the divorce rates keep going up and it scares me

@squishybat But thats so hard for me to accept maybe or maybe not. Because everyone says OH your so young or oh you have so much time. Like really? Thats what everyone says. Its just when i see a picture of him im like i cant leave him. Hes so perfect and loving i love everything about him. Then i have realizing moments where its like holy shit he is the one then it just starts all over again

@squishybat See my brain just said do i love him? And i do!! ITS LIKE UGH then my brain compares my relationship to every negative sentence in some way.

@squishybat Can you look at my recent