I understand you completely you’re not alone
comphet fucked me up so, so badly. I’ve probably read through the masterdoc upwards of 20 times and relate to about 8 of the points (not 100% sure, but I marked any that I could even remotely relate to). You’re not alone.
thank u sm for responding. i just truly feel so stuck rn and its painful to think ab it but i just wanna date and get married or anything just not be alone for the rest of my life and im so scared thats where im headed. this has completely shut down that whole part of me and its so scary