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Even the brother part?
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@squishybat I get like oo hes my husband then im like will i be able to go that long journey?..is he really the one?
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@squishybat One of my guy bestfriends also pops in my head and my brain is like what if he is the one? But i really dont want that...
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@squishybat Does your brain ever put you in a scenario when you think of your man as like a brother or just a bestfriend. I mean thinking of him as a bestfriend is good ig but. Rn thats what my brain is in...and im calm about it?? Why? I dont want that
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@squishybat Then my brain wants me to say Im not in love with him like all the time and its like really? I know its ocd but when that happens
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@squishybat Im sad its loke my brain is like oh your using him. I feel bad about these thoughts...because i feel like if he heard these he would be so scared. But i really am in love i hope but i am really happy with him.
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@squishybat My brain the only thing stopping me is that hes not tall...bow in reality i really dont give a fuck. But my brain obsesses kver it
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@squishybat I have a question sometimes when im by myself im like oh yes hes the one. Then when i see him. I feel like dull and im like questioning everything. I just want to be happy with him. And then sometimes i feel anxious around him. Im wondering if its because my brain cant enjoy the moment or what
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@squishybat Then he texrs me cute then i loved it right? The next day i watched a tiktok that said theres the one thing that your bf does that makes you loose all feelings and my brain was like ew that text was cringey. Then when he does cute things i like feel nervous or anxious or sometimes ill.
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@squishybat I feel like our relationship is dull right now...how do i make it spicier?..
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@squishybat I have happy thoughts when im not with him but then yesterday when i saw him it felt dulll..idk if thats the rocd..orrr my brain isnt thinking.
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@squishybat You feel dull and overthink that it might not be that at times? I just want to enjoy my time with him and not doubt
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@squishybat But im not ok with that
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@squishybat My brain keeps obsessing how sometimes deep down i really dont want him becaus of his height. When in reality I DONT CARE. I was hanging out with my tall guy friend and it really scared me with how tall he was. Then my bf came later and i felt so safe around him. I think its like i never thought i would fall in love with someone like that...but i did. Its like does it matter? I love him now..stop obsessing over his height. And i do it when im around him its like but he is a little small...im like i dont care! I dont
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@squishybat Has your brain ever thought you are forcing your love with him?
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@squishybat I just went over and my brain is like dull i feel dull. Like its like i want him forever then my brain is like meh idk...and then i just doubt. I dont have those feel good moments anymore...idk if thats because im tired of trying to search for it or naw
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@squishybat Does your brain whenever you watch a video and a person says something nefative does your brain try to apply that negatively to the relationship
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@squishybat Im having a bad night....its like it all feels dull...like dull dull. And my brain is like you wouldnt feel like that if you met someone else. But its like i love him..
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@squishybat Like i feel worried im gonna loose feelings
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@squishybat My brain when watching dont look up the guy called his wife and said i love you and did a đŹ face. And i was like me when i say i love you to my bf. But im like rolling my eyes like r u kidding me??
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@squishybat Can you help with my recent
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I donât understand how my boyfriend can love me so much after everything I put him through. He constantly shows me how much he loves me, yet I feel like I canât fully appreciate it. I canât explain how badly I behave towards him when these thoughts take over, how often I lash out because of them, and how many times Iâve told him exactly whatâs on my mind. He tries to use logic to help me, but it never seems to work. And now, even as Iâm writing this, I feel like cryingâyet at the same time, my mind tells me that I donât care. This horrible feeling inside me wonât go away. I keep thinking, âWhat if I donât like him?â That thought is always there. I wonder if I had unrealistic expectations about this relationship from the beginning, since he is my first boyfriend. What if I convinced myself I liked him just because I wanted my first relationship to be perfect? And now, I just canât accept the truth? It scares me even more knowing that he moved to my city for me. I feel like Iâm constantly upset, constantly sad. And despite everything, heâs always there for me. That makes me feel even worse because I donât know what to do to feel okay again. Every time I talk to him, I get this strange feeling inside me, and Iâm terrified that it means my thoughts are actually true. He tells me that my happiness shouldnât depend only on him, that I should focus on more than just this relationshipâbecause for over a year now, my mind has been stuck in an endless loop of questioning whether I love him or not. He asks me, âWho are you fighting? Why do you care so much? Youâve been asking yourself the same question for over a yearâshouldnât you know the answer by now?â And my response is always, âBecause I want to be with you.â But then, when I try to answer whether I like him or not, more doubts take over. I start thinking, âMaybe I just canât accept that I donât love him. Maybe I just want to keep this relationship perfect.â The worst part is that he has never done anything wrong. He has always been patient, kind, and loving, yet I feel so lost. I donât understand whatâs happening. I donât understand what I feel. And I donât understand why I canât understand what I feel. He also tells me that ever since I started reading so much about relationships and OCD online, I have gotten worse. And heâs right. I have become much worse than I was before. The problem is that before, I thought I was at my worst, but looking back, I was still able to feel happiness at times. Now, I feel completely stuck. I donât know if Iâm crying because I hate this feeling, or because I donât want to think this way about him. It feels like I donât even know whatâs happening to me anymore.
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Is this ROCD? My girlfriend spent the night yesterday and we were cuddling when I felt that I may have not felt attraction towards her anymore. I started to freak out, because I felt that I hated her and didn't love her. When we would kiss I would get an uneasy feeling, like that I didn't want this relationship. I know I do, but it's freaking me out, it's like I can't even feel emotions towards her specifically anymore. I've been so distracted by this problem, I feel I'm also lacking attention towards her. I've been on my phone a lot during her stay because I've just been trying to distract myself. It hurts really bad, and I feel like a rude bitch.
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I just saw my boyfriend, and even though everything was okay on the outside, inside my mind it was a storm. I kept having thoughts like: âYou donât like him.â âYouâre not feeling anything.â âYouâre pretending.â âYou donât care.â And then, he said something sweet â something that shouldâve made me feel happy: âWe should marry.â And instead of warmth, I felt anxiety. A pit in my stomach. A voice in my head saying: âYou donât want that.â âYouâll never stay with him.â âIf you really loved him, youâd feel joy.â And I hate it. I hate that Iâm in this state. I donât feel connected. I donât feel clarity. I donât even know what I feel anymore. I just feel⌠numb. And the worst part? It feels like I donât even care. But I know I do. Somewhere, beneath all the noise and panic and obsessive thoughts, I care. I want to feel close to him. I want to stop second-guessing every word, every touch, every thought. This is ROCD. It makes me question everything. It makes me feel like Iâm lying â even when Iâm not. It steals the moments that should feel warm and turns them into confusion. If anyone else feels this awful mix of numbness, fear, and guilt â please tell me Iâm not alone.
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