False Attractions are something that I deal with mostly, that and just scared I’m in denial. Every single girl I see I get scared that I like her or I get intrusive thoughts about being with her (ahhh makes me feel so uncomfortable). It gets confusing when the backdoor spike hits and there is no anxiety. I get anxious and spiral wondering if I “felt anything” or wonder if I liked it. I really want to start a blog about SOOCD and dealing with OCD in general (or just from my experience) so people who go through the same thing as me don’t feel as alone. Reading other peoples experiences make me feel less alone, and I don’t know if it has something to do with reassurance seeking, which it might, I don’t know, but OCD in general is so debilitating and can leave someone feeling so isolated. I want to help people feel validated, no matter how scary or intrusive their thoughts are. Anyways, I’m really struggling nowadays. I do feel hope, even though sometimes it feels like it’s clouded over by some sort of darkness and makes me feel like everything is hopeless. But in 2022 I hope to lean into the uncertainty. I hope to accept my OCD diagnosis. I hope to get whatever help that I need, and same to all of you. I hope you can get the help you need, or desire.