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- 3y
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- 3y
I appreciate this, thank you. I am just so scared because I don’t feel the same when I look in the mirror because I have gotten so in my head about this. I never want to be a boy, but it’s like my mind is telling me that that is what I want. What terrifies me the most is that I feel like I am not feminine anymore or attractive as a woman, and I feel like I look masculine every time I look in the mirror. I did not think like this prior to a couple of months ago, and like I said, throughout my childhood I never desired to be anything other than a female. I do feel disconnected from myself but I think it is because I am so in my head, as I know that I do not want to actually undergo a gender transition because that does not at all align with my personal values whatsoever. It just scares me that I have had low self esteem for so long because it feels now like that has to be a sign of me just having an identity crisis, which I never want to be true.
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- 20w
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- 18w
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- 18w
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