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Even the brother part?
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@squishybat I get like oo hes my husband then im like will i be able to go that long journey?..is he really the one?
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@squishybat One of my guy bestfriends also pops in my head and my brain is like what if he is the one? But i really dont want that...
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@squishybat Does your brain ever put you in a scenario when you think of your man as like a brother or just a bestfriend. I mean thinking of him as a bestfriend is good ig but. Rn thats what my brain is in...and im calm about it?? Why? I dont want that
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@squishybat Then my brain wants me to say Im not in love with him like all the time and its like really? I know its ocd but when that happens
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@squishybat Im sad its loke my brain is like oh your using him. I feel bad about these thoughts...because i feel like if he heard these he would be so scared. But i really am in love i hope but i am really happy with him.
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@squishybat My brain the only thing stopping me is that hes not tall...bow in reality i really dont give a fuck. But my brain obsesses kver it
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@squishybat I have a question sometimes when im by myself im like oh yes hes the one. Then when i see him. I feel like dull and im like questioning everything. I just want to be happy with him. And then sometimes i feel anxious around him. Im wondering if its because my brain cant enjoy the moment or what
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@squishybat Then he texrs me cute then i loved it right? The next day i watched a tiktok that said theres the one thing that your bf does that makes you loose all feelings and my brain was like ew that text was cringey. Then when he does cute things i like feel nervous or anxious or sometimes ill.
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@squishybat I feel like our relationship is dull right now...how do i make it spicier?..
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@squishybat I have happy thoughts when im not with him but then yesterday when i saw him it felt dulll..idk if thats the rocd..orrr my brain isnt thinking.
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@squishybat You feel dull and overthink that it might not be that at times? I just want to enjoy my time with him and not doubt
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@squishybat But im not ok with that
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@squishybat My brain keeps obsessing how sometimes deep down i really dont want him becaus of his height. When in reality I DONT CARE. I was hanging out with my tall guy friend and it really scared me with how tall he was. Then my bf came later and i felt so safe around him. I think its like i never thought i would fall in love with someone like that...but i did. Its like does it matter? I love him now..stop obsessing over his height. And i do it when im around him its like but he is a little small...im like i dont care! I dont
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@squishybat Has your brain ever thought you are forcing your love with him?
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@squishybat I just went over and my brain is like dull i feel dull. Like its like i want him forever then my brain is like meh idk...and then i just doubt. I dont have those feel good moments anymore...idk if thats because im tired of trying to search for it or naw
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@squishybat Does your brain whenever you watch a video and a person says something nefative does your brain try to apply that negatively to the relationship
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@squishybat Im having a bad night....its like it all feels dull...like dull dull. And my brain is like you wouldnt feel like that if you met someone else. But its like i love him..
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@squishybat Like i feel worried im gonna loose feelings
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@squishybat My brain when watching dont look up the guy called his wife and said i love you and did a š¬ face. And i was like me when i say i love you to my bf. But im like rolling my eyes like r u kidding me??
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@squishybat Can you help with my recent
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I just saw my boyfriend, and even though everything was okay on the outside, inside my mind it was a storm. I kept having thoughts like: āYou donāt like him.ā āYouāre not feeling anything.ā āYouāre pretending.ā āYou donāt care.ā And then, he said something sweet ā something that shouldāve made me feel happy: āWe should marry.ā And instead of warmth, I felt anxiety. A pit in my stomach. A voice in my head saying: āYou donāt want that.ā āYouāll never stay with him.ā āIf you really loved him, youād feel joy.ā And I hate it. I hate that Iām in this state. I donāt feel connected. I donāt feel clarity. I donāt even know what I feel anymore. I just feel⦠numb. And the worst part? It feels like I donāt even care. But I know I do. Somewhere, beneath all the noise and panic and obsessive thoughts, I care. I want to feel close to him. I want to stop second-guessing every word, every touch, every thought. This is ROCD. It makes me question everything. It makes me feel like Iām lying ā even when Iām not. It steals the moments that should feel warm and turns them into confusion. If anyone else feels this awful mix of numbness, fear, and guilt ā please tell me Iām not alone.
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hi! I broke a short period of doing well without compulsions because I got triggered again. Before this, I had about two calmer days where I didnāt spiral so much, but now everything feels worse. Iām scared that I donāt love my boyfriend as much as I used to, or that this relationship is making me feel stuck or sad. Heās a wonderful person, and I hate thinking this way. I smelled a perfume that used to make me feel calm and in love, and now it just makes me question everything. I spent hours last night searching Reddit, especially on r/ROCD, trying to see if someone is like me or if anyone has answers. I keep rereading posts, hoping Iāll feel certain about what I should do. But I just feel more confused. I keep thinking, āWhat if I heal and then realize I donāt love him?ā or āWhat if Iām only staying because I feel safe with him or Iām used to him?ā I feel numb sometimes, or like Iām pretending, and I hate it. I want to feel love and clarity again. I donāt know whatās real or whatās ROCD anymore. I just feel lost and afraid. I talk to hi. now and i feel so strange like i dont want to force myself i want to like him i dont understand what i feel i feel so weird in my chest
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I just read a post that said āpeople with ROCD know they love their partnersā right when I read it I got this horrible anxiety feeling rush down into my stomach. My partner asked me to be his girlfriend in December and literally since that night Itās like a switch of doubt turned on and I was suffering with consistent doubt about loving my partner, I felt like I didnāt feel anything anymore and I didnāt know what to do and through out the past months it has been an absolute wave of things going on. He is aware of my ocd and in a way Iām glad that this happened because I have had harm ocd for the past 4-5 years and had no idea what it was until 2 months ago when I got an OCD therapist, I just thought I was crazy so Iām happy to know Iām not. Buuuuttt back to the ROCD, my main thoughts and feelings are about not feeling like i love my partner anymore and if weāre compatible, I hyper fixate on the weight heās gained in the past few months and all the bad food he eats, I think about if our lives even align, we have very different views on some things but are we too different, what if we really donāt know each other at all and we thought we did because weāve been best friends for 10 years. This is so frustrating because Iāve gotten to the point where my anxiety is barely there, I was have constant outrageous anxiety for 3-4 months and now Iāve gotten to this numb, I literally feel absolutely nothing feeling and itās not even with just my boyfriend itās with everything, I just donāt feel happy with anything anymore, I feel like thereās something wrong with me. We got into an argument the other day about how rude I was and I didnāt even feel sad or apologetic when he was talking to me about it, and I couldnāt stop crying, like I just donāt feel anything. I feel like thereās something really wrong with me. All I can describe it as is āblankā does that make sense? I feel like a bad person and I feel like weāre going to break up and I can tell how sad he is. All I do know is that I donāt want to break up. But anytime I think about him or anything along the lines of my ROCD everything like freaks me out. I like scream āNOā and āSTOPā in my head all the time. But itās starting to really feel real. Iām so scared, and now I read that post that said that āpeople with ROCD know they love their partnerā but WHAT IF I DONT KNOW!!! I WANT TO LOVE MY PARTNER. I want to feel the love I had for him before this all started. We were so happy, and we didnāt even get the honey moon phase because my ROCD started right when we made it official. This is seriously so crippling.
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