Why do I suddenly feel like a stranger in my own body? This all started off as SOOCD but has turned into raging TOCD and now I fear that I no longer want to be a woman, even though I have identified as a straight woman since birth and don’t want that to change. I have never wished I was a boy or anything throughout my life, so I am not quite sure where this came from other than developing as a result of my SOOCD thoughts. I am so terrified of the thought of this being true, as I never want to transition to being a male at all. What makes this worse if that I have very low self confidence and have always had body dysmorphia, but even my recent wait loss and finally achieving the body I’ve always wanted has not made my confidence go up. This makes me fear that I must not want to be a woman, and especially with the flare up of SOOCD, I just feel like I don’t feel feminine anymore. I am so scared because I want a husband and children in the future, but for some reason I feel like I will never be able to have that. I also used to have this gut feeling growing up that I wouldn’t be able to have kids due to health related reasons (which is not true to my knowledge, but I am only 19 so I’m not sure) and this scares me even more because I feel like it proves that I am not actually meant to be a woman, even though the thought of being transgender is absolutely not for me. Please someone help, I cannot sleep at night or function throughout the day anymore and feel physically sick over these thoughts because it just feels like confidence issues gone wrong that will never be satisfied unless I did this against my will. I am losing my mind and losing my sense of self and I can’t even look in the mirror or exercise anymore, which used to be my form of stress relief, without feeling like I look too masculine.