TW Omg omg omg please help. It’s bad. Really bad. And I can’t go anywhere because I’m at work. It started off because I’m working with a coworker whose lesbian. And so I’ve been ping-ponging back-and-forth arguing with myself. I know I’m hetero I don’t like women like underneath this but something bad happened. First I passed her because you know I work as a dishwasher so there’s a corner where we stack the dishes when they’re clean and had to pass her and I imagined kissing her and I don’t like it but I’m scared I felt something in my chest. And I’m scared when I try to imagine kissing a guy I didn’t do much of anything but I feel exhausted and I’ve been taking Flexeril and Tylenol p.m. almost nonstop for a month so I’m like OK you know what not only is this probably messing with me like the OCD it’s probably also the Flexeril the Tylenol ganging up on me as well. And I was really excited about the Batman like I’m incredibly excited it’s not past tense but I’m scared I do I don’t like Zoe. I don’t like Selena. I’m scared I do because I’ve seen her I don’t like her boobs I’ve seen her basically naked and I don’t like it. No I’m imagining her in the dress from the 2021 met gala I keep saying don’t or do you don’t or do I don’t but I keep imagining them facing the camera covered in that sparkly should family coming anything and saying as I imagine hurt I’m scared it’s becoming so I feel weird in my chest describing it as but it doesn’t feel hotter delicious her boobs sticking out I didn’t like it. And then I was excited about the BATMAN right and then I said it’s even better with Catlin and it’s not better with her and there’s a scene where they’re walking through club and I love his walk because he’s serious and then said better with her like I’m it’s not better with her except I’m sorry. The thing is I’d liked his walk his shoulders are moving and he obviously has chest muscles so I’m scared I’m changing I’m sorry. He’s walking and then I said I did the imitation of his walk and since I’m not a guy I have boobs and I said better with her I don’t like her boobs. I don’t want to change and become self! I’m not bisexual that stuff is not hot. It’s not done with her I like his chest but I’m scared I have been not lying to myself I don’t like boobs! I saw her boobs basically I’ve seen her completely naked in the structure of her comfortable boobs they’re natural so they sad but she doesn’t wear bras and friends I don’t like her nipples I don’t like her boobs and I’m scared I’m becoming so and I don’t wanna be! I’m not bisexual I did not better with cat woman I don’t have a thing for her and I don’t understand cause I said so excited. Like when I was younger Halle Berry and play woman and I wanted to be like her but that’s it now I’m scared I keep imag managing her like she is she’s not hot as sexy I don’t want boobs to become sexy I don’t want to see them naked and it keeps imagine Halle Berry as a per year I don’t like her boobs I don’t like nipples I don’t like the ones that kind of turn up words I don’t like boobs they’re not it’s not better with cat women I swear I’m excited about Batman not Catwoman I’m scared I’m becoming so I don’t wanna be bisexual and I’m really freaked out I’m really scared to do I don’t like boobs I don’t want to develop anything for them I’m scared I’m I’m not bored of his I’m scared of you and I’m smiling I don’t like the way they stick off the chest or swish around when a woman walks I’m scared when she was walking all bad as I’m scared I don’t like it I said I don’t mind it I do mind I don’t like it I do mind I don’t want to do anything with girls I don’t like the way to stick off the chest and im frightened I am I don’t wanna start liking the way women walk and shit or the way they look naked I don’t like this shit I’m scared he is I don’t want him to go away

I need too know that I'm not insane, really. I am 16 and for the past two weeks, this has been completely ruining my health and happiness. I only recently came out as a lesbian like 3 months ago after a lot of confusion about my attraction since I used to think I liked men. At first, I felt so sure that I liked women, but lately, I've been having these unwanted thoughts about the possibility of liking men. I never used to feel this way, but now, every time I look at a man, my brain obsessively fixates on it. It forces me to imagine kissing him, loving him, things I don’t want, and then tries to convince me that I do. It’s painful. The thought of this fills me with fear and anxiety, leading to panic attacks and breakdowns. I don’t want these thoughts. I hate them with every fiber of my being, but I’m terrified that one day I’ll act on them and somehow like it. I used to think I liked men, but back then, I was in a very unhealthy space in a time of escapism and something deeply parasocial. I’ve only ever liked the attention and validation a man could give me, but these experiences are somehow treated as further proof that I’m "bisexual." I’ve never been in a real relationship with anyone, which makes my brain constantly challenge me—telling me, “You don’t even know what love feels like.” It won’t shut up. It keeps obsessively trying to make me prove that I’m a lesbian, testing my reactions and questioning my certainty. Is this normal?

hi i’m a lesbian! and i have known im a lesbian for a really long time and i have a sweet girlfriend of 1 year. it all started when i saw this masc lesbian come out as straight, after that i had my guy friend over and he’s a sweet guy and he was flirting with me (he didn’t know i was gay) im not sure but i panicked and my brain froze and i was like “do i like him”, ever since my brain has been over worked 24/7 for 2 months now and it’s spiralling constantly. im trying to control it but all these thoughts are so disgusting and my brain tries to put him and i in scenarios that make me uncomfortable and i feel panic and i hate it. i have always been comfortable being a lesbian and i still am comfortable as a lesbian, but i dislike these thoughts i have about him and men and i want it to be over. i do not want to experiment with men even tho my brain is telling me i do, i find it disgusting and i dread it, i have a sweet girlfriend and i want to be with her forever, i do not imagine anything with any men and i hate these thoughts. im scared of becoming bisexual/straight one day and i hate hearing sexuality is fluid. its a whole mix of comphet and so-ocd

I’m like 90% sure I’m just bi, more romantically inclined to men, mainly my bf who I wanna marry. But now my brain is like “if you lean into liking women or keep circling and circling for answers you’ll lose all attraction to men and your bf. You’re practically already a lesbian” I feel so tense and anxious I will admit I am talking to chat gpt out of desperation I’m scared of losing all attraction to him I don’t wanna be thinking about women. I don’t unless I’m really stressed cuz when I’m stressed my ocd can take advantage of that I can usually ground myself when I’m in the city with him but I’m back home for most of the summer and I can’t be physically close to him which usually reminds me that hey this is real this is what I really want in life. Him But then I panic and question I haven’t been here in a while tbh. I’m worried I don’t feel enough. I don’t like magic Mike all that much, I like softer guys. But now the fact I don’t like/get turned on by random men on tv but do women in lingerie really stresses me out and makes me worry I’m truly a lesbian but I’m not. Once I started getting to know my bf and my ex bf’s I really did truly genuinely like them and wanted to make out and everything. Idk can anyone relate to the not liking big buff men All my brain is repeating rn is “when he dies you’ll be able to date a woman, when you break up you’ll only wanna date women” and it’s stressing me out. It’s making me nauseous. I was doing well for about a couple days after I initially left but being at home has been so incredibly draining This might give you a vision of how stressful home is: I’ve been on nexplanon for 7 months ish? Only had very minimal spotting during a stressful school period. Today: fully bleeding, like a usual period. I haven’t had my period since having it put in. I wanna go back to my bf so badly rn. I’m so worried I’m faking or don’t feel enough. I’m learning what a healthy relationship looks like and I’m terrified I’m gonna up and leave him when we’re older cuz I’ll finally figure out that I’m a lesbian or smthn. Idk. Someone pls just help me out a tad