can anyone pls talk. i’m about to start sobbing.

horrible rocd. my boyfriend for years and I are in a really good place now and now I can’t stop thinking about my ex and I don’t want to think about him I don’t feel anything towards him except for freaking anxiety and last night we were kissing and it just reminded me of my ex but I kept kissing my boyfriend because I enjoyed it and then I thought to myself I was thinking about my ex falls kissing him and that’s cheating and I didn’t mean to I don’t want to do that so I kind of tried not to kiss in so much and be intimate with him and I thought to myself I’m doing the stuff I never got to do with my ex and I don’t want to think like that because I don’t care for my ex like that at all and it makes me sick because we’re finally in a good place and I’m just over here thinking about my stupid stupid ex. And now I’m scared that I’m falling out of love with my boyfriend because the past few times we’ve hung out I’ve been me wanting to stay kind of alone because my alone time and maybe it’s just I love my alone time but I don’t know I’m just really stressing out and I don’t know what to do and my mom is getting upset with me because I’m so anxious like I can literally control it and it’s making me more upset and now I’m just at a loss, I don’t know what to do I love my boyfriend I want to be with him all the time but I don’t wanna be with him all the time when I’m thinking about my ex because I obviously don’t want to think about him he’s not important to me

@Anonymous It’s completely normal to think about your ex, and to want alone time. I really recommend to go to @awakenintolove on Instagram. She’s dealt with those same things and is very encouraging