If I see a guy at school who I find attractive I can imagine myself doing things with him and I enjoy the thought but if he posts a shirtless pic then I feel like I don’t like his figure as much anymore and like I wouldn’t actually enjoy doing things with him. I’m scared this a sign

Yeah I totally relate

@PinkLotus Can I ask you advice? What I have to say it’s really long but I don’t have too many people to talk to right now.

@Bookworm91 Of course

@PinkLotus I’m embarrassed it’s really long 😣

@Bookworm91 I don’t mind

@PinkLotus Did it go through? It’s right above your most recent comment

@Bookworm91 No I’m sorry 😞I can see the number went up but not the violent

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@PinkLotus Dang! Man this app sucks sometimes

@PinkLotus I’m going to try posting it in two parts

@Bookworm91 I’m really scared now because I was just terrified of what people think and I’m scared it’s not but then I acted like literally I just now said with my heart craves my heart does not want to be anything other than OCD and that freaks me up because my I’m scared why would my heart act like that I don’t want it to be anything else I want man I want all this to be OCD and why would I mention my heart when my heart‘s not into this shit. My hearts not into women it’s not gay it’s not into this shit so why would I say oh it does I’m scared I don’t crave a different answer I hope it’s all OCD I’m not gay I’m so freaking sorry. I hate being so needy and bugging people

@Bookworm91 Intrusive thoughts like that are very common, as well as intrusive feelings, urges etc. you keep trying to control and monitor what your mind says and you can’t! The more you try to get rid of an idea, the longer it’ll stay because you’re unintentionally feeding it and making it a bigger threat in your mind. Thus you’ll have more thoughts like that because your brain is trying to send alarm bells saying hey you’re in danger you need to get this thought out. But it doesn’t work like that, try to focus on anything else the more you put your energy into your bad thoughts the worse they will seem

@PinkLotus Ok I’ll try harder. Thank you for taking time out of your day to help me

@Bookworm91 You’re going to be okay, your thoughts are not your reality

@PinkLotus I know what you said is true. But I was just wondering if you’ve ever experienced this. I was imagining winning this competition and going to a movie premiere and being interviewed and I don’t know why because I would just be a guest but I’d like to you know imagine being in that position just for shits and giggles and I imagine saying that I Like guys and then said I am but I’m not bisexual and I I literally imagine saying that like it makes me sexy like I do but I don’t like both sexes and I’ve seen girl on girl like rated X shit it’s not sexy and I’m definitely not bisexual but I am frightened by the easy way I said that I mean don’t get me wrong it kind of choked in the back of my throat and didn’t feel right but at the same time the fact that I came like so easy to my brain why would I think that would make me seem cool? I don’t actually swing both ways I’m not bisexual at all

Yup

@PinkLotus I thought I was the only one I worry so much that I find them attractive and if I do then that means I would want to be with them but I really don’t

@Tan??? Do you feel this way like your brain makes you think you actually find them attractive

@Tan??? Yes it has happened to me a few times and I get scared. I do think they’re attractive and I like the style but I don’t want to be attracted to them or do anything with them so it’s a a trip

@PinkLotus So it’s okay to be straight and say that those types of women can be attractive?

@Tan??? Yes, anyone can be attractive doesnt mean you’re attracted to them if that makes sense

@PinkLotus What she said!! I get so triggered over these things too. I’m a straight woman and it trips me up so much too!! It’s so uncomfortable. So glad I’m not alone!:)