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omg hiiii i remember you!!!!sending you happiness and a calm mindđđđđ
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- 3y
Hi there! That is so kind; Thank you so much đ sending much love and positivity right back!
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- 3y
I feel this way often. and did today pretty intensely. did a long run and it helped a bit. the it has faded since. did some Journaling yesterday that may have helped too. totally understand did that paralyzed thought pattern hole. sinking feeling for what seems to be every ah ha moment t or breakthrough.
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Thank you so much for sharing this. It truly is the worstâeven the soundest of logic somehow ends you right back where you started.
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- 24w
Hiii! This is my first post. I found NOCD through a tiktok ad that spoke to me. It was titled signs you didnt know were OCD or something like that, and one of the slides was âchecking my pulse throughout the day to make sure i was okayâ. This is something ive done for i dont even know how long. atleast 10 years, im 24 now. Ive always known Ive had OCD. Light Sanitation OCD runs in my family. But over the years ive started to realize i had way more than the âfamily traitâ. Checking my pulse 40+ times a day is something i refer to as my âOCD tickâ. Its to the point where people who dont know about my âtickâ often ask if i am okay when they see me do it. Maybe this post is me putting it on paper for the first time so i myself can analyze but some other stuff i struggle with are: Often having thoughts of if i dont do A, B will happen. An example that is common for me is âif i dont refold this shirt me and my boyfriend will get into an argumentâ or if im out to dinner with a friend, âif i dont pick up this cup and place it back down, i will get into a car accident on the way homeâ. This is one i struggle with almost everyday, especially when im around people (work or outings). This compulsion happens multiple times a day. Now in my life i try to practice exposure therapy, even getting annoyed i feel the compulsion and think to myself âoh my god this is so stupid no!â but if i dont follow through i feel guilty. often when i get my next compulsion shortly after i tell myself âokay doing this will make up for not doing the previous oneâ. I definitely dont have a number based OCD, but i would have to pick up and put down the cup until it feels ârightâ or âcorrectâ- same with checking my pulse. I have to check my pulse until the feeling is âjust rightâ. With sanitation as i said before, i have a very clean and sanitary family, although mine is more severe than their feelings. I avoid touching certain surfaces after i have washed my hands, such as the front door knob, or living room tv remote, etc. If i need to touch or use these things, i have to immediately wash my hands again. Even if someone comes home and asks me to go and lock the front door ill often respond with âi cant i just washed my hands, if i lock the door ill have to rewash my handsâ. thankfully my family is very understanding. I often feel like certain things are contaminated. For example when i come home i sanitize my phone immediately as it is contaminated from being outside of my house. I often have a feeling of something having to feel âjust rightâ. If i go out to dinner i have to be the first to pick what seat or side of the booth im sitting on before the rest of my family sits down or i will feel anxious the whole dinner. Sometimes when im typing i have to back space and retype the same word over and over until i feel i typed it âjust rightâ- even if i didnt make a typo. sometimes when i am driving and space out i often think âoh my god did i just hit someoneâ when there is no evidence that i have. it worries me. I think oh my god i mightve done a hit and run. But tell myself it can not be possible, theres no police chasing me, no honking, or anything. It is scary. this one is very rare. once in a blue moon i get a false memory. A main one ive felt since i was a kid is if someone or some object touches any part of my body, for example my left arm, i have to have them or atleast my self touch my right arm in the exact same way or i feel uneasy. this isnt with every single touch, but mainly when i feel triggered- although i never know what triggers a moment where i need the symmetry. I guess ive always known, i am very honest with my family, friends, and boyfriend about it. But i didnt start to realize how neurodivergent i was until asking some friends âyou never randomly feel *insert compulsion*?â and they say never in their life have they felt like that. Im very self aware and have come to an acceptance with all these things, although it is debilitating. Periodically i think, wow it must be nice to not live life with these feelings but oh well. To be honest, downloading this app is the first step ive ever taken to find out more about OCD. Ive always kind of just been like âyeah i definitely have OCD but okayâ more or less.
