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I feel like I know that this isn’t OCD and that I’m using it as an excuse to not be a lesbian until I’m “ready to accept it.” I spent the entire morning watching videos on comphet, and I feel strongly that I’m queer. I don’t know what to do. I don’t even know if my thoughts are intrusive. I’m so scared.
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You need to stop watching videos, it’s making you feel worse.
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@OCD33 Do you have any tips on how to stop convincing myself that these things are true when I know they are not? My own mind is working against me and it’s causing me so much anxiety
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@OCD33 But watching the videos gives me more insight
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@lennygirl Or more anxiety?
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@cf05 It feels as real as it can get. I have been 150% convinced. If it didn’t feel real it wouldn’t be the disorder that it is. I just know it’s not what I want and it wouldn’t make me happy. When I feel good I can see that it’s OCD. The ocd thoughts make me feel so sick.
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Your compulsing making everything worse and making your mind even more confused . Don’t do compulsion or ruminate for a day and you will see your true mind.
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How do you stop yourself from ruminating? Mental compulsions feel impossible to stop.
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@cf05 You make a conscious effort to stop. You decide I will not ruminate today, and you do it effortlessly. You do not monitor for it. You more so correct yourself when it occurs, so oh just noticed myself ruminating, im not gonna go down that loop hole, im gonna focus on whatever your doing in the moment. or oh I am ruminating, don’t want too, list 5 things you see or feel around yoy quickly. Over and over and over thought the day correcting yourself. Whatever your theme is your job isn’t to solve it, its up on shelf and anything pertaining to it we don’t solve.
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@Riddled Thank you so much for your help!! I am going to start working on this to hopefully relieve some of the constant daily anxiety and start feeling like myself again.
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I did a whole day full of not ruminating today and the clearness is astronomical. You got this . ☺️
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As a lesbian with SO-OCD, I feel so helpless. It's truly exhausting because no one I know understands what I'm going through. The first response is always, "You're just confused" or "You don't have to know yet." But that's not the issue, I do know. I just never see any lesbians with SO-OCD so I feel so invalidated. These thoughts flood my brain constantly, forcing me to analyze my reactions to every man I see. I feel trapped in an endless cycle of "testing" myself, trying to prove that I don't like them. But my brain fights back, telling me I do want to love a man, making it feel real even though don't want it. It's terrifying. At this point, it's hard to even hold onto my identity as a lesbian because I'm so overwhelmed. I don't know if this is what real attraction is supposed to feel like, and that fear eats away at me. The truth is, when I think about being with a man, all I feel is disgust and fear-but my brain twists that into doubt. I hate it. I'm at the point where I'm scared I'm going to have to accept something I don't want because I don't know if this will ever go away. I miss who I was before all this.
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So pretty much I’ve been dealing with intrusive thoughts my entire life, I had no idea could’ve been symptom of OCD until maybe a year ago , I have this fear right now that I don’t actually love my fiancé and I’m not attracted to men. I am attracted to men. Let me be clear. I’m not attracted to females. I never have been and I never will be. But it’s one of the scariest thoughts I’ve ever had that I don’t actually care about the person that I would sacrifice anything for that I would do anything for. He’s pretty much the closest family that I have and I just wanna be with him for the rest of my life. A couple months ago was that I just didn’t care at all, and I didn’t have any feelings and everything that I felt was me being fake in that nothing was real. But I eventually got over that and the new thought is that I’m actually gay even though I know I’m not. And in the world we live in now where it’s be yourself be you if it comes across your mind. That’s the obvious truth. Be yourself… It’s kind of scary to think about. I just want it to leave me alone. I’m actually so scared that eventually I’ll believe it because some thoughts that I’ve learned were intrusive. I ended up starting to believe and it turned into a whole catastrophe for my life. I met this girl and she felt a certain way about her husband and then she told me that eventually I’ll feel that way and ever since then I just I haven’t gotten over this fear that I’m gonna end up feeling the same way she is. Also, I recently got over a few themes. I’m not ready to share, but I’m so proud that I got over those and I just I’m waiting for this one to leave me alone and it’s not and I’m starting to get really scared that it’s true and I don’t want it to be true. and just to be very clear I don’t care who you love what you love who you like what you identify as because you can in fact be yourself but this just doesn’t feel like me. I’m genuinely reaching out to try to get help for this because now it’s messing with our personal life. We’ve never argued so much in our entire relationship and now I realize that it’s mainly my fault because I’m detaching myself from all emotion just so that I can get over this thought I’m detaching myself from all intimacy and that’s even scarier because what if it’s not me detaching myself and it’s me just not being attracted that’s another thought I’ve hadI’ve gone all long enough so thanks.
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I’ve been dealing with SOOCD for over a year now, and I have been having a very hard day today. I feel like I just need someone to talk too, my whole life I’ve always had girl crushes and always wanted to be romantic with women . Ever since I posted this picture on instagram and one person said I looked “zesty” in it , which is when I started obsessing about being gay . I feel like I put so much meaning to these thoughts where now I’m always checking how I feeling around men. I had a really bad porn addiction for a long time and bad anxiety which fucked up my sex drive. I feel like I doubt if I’m attracted to women when I know I am , but the doubt is so overbearing where I start to believe it . I never was interested in men sexually, and my ocd makes me feel like I like the thoughts even though I feel no pleasure out of it. I feel like I lost who I am as a person . It feels like I don’t even know what my sexuality is and it’s really upsetting to me . I meant this girl the other day and she is the most beautiful woman I’ve ever met and I just feel like ocd is getting in the way😭😭😭 please any advice or comments
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