Funny how HOCD had me in its hooks for three whole years, to the point where I couldn’t imagine a day going by where I wouldn’t question if I was lesbian/bi, and now I just naturally don’t even consider it and can easily say I don’t think I’m either of those (not that I’m 100% certain cause who is!) yet my new theme feels SO real and anything I see to do with it is crazy triggering. Fun! But for real anyone with this theme, or any, it really takes a persistent internal surrender. The courage to say ‘I’ve not figured it out so far, so odds are I won’t.’

OCD33

138d ago

You give me hope!!!! ❤️❤️ did you do ERP?

cf05

138d ago

Thank you for this—it gives me hope as well! I am terrified of being gay, which I think is why this theme has hit me so hard. How did consistently internal surrender enough to help the thoughts subside when they feel so real and when not fighting them feels like it means they are true and I’m accepting them to be true?

Soph

138d ago

Combination of cbt, act, and bits of ERP. Mostly just saying that fighting your thoughts has only got you more tangled in a web of not knowing - if you want clarity, you can only get it by radically accepting whatever proof, thought, or feeling your mind throws at you and letting it exist