I was reading a book about London. And there was one building which apparently is a comedy club and it had comedians on there and one I recognize her but I can’t remember her name. And I imagine kissing her lips the profile like the picture on the wall and I smiled I’m scared I must be I don’t wanna be a lesbian or bisexual “the vibe I got made me think that she might be but I’m not bisexual. Like I smiled and said I am scared I felt unlocked in my chest I don’t I do I don’t want to kiss women I don’t wanna exist anymore. It still didn’t feel right but I kept smiling in my head and in my like expression like on my face was smiling and I imagine kissing it repeatedly like the picture and I’m scared I forced it like I act like it’s gross that I don’t but I want to kiss a man I’m naturally more interest in the man and when I imagine kissing a woman l I don’t know why I keep remembering saying I’ll let yourself in smiling in my head and I said in my heart I don’t want my heart to be into this and I said you can’t control that but I’ve never been into it and that thing is despite the smile it didn’t feel right there’s attention in my chest. I don’t wanna kiss women I’m scared I can’t stop imagining in despite imagining putting my lips on the picture and the fact that I imagined much more x-rayed things I don’t I still don’t like it I’m scared I just now try to say it with the conviction I still want and I almost felt better saying that but I don’t wanna feel better saying that I want them when I don’t want women. Smiling and allowing myself to imagine kissing the woman cause of the vibe scares me because I don’t vibe like that I don’t like them I don’t like women like that I want men i’ve never felt like that before and despite like I said despite the smiles it didn’t feel right it felt weird. I just I don’t like nothing more to sell better I don’t want to kiss the woman if I’m straight and I’m not gay why would I saying like nothing more when I don’t I didn’t really like it I just felt force in my chest felt so tense despite smiling and I said despite actually but I didn’t enjoy it so it’s despite the smiling I didn’t enjoy it. I don’t want to know who I am anymore I’m not a lesbian I didn’t enjoy it I didn’t feel right now I’m scared I’m gonna look at that comedian definitely forever I’m scared I do now and I keep feeling weird on my mouth I don’t wanna feel her lips on mine I don’t wanna put my hand out on smiling like I’m OK I don’t wanna be bisexual I don’t wanna squeeze boobs I didn’t feel right I can’t take this I’m scared I am afraid of the warm way I’m smiling I don’t want to get into this I don’t want to warm up to it! I don’t wanna enjoy this I don’t wanna start I don’t wanna kiss women I don’t wanna kiss and I can’t I’m scared I feel every time I see the picture I’ll look at her lips and feel I’m scared I’ve just been resisting this whole time but I’ve never wanted to kiss I said more but I’ve never wanted to kiss a woman before little more I don’t wanna kiss her and I’m smiling. See my heart but it doesn’t want to kiss her! Just gonna do I don’t wanna see what she’s not a scam smiling like I keep nodding up and down saying excepting I don’t I said my attraction imagining big I called him hot I don’t want hairy or ball didn’t want big round they’re not hot I don’t want sagging naked boobs I don’t want big round one second I’m scared him :-) I don’t wanna I don’t wanna except that I don’t wanna see your naked she’s not hot she’s not hot I’m scared I do when I’m blushing I don’t want older or younger women I don’t want vagina I want penis I want to try and it’s not hot I’m scared I feel differently now I don’t want to start I don’t want older or younger I don’t want my age I wanna start I’m scared I don’t wanna start liking I don’t wanna start liking women there’s nothing more than I don’t like

Sexual Orientation OCD

Bookworm91

Date posted: 3y

And now I keep taking of her in the picture I’m feeling worse denying it like I don’t and I feel we’re saying I don’t but I don’t wanna kiss her why do I feel worse I’m scared if you were shutting it down like I actually like I do I don’t wanna change my sexual orientation I’m scared it’s always been a but Not bisexual I’ve always been straight and I don’t want that to change I’m scared I’m scared every time I look at her now like I will I don’t wanna feel anything why did this happen I don’t like her I’m scared I don’t feel right despite the smiles I’m scared of how I was thinking my head or happy like finally allowing myself to imagine it and like I didn’t like it though I don’t know what I don’t know I didn’t like it

Bookworm91

Date posted: 3y

I’m scared I’m in the process of changing or adding I don’t wanna change or add any orientation scared I am I’m not starting to like it nothing about this feels right I’m scared I’m I’m scared taking my hand out and I see nothing more and I’m scared now I can probably I don’t want to help me if I’m not really happy there’s nothing hard about the shit I kept saying hot but there’s nothing hot about it I don’t want it I’m scared now I keep imagining doing X-rated stuff and squeezing boobs and sucking it up and going down I didn’t enjoy it I didn’t like that I felt happy I don’t I didn’t feel happy about that but I was like oh letting myself I’m fine I am like the girls I’m not losing interest in men like oh finally love myself and I feel hollow like nothing more it’s not hot it’s not hot it’s not her I didn’t feel right despite the smiles why did I think I’m allowing myself to but it still doesn’t feel right and there’s a tension in my chest despite the smiles I don’t wanna kiss her I said finally I keep my friend I’ve lost all I’m not interested I am interesting man I almost and I’m scared I will say that I’m not I am interested in men I’m not interested in women I don’t wanna squeeze bottles I don’t want to change

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