This is classic ROCD—I feel you sis!! I’d also recommend the Awaken Into Love YouTube channel, website, instagram, and course :) she is amazing. You’re doing great. I cannot describe to you the immense relief I felt after learning about ROCD after months about agonizing over my beautiful relationship and my fiancé (we’d just bought a house!). Remember to be kind to yourself, and take it one day at a time. I’d also recommend chatting about it with your boyfriend if you’re comfortable. My fiancé wished he could’ve known sooner so he could’ve been more directly supportive. The NOCD community is here for you💜💜
Great awareness 💕
I too am a perfectionist and have had crippling doubts about my relationship since the beginning 4-5 months ago. It’s rough but I’ve been through other OCD obsessions and I have to believe it’ll pass in time because my partner is amazing and he’s truly worth the struggle. I further recommend the Awaken into Love YouTube channel, also the Anxious Love Coach on Instagram. Meditation helps too, I’m trying to build it into my routine to combat anxiety. We will get through this!
I relate to this so much, thank you for sharing this post ❤ in particular, the "perfect" idea of the future and life with your and needing to know right now. Hope you get the help you need!