I’m in the same boat (but I think I’m worst because I have the thoughts, feelings, urges, etc but I don’t have any corresponding adverse reactions like disgust or sense that something is off, at least sometimes). My mind is latching what I felt for women onto men. I feel that I would be happier with a man but I don’t want to accept that.
I want to go back to who I was before this
Hey guys I know it seems a silly advice, but I found in jogging a good way to reset your mind. Try running for more than 30 mins and listen to motivational podcast during it. It helped me a lot I'm in your same boat btw.
I just don't think I ever had hocd in the first place. I've messed my head up for sure this time. I go to the gym I have this in my head still. 24/7. I just feel like I want it. And it makes me angry 😔
You’re not insane or alone. It gets better I promise
Man I have given up on all of my dreams my sonfedenc3 is gone completely and the confusion man I feel honestly like I exist and that is all I don't feel like I ever had a chance to live good