There are some behaviors I do that I’m not sure if they are compulsions or not. So, I have HOCD (feels like an absolute lie to type that out). For example, I have amazing “gaydar” since developing this (I’m sorry if this is offensive) but I pretend like I have really bad gaydar to my friends. I go out of my way to make that seem like it’s the case. Or, I’ll go out of my way to act like I know nothing about sexuality (despite having done probably upwards of 1000+ hours of research on it) if it comes up in conversation. To me, these don’t seem like compulsions; they just seem like I’m in denial. I’d really appreciate if someone could respond.

Sexual Orientation OCD

Anonymous

Date posted: 3y

as a gay I can tell you when I was in intense denial I didn't do any research on being gay because I knew I was. I did not feel fear about whether or not I was gay I felt anger because I knew for a fact I liked women I just really really didn't want to.

Anonymous

Date posted: 3y

@Ope no not at all

lennygirl

Date posted: 3y

I’m really freaking out about this if someone could reply I’d really appreciate it

lennygirl

Date posted: 3y

Omg it literally just seems like I’m in the closet 😭😭😭

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