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Dreams are only that - dreams. As intense as they can seem, sometimes our minds throw together a mismatch of reality and expression/emotion in our sleep. It doesn't determine who we are, and doesn't determine a perverse future. :) Tw: childhood sexual abuse I never told anyone about this, but after I was molested by my "dad", I would keep fantasizing what happened to me. It would lead to dreams of nude or sexual elements of my brother. After a while, with help, that "phase" passed on. As an adult, I get dreams time to time about my "dad", and sometimes there's sex in them in which I "consent" at my adult age. It took me a while to accept that I was not broken for "enjoying" it. While this stems from the abuse in my childhood, I truly and wholeheartedly believe that anyone who deals with these intrusive thoughts and gut-hurling dreams can move past it in however is determined the best way of support (therapy, etc).
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Dreams are bits and pieces of the subconscious. That’s not to say that they’re secretly fantasies or that somewhere deep down they’re logical. I’ve had dreams about killing people, hurting the ones I love, and other, weirder stuff. And none of it has trickled into real life, because our dreams /=/ real life. I know it’s shocking to have a dream like that but luckily (for me at least) it fades away over time because, since dreams aren’t real memories, they don’t stick the same way.
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im so sorry recently ive been having terrible dreams too :( what helps me is realizing that my thoughts have no meaning, especially in dreams. its just your brain being an ass. you're scared now cause this is actually you, dream you and how "you" felt there was not in your control
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Err, I apologize there wasn't much advice from that. You're not alone though. :)
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Hi I just have a few questions! (Im 14 btw) Okay so basically I’m really worried I’ll become a pedo/I already am and I don’t know it yet. I’m also really scared if I SA someone, even tho I don’t want to and I’d never do something like that but I feel like this part of me is saying that I will and it’s really scaring me. I feel so alone and I’m so scared I’m a bad person on the inside and this isn’t ocd and I’m gonna unleash hell on this earth I’m so scared. I’ll get a thought like if I’m walking past someone random it will be like “What if you sa them?” And it scares me so bad I feel horrible for thinking that. Is this apart of it? I feel like I’m always fixated on the topic of sa to check if I would do something like that, I don’t know anymore I just feel like a bad person (btw I have not done anything like that to anyone!)
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