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- 23w
I am FINALLY starting to (somewhat) recover from this last existential spiral, which admittedly, was probably the cruelest my OCD has ever been to me. Only thanks to you all. You were all able to provide me with kindness, understanding and support⌠without the kind of reassurance that feeds OCD, of course. When I downloaded this app, I was genuinely terrified. I was so scared that I was permanently doomed to the endless whirlpool that is the thoughts produced by my own brain and that life as I knew it was over, that I would never be happy again. For anyone who might be feeling that way right now, your OCD is LYING to you! Whatever you may be going through, it CAN get better. As hard as it may be right now, HAVE FAITH! Get up and do that thing you want to do in spite of the fear and discomfort. Take the fear with you like a whiny, unwilling toddler and do it anyway. Watch the movie, read the book, order that takeout youâve been craving, bake the cake, wash the dishes⌠Please do it anyway! It will be hard at first, I wonât lie. But the OCD part of your brain, like a toxic partner, WANTS to win. It wants you to give up on those things that you love, all those things that make you happy so that thereâs no space for anything but itself. Donât let it win. The more you push yourself, the more you rewire your brain to realize that as much as it may feel like, the obsession doesnât matter! Thanks to you all, even without therapy (YET - Iâm starting that journey on Tuesday because thereâs still a lot to unpack, and I know that OCD wonât just magically go away), I was able to get a basic understanding of ERP and learning to sit with discomfort and how to live life in spite of it, rather than letting it take over my very being. So for that, I thank this community. I think I would be in a very different place right now if it werenât for the people Iâve met here who truly understood my experiences. I hope you have a wonderful day. Please donât give up. You deserve to be happy, no matter what your brain is telling you â¤ď¸
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- 20w
hi everyone, i just joined and this is my first time really seeking help for my mental health. iâve always thought i could handle the thoughts on my own but itâs getting harder every day and starting to becoming debilitating in some aspects of my life. iâm not educated enough on a lot of forms of OCD and iâve never spoken to a professional (i plan to soon) but i think i may have some form of harm OCD? reading the descriptions of it and learning about others stories, i feel i can safely say i have experienced harm OCD, however the bulk of my thoughts donât revolve around me hurting someone, instead i have very graphic and intrusive thoughts/ visions of my loved ones dying in all kinds of ways. I obsessively watch my boyfriends location as he drives because i need to be sure he is alive and moving. when he leaves i have to say the same prayer (i am not religious) like a mantra three times. if i see a loved one a âdangerousâ situation, say standing at the top of stairs, stepping on rocks at the beach, leaning on a balcony, etc. i will have INCREDIBLY real and vivid images flash in my head of them dying. the images are so graphic and make me have a visceral physical reaction. some images have stuck with me for years and they will âflashâ in my head all day, every day. almost every time i shower, walk by a curb, i have a split second image of me or a loved one tripping and hitting my head. i will be sitting on the couch and see the corner of a table and my whole body will shiver hard because i imagined slipping and hitting my head. sometimes this makes me stay up all night because i canât control or stop the thoughts and i will have a panic attack. I also have always really bad thoughts revolving driving. i drive a LOT and luckily it hasnât interfered with my ability to do so, but since i started driving almost ten years ago i have had the same little mantra that i repeat three times EVERY time i put the car in drive. i have several items in my car that can not leave or i am convinced something horrible will happen. this year i got a new car and i had horrible panic attacks and anxiety leading up, to the point where i almost considered backing out. i sobbed when i tried to Not transfer my âsafety itemsâ from my last car to my new one. i am proud to say that there were a couple items that i was able to throw out, not including a dead, petrified beetle (gross i know) that i have kept 3 different cars (for OCD reasons, im not gross) last thing for this post- for as long as i can remember, i do this thing where i poke my fingernails into my palms very hard until i feel pain so i can assure that im alive. kind of like a âpinch me im dreaming thingâ. i will not cut my nails short because when i do, the poking doesnât âhurt enoughâ so i cant reassure myself that im alive. i do it every time death is mentioned, i do it every. single. time. a semi truck is driving past me. i do it every time i have an intrusive thought, every time i see a motorcyclist, every time i feel âjinxedâ, every time someone is driving too fast, etc. etc. etc. i did not expect to write so much in this first post, it just all kind of came out so if anyone has actually read this, thank you. i think i just want to know what this is and if anyone else has experienced something similar. thank you â¤ď¸
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