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Going through this exact same thing right now. I am a straight female and will never let that change, so the fact that I’m having these thoughts is absolute hell.
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Thanks for sharing with me♥️ do you also do that p**n thing? that’s what concerns me the most because that is an actual action :/
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@embraceuncertainty I do not because it is a huge trigger for me but if it makes you feel better I think many people (men and women) prefer that kind because female bodies are in general more aesthetic. These thoughts are killing me though because I feel like I’m faking being attracted to men now even though I’ve always been boy crazy. I feel sick to my stomach over it
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@cf05 I am so concerned it is not OCD. But thank you so much, hopefully it is just that :( And I am so sorry you feel that way, I do too and it sucks. I don’t know why but I want to feel something over men and I just don’t, even tho I’ve always been attracted. Oh my god this does not sound like OCD at all😭
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I know exactly what you mean!! I’ve always watched lesbian p*rn, my therapist told me that it’s very much normal for straight women to watch girls in p*rn. I haven’t watched it in a while because it triggers me now, but I understand completely. I also know what you mean by feeling like a male like certain things I do or certain ways I sit I feel like I look so masculine and it’s really triggering to me. I’m a straight woman and these intrusive thoughts become so invasive sometimes! I’m so sorry to hear you’re struggling too. You’ve got this, and the NOCD community is here for you:)
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Omg it feels so relieving to be understood😪 thank you so much, I am glad to know it’s normal for straight girls to watch those kind of things. I really appreciate your comment and your help, I am here for you and the community too♥️
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Here for you ❤
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thank you♥️
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I said: “I’m so sorry you’re going through this, it’s so so so so hard. And I’m really sorry if this is too tmi, but like, what *kind* of lesbian p*rn do you watch? I’m freaking out bcc I tend to watch sc*soaring videos and I feel like that makes me gay.
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Hi! Well I’ve spent the past 2 hours searching on google about p*rn and OCD. P*rn does not reflect your sexual orientation, it is just about pleasure and not about what your actual sexual interests are. So don’t worry about what kind of p*rn you watch, but dw I will answer your question anyways. It is actually pretty weird, because I would watch lesbian p*rn like two girls touching each other and stuff, it would get me aroused for a while, but after a few minutes I would stop getting excited and find what I was watching, gross. I have no idea why. But, do not worry because p*rn does not reflect anything.
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*sc*ssoring
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I’m so sorry but did you see my comment?
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I did not, what was it?
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idk if you are talking to me but no I did not :(
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It is 100% normal to watch lesbian porn. Lots of articles about it online!
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Hey everyone, I’m reaching out because I’ve been going through one of the hardest mental spirals of my life, and I’m hoping someone can relate or shed light on what’s happening to me. About 4 months ago, I accidentally came across a trans porn scene. It didn’t do much at the time, but later it triggered this overwhelming intrusive thought: “What if I’m gay?” Since then, it’s been absolute hell. I’ve always been into women—emotionally, sexually, everything. I’ve been in a long-term relationship with a girl I love deeply. But after that moment, my brain started spiraling into nonstop analysis. I began checking how I felt around men, whether I felt attraction, whether I was in denial, whether I was lying to myself. Literally everything became a test. I got stuck in this loop: • A thought pops in → panic • Try to solve it → brief relief • Another thought → worse panic • Repeat. At times, it got so bad I couldn’t feel anything at all—toward my girlfriend, toward women, toward myself. I started doubting everything. Some days, I feel emotionally flat, like I’ve lost my personality. Other days, I wake up with a full-body jolt of “truth” like “I’m definitely gay”—only for it to fade into numbness again. I’ve also noticed that I get short bursts of peace when I stop reacting, but then the fear comes back louder, like “See? Now you’re accepting it. That means it’s true.” Therapy hasn’t helped much so far—it felt more like general counseling. They told me to sit with the thoughts, but didn’t clarify if this was OCD, identity questioning, or trauma. That just made it worse because now I’m back to thinking “What if I’m just rejecting my truth?” I’m exhausted. I’ve lost connection to everything I used to love. • I want to love my girl again the way I used to • I want to feel desire without overthinking • I want to trust myself again I’m not looking for reassurance—I just want to know if anyone else has gone through something like this, and if this sounds like HOCD or identity OCD. Thanks for reading.
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I really need help understanding what I’m going through. For a long time now, I’ve been struggling with thoughts and feelings about women that confuse and scare me. Sometimes I feel this strange emotional or mental ‘pull’ toward certain women — it’s not exactly sexual, and not clearly romantic either, but it feels like something, and it triggers deep anxiety. When I see a beautiful woman or a WLW (woman-loving-woman) couple, I feel something that I can’t explain — sometimes I think it’s just admiration or aesthetic appreciation, but OCD keeps telling me: “You felt something, so you must be gay,” or “You’re hiding something.” I get stuck in endless loops, trying to analyze these moments and label them. Even when I feel physical or emotional reactions, they don’t feel natural or aligned with who I am. They feel like a reaction to the idea of women, not real attraction. I try to be honest with myself — I even told a friend I might be bisexual at some point, just to test if that felt more comfortable. But it didn’t. It made things worse, and I felt like I lost touch with who I am. I don’t want to lie to myself or live in denial, but I’m exhausted. It feels like I’m being mentally forced to feel something that isn’t mine. I’m 14, and I understand that things might still be developing, but I can’t help feeling like I’ve always been drawn to men, and never naturally wanted women that way. Still, I keep doubting everything. Is this real attraction or OCD feeding false feelings and thoughts? Can OCD create emotional or mental sensations that feel like desire? I’m so scared that I’ll lose myself, or find out something I never wanted. I just want peace and to feel like myself again.
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I have a lot of trouble with my sexuality. I’ve been trying to figure out my sexuality for years. I’ve dated a man, and I wasn’t really into the whole time. And since then I’ve thought that maybe I’m a lesbian because I’m attracted to women, which I know for sure. But then my brain spirals, I constantly think back ti memories with my ex, how I felt with him, I check how it makes me feel. I often google to see if other lesbians have felt similar, I ask ChatGpt over and over again. I feel like I have to be 100% certain or that im faking for attention, or thst I’ll end up with a man. I guess im wondering has anyone else felt like this ? What’s been your experience how do you manage it?
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