- Username
- ilahi
- Date posted
- 2y ago
Dreams are only that - dreams. As intense as they can seem, sometimes our minds throw together a mismatch of reality and expression/emotion in our sleep. It doesn't determine who we are, and doesn't determine a perverse future. :) Tw: childhood sexual abuse I never told anyone about this, but after I was molested by my "dad", I would keep fantasizing what happened to me. It would lead to dreams of nude or sexual elements of my brother. After a while, with help, that "phase" passed on. As an adult, I get dreams time to time about my "dad", and sometimes there's sex in them in which I "consent" at my adult age. It took me a while to accept that I was not broken for "enjoying" it. While this stems from the abuse in my childhood, I truly and wholeheartedly believe that anyone who deals with these intrusive thoughts and gut-hurling dreams can move past it in however is determined the best way of support (therapy, etc).
Dreams are bits and pieces of the subconscious. That’s not to say that they’re secretly fantasies or that somewhere deep down they’re logical. I’ve had dreams about killing people, hurting the ones I love, and other, weirder stuff. And none of it has trickled into real life, because our dreams /=/ real life. I know it’s shocking to have a dream like that but luckily (for me at least) it fades away over time because, since dreams aren’t real memories, they don’t stick the same way.
im so sorry recently ive been having terrible dreams too :( what helps me is realizing that my thoughts have no meaning, especially in dreams. its just your brain being an ass. you're scared now cause this is actually you, dream you and how "you" felt there was not in your control
Err, I apologize there wasn't much advice from that. You're not alone though. :)
I had an awful intrusive thought/half-dream (I was in the weird place between awake and sleeping lol.) and it actually started off fine but then my brain said “this is a child” and I literally panicked. I was kind of aroused when it started and I feel so guilty about it. I know the body responds to what is “sexually relevant” but it’s such a scary, awful, disgusting feeling, I feel like a terrible person for having this come into my head. Like I secretly want it
I was sleeping and i had a dream about a girl who is young and she was being touchy with me and it seemed like I liked it. And then i woke up and i felt so miserable and scared, like why would this be in my head and why would i appear to like it😔
This may make someone uncomfortable. My brother and I have shared a room and bed for our whole lives. I’m a girl by the way. When I was 10 and he was 8, I very slightly pulled down his diaper to smell his fart when he was asleep. For some reason, I liked the smell of farts at that age and I don’t anymore. I’m really scared that I abused him. I told him about this and he doesn’t care and he said it’s not a big deal since we were young. But the guilt is eating me alive. I feel like I sexually abused my own brother. Just to be clear, I’m not attracted to him AT ALL. I never have been. The reason I’m so guilty is because he was asleep. And I don’t remember if I had done it for arousal or not. But if I did, then it would be sexual abuse. I would never ever do anything like this today. I looked it up on AI and it said that this was sexual abuse. I’m terrified. I’ve never ever had thoughts of abusing him and I’m scared that this could possibly be abuse. I haven’t been able to eat or sleep because I feel like I abused my own brother. I’ve had crippling anxiety all day and I’ve had several panic attacks. Please help me. And also please be honest. Am I an abuser?
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