Hello, I am a straight girl (as far as I know) but now I am doubting of it. I am not sure this is Sexual Orientation OCD since I am doubting because of something that actually happened. I am going to say something really embarrassing for me so I hope I don’t get ignored. When watching p*rn, I tend to watch lesbian p*rn because it pleasures me the most. And after I did that a few days ago, I’ve starting to doubt of my sexual orientation (and even my identity, since I feel masculine, which i hate). And I have no idea what this is, I don’t want to tell my parents because they will think I am coming out when I am actually not. It is just pure confusion and distress, and a bit of fear and sadness bc I don’t want to be lesbian, don’t get me wrong I am not homophobic. But I just don’t want to, and it feels like denial to me. I have never been attracted to a woman, but somehow I feel like a male, and it really pisses me off, because I do not identify as a man. I’ve been trying to picture myself in my head, with both genders in a sexual context, and I don’t feel anything. I feel really lost please someone help.

Thanks for sharing with me♥️ do you also do that p**n thing? that’s what concerns me the most because that is an actual action :/

@embraceuncertainty I do not because it is a huge trigger for me but if it makes you feel better I think many people (men and women) prefer that kind because female bodies are in general more aesthetic. These thoughts are killing me though because I feel like I’m faking being attracted to men now even though I’ve always been boy crazy. I feel sick to my stomach over it

@cf05 I am so concerned it is not OCD. But thank you so much, hopefully it is just that :( And I am so sorry you feel that way, I do too and it sucks. I don’t know why but I want to feel something over men and I just don’t, even tho I’ve always been attracted. Oh my god this does not sound like OCD at all😭

Omg it feels so relieving to be understood😪 thank you so much, I am glad to know it’s normal for straight girls to watch those kind of things. I really appreciate your comment and your help, I am here for you and the community too♥️

thank you♥️

Hi! Well I’ve spent the past 2 hours searching on google about p*rn and OCD. P*rn does not reflect your sexual orientation, it is just about pleasure and not about what your actual sexual interests are. So don’t worry about what kind of p*rn you watch, but dw I will answer your question anyways. It is actually pretty weird, because I would watch lesbian p*rn like two girls touching each other and stuff, it would get me aroused for a while, but after a few minutes I would stop getting excited and find what I was watching, gross. I have no idea why. But, do not worry because p*rn does not reflect anything.

I did not, what was it?

idk if you are talking to me but no I did not :(