Two days ago we were on our way to a museum walking on a stairway when I saw a girl wearing leggings walking in front of me, and idk why but | involuntarily (I hope it was) glanced at her butt. I initially thought she was a girl about my age or older but it turned out to be much younger. I found myself looking at her a few times hoping that she wasn't a c**** and that I just had mistaken her, but I ultimately realised that she was a c**** and that I had looked at a c**** b*tt. What if this is a proof that I'm a p***? If this was OCD I'd have just ignored it after the first time I realised that she was a c****, but no, I glanced at her repeatedly.

I clicked SHARE too early… continuing on: -now, you fall into a classic Pure-O compulsion: CHECKING You check to see if there’s evidence for or against the Intrusive Thought, “Am I a pedophile?”. Again, this is abnormal behavior—it is OCD. -finally, you misinterpret the Pure-O Compulsion “checking” as a sign that you wanted to look at the child and that you just couldn’t stop, and that therefore, you must be a pedophile. Again, this is abnormal behavior, and is caused by OCD. A pedophile, unlike you, would be driven by desire. A POCD suffering person is driven by fear. A few things to consider: -sometimes teenagers look like adults -actors playing teenagers are very often adults -teenagers can be attractive even when you know they are teenagers. It’s completely fucked up to seek them as romantic partners, but you don’t have to pretend that they have no ability to be attractive. Some 25 year olds look like they’re 15; some 15 year olds look like they’re 25. The difference? Their experience, self-knowledge, and perhaps most important, brain development—their lacking in these areas is why it is totally immoral to date or be sexually involved with minors. It’s less about their looks, and more about their soul. Therefore, getting confused about someone on the edge of adulthood is not a problem. You get confused, then things are clarified, then you move on.

I don’t know how old you are, but since you say you thought at first that she was about your age, I’m guessing you’re under 30. I think your brain registered a “hot girl”, so you admired her body, then realized she was a child, and then got scared of what this means/says about you, and then, you kept looking to gauge if it was OCD or if there was atraction. So, if you went wrong—where did you go wrong? -noticing a “hot girl”? No problem there. -checked out “hot girl’s” ass. Again, no problem; normal, human behavior. -realized that the person in question is actually be a child. Again, normal, human behavior—you were simply assessing whether this person is a potential mate, and because you know and believe that a child is not a candidate for that, you immediately drop the idea -because you looked at the butt, you worry that you are a pedophile. This is abnormal human behavior—it is OCD. This is the beginning of the OCD cylce—this is the IntrusiveThought. - A few things to consider: -