I hate this i just saw my man today happy to see him but i felt disconnected...i had some happy moments ofc. And felt a nee love here and there more like a happy forever love. Then my brain would be like are you sure?...then it would just doubt everything. I felt so uncertain but i fell asleep in his arms. And i kept saying hes so perfect. I want him so much. But my ROCD...its killing me...my brain also kept saying oh hes like a brother just because i feel comfortable around him.

Even the brother part?

@squishybat I get like oo hes my husband then im like will i be able to go that long journey?..is he really the one?

@squishybat One of my guy bestfriends also pops in my head and my brain is like what if he is the one? But i really dont want that...

@squishybat Does your brain ever put you in a scenario when you think of your man as like a brother or just a bestfriend. I mean thinking of him as a bestfriend is good ig but. Rn thats what my brain is in...and im calm about it?? Why? I dont want that

@squishybat Then my brain wants me to say Im not in love with him like all the time and its like really? I know its ocd but when that happens

@squishybat Im sad its loke my brain is like oh your using him. I feel bad about these thoughts...because i feel like if he heard these he would be so scared. But i really am in love i hope but i am really happy with him.

@squishybat My brain the only thing stopping me is that hes not tall...bow in reality i really dont give a fuck. But my brain obsesses kver it

@squishybat I have a question sometimes when im by myself im like oh yes hes the one. Then when i see him. I feel like dull and im like questioning everything. I just want to be happy with him. And then sometimes i feel anxious around him. Im wondering if its because my brain cant enjoy the moment or what

@squishybat Then he texrs me cute then i loved it right? The next day i watched a tiktok that said theres the one thing that your bf does that makes you loose all feelings and my brain was like ew that text was cringey. Then when he does cute things i like feel nervous or anxious or sometimes ill.

@squishybat I feel like our relationship is dull right now...how do i make it spicier?..

@squishybat I have happy thoughts when im not with him but then yesterday when i saw him it felt dulll..idk if thats the rocd..orrr my brain isnt thinking.

@squishybat You feel dull and overthink that it might not be that at times? I just want to enjoy my time with him and not doubt

@squishybat But im not ok with that

@squishybat My brain keeps obsessing how sometimes deep down i really dont want him becaus of his height. When in reality I DONT CARE. I was hanging out with my tall guy friend and it really scared me with how tall he was. Then my bf came later and i felt so safe around him. I think its like i never thought i would fall in love with someone like that...but i did. Its like does it matter? I love him now..stop obsessing over his height. And i do it when im around him its like but he is a little small...im like i dont care! I dont

@squishybat Has your brain ever thought you are forcing your love with him?

@squishybat I just went over and my brain is like dull i feel dull. Like its like i want him forever then my brain is like meh idk...and then i just doubt. I dont have those feel good moments anymore...idk if thats because im tired of trying to search for it or naw

@squishybat Does your brain whenever you watch a video and a person says something nefative does your brain try to apply that negatively to the relationship

@squishybat Im having a bad night....its like it all feels dull...like dull dull. And my brain is like you wouldnt feel like that if you met someone else. But its like i love him..

@squishybat Like i feel worried im gonna loose feelings

@squishybat My brain when watching dont look up the guy called his wife and said i love you and did a 😬 face. And i was like me when i say i love you to my bf. But im like rolling my eyes like r u kidding me??

@squishybat Can you help with my recent