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Not to mention my mother refuses to take responsibility and blames everything on my dad. Ironically the only parent who apologized for what he did.
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Hey dear, I can't give you any advice on this but I can only send you virtual hugsš¤š¤ Whatever happened wasn't your fault and may it get easier for you with timeš I wish you the best, much loveā„ļø
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- 23w
I have OCD, but my parents donāt understand what Iām going through. All I wanted was for someone to be by my side and support me, but they dismiss my struggles, telling me to "just stop thinking" and that Iām making a big deal out of nothing. When I asked for a new therapist because my current one isnāt helpingāshe isnāt even an OCD specialistāthey became angry and didn't believe I need therapy and instead blame me for everything. My father was so mad, he insist to gave me a knife and kill myself. He threatened to isolate me completely, cutting me off from school, the internet, and everything else. My mom cried and shut me down when I tried to explain my pain. They refuse to listen and my dad said itās all my fault. That day they threw me outside the house for a night, and called me back in telling me to forget everything and forgive them, but I understood that I will not be able to mention anything about my mental health or seeing an OCD specialist ever again, I am completely alone now. With no financial support, and now I donāt know if Iāll ever get the proper therapy I need. Iām only 15, but it feels like Iāll be trapped in this suffering forever, I feel hopeless, I feel like shit, I am going to suffer forever with no support and help.
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Hi, Iām new here!! Iām praying I donāt get judged for this. But, back in late May of 2022 ( literally right before I graduated high school), I added this one random girl from my school on Snapchat. She posted something about a graduation party , so I swiped up on her story basically saying how I canāt believe weāre almost graduated. She replied and we had a really short and simple conversation. The next day ( i believe) , we started talking a lot , and I just so happened to see her at the highschool when we were grabbing our graduation outfits and doing the rehearsal. When I saw her irl, I kinda got turned off ( I heard she was kinda crazy) , and on top of that , she was a little ugly irl. I remember seeing her Snapchat bio , and she was close friends with my female cousin ( a year younger than me) , who I happened to experiment sexually with when I was 10-11 years old. I remember going to work later that day and having sort of a lightbulb flick thought ( it wasnāt a good thought though) , what if my cousin told her about what happened when we were younger? So I started to kind of panic and immediately distanced myself from that girl. I also experimented sexually with one of my female friends when I was 10-11 , and from that day onwards, Iāve been pretty much living in paranoia and a little bit of guilt about someone finding out and my life being ruined . On top of that, Itās gotten worse to now sometimes I wonder if a girl I added off of quick add ( Snapchat) is underage even if they told me they were 18+ or had 18 and above in their bio, and I get so much guilt and anxiety about that. I even had a quick thought last February on what if I did something inappropriate with my younger cousin when I was 15-16 but I just canāt exactly remember when it happened , and it still eats me alive when I think about it, because I donāt know if it happened or not. Iām sorry for the long vent, I just wish I felt normal again. No matter how much I try to do things that old me used to do, life always feels ā offā. I always kept the top part about when I was younger a secret up until early (ish ) 2024, then I vented to one of my best friends and he told me that thatās a normal thing to do at a young age. Since then, I have told multiple friends and they all say they did similar stuff, but my brain just canāt accept that. Please help me, I quite literally overthink everything nowadays. 2021 was the last full year that I felt normal ( coincidentally, the best year of my life so far) . Itās not just about sexual related things either, sometimes Iāll wonder if I messed up something at work or hit a car while driving/hit someone and drove off. I just wanna live my life how I was supposed to live it after highschool ( carefree and happy) before whatever it is ( I think itās ocd) hit me unexpectedly. Thanks to anyone who read this , I just needed to pour it out regardless of how negative I felt typing this, I hope someone can relate , because I feel so alone in my head at times.
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- 22w
I donāt have much of a support system outside of my bf, so I find myself here a lot. I think I just need to vent, so forgive me if I do this too often. It helps to have a community of people who truly understand. I havenāt felt this debilitated by mental illness in months. There has to be some explanation, maybe itās hormonal, because I feel like Iāve completely lost myself. The panic hits in waves, sudden and overwhelming, like my head is submerged in lava, burning and suffocating. Then, for a brief moment, I feel almost normal and wonder what all the fear was about. But it never lasts. The chaos always comes back. I even considered going to the ER because Iām not sure I can trust myself anymore. Something has to be wrong, because this isnāt me. My life isnāt perfect, but itās not unbearable either. Since I withdrew from school, Iāve been so much less stressed that even my cycle, which has been irregular for years, has somehow regulated itself. But even with that, I feel like a failure. I was one semester away from finishing, so close, but OCD hit me harder than it ever has. It felt like drowning, gasping for air, reaching for something solid, only to be dragged under again and again. Now, I feel like that again, but worse. I feel hollow, like something is wrong with me at my core. I donāt just feel sad; I feel broken. I break down into uncontrollable sobs every few hours, and I donāt even know why. I just know that whatever is happening, OCD is taking full advantage of how vulnerable I feel. Is this what MDD feels like? Everyone tells me I have it, and itās been confirmed by my psych, my pcp, and my therapist, but I still canāt seem to fully see it. I donāt know how to separate whatās OCD from what might be another disorder. Iām sorry to anyone also going through such a hard time, my heart goes out to you š¤
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