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Someday
19d ago
  • "Pure" OCD

Do you ever look back on something you said, it could’ve only been a couple of months ago but still it stresses you out. Like I said something and it came out differently to what I meant. I was quoting someone who said it but I said it wrong so then it looked like I was supporting something that’s wrong. I know for a fact the person I told has completely forgotten about it, but the fact I did say it makes me hate myself. Like idk why but ever since I was younger I’ve had this horrible fear of cameras watching me, and people watching me, so when I say or do something it’s like an automatic well everyone hates you know because everyone knows. I have no idea why I do this but I do. These cameras are always on in my head and if I say something I didn’t mean I stress out. Like for some reason when I was a kid I would but my favourite celebrity behind the camera which would scare me because I didn’t want them to judge me. Now it’s like the entire world is watching me, like whatever I say will dam me for the rest of my life and live with me forever. Starting to realise I look stupid omg

OCD-is-not-me
19d ago
I don’t have a lot of things that will help but I just want you to know that I have experienced both the saying things and being worried people thought I was trying to say something else (I actually do this all of the time and always clarify exactly what I mean because I’m too worried about what people will think, DONT DO THIS) and the thinking that cameras are listening to and watching me all of the time. My only advice is something my therapist has told me to do which is say to yourself “maybe they did misunderstand me, maybe they didn’t” and just move on. It’s so hard, but you can’t control what other people think of you, and what other people think of you is not always the truth. I’m being careful because I don’t want to give you reassurance, but you aren’t a bad person because that’s not what you were trying to say, that’s all that matters. People that care about you will know that. I hope this helps
Someday
19d ago
Thank you, irs nice to know I’m not the only one that goes through this. It’s orrible and I do the same thing, always having to clarify with people what I meant. Sometimes I don’t even relasie what I said until I’m alone and then I don’t have the time to clarify so I stress out more. I’m trying to start living that if they did they did but I know what I meant sorta life but it’s so hard. Like I have a devil on my shoulder constantly telling me people are judging me! You are right though, people who care will know. Just gotta start thinking it more
OCD-is-not-me
19d ago
@Someday It’s not easy, so don’t be so hard on yourself. You will get through this, just take it day by day and don’t let that anxiety convince you. Take care of yourself ❤️
Someday
18d ago
@OCD-is-not-me I will try, thank you! Having a separate overthinking issue today but trying my best whaha!
OCD-is-not-me
18d ago
@Someday Try to stay present and focus on whatever it is you’re doing, if you aren’t doing anything then maybe try to do something you enjoy. Today is a gift so try to make the most of it and try to get out of your head. Again, it’s not easy, but I believe in you!
Someday
18d ago
@OCD-is-not-me Thank you. I did exactly that and managed to actually forget about it and move on. Still hurts when I do fall back into thinking about it but I did soemthing I enjoyed and got passed it! Thank you so much!! Same goes. I know whatever you are going through, you’ve got this!
OCD-is-not-me
19d ago
Also, you don’t look stupid, we all have OCD and realize how hard it can be. We’re all here to help.