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I feel like one of the worst things about ocd are the disturbing images or the ālittle moviesā that replay in your head over and over again. I have the worst sexual images with one of my family members that actually so bad that I canāt even look in the mirror. And itās even worse that I have a lovely boyfriend and Iām so disgusted of myself that I feel like I donāt deserve him and I feel like I canāt be with him because of these thoughts, even he is the most precious thing in my life. These sexual images are so horrible and what makes it even worse that in these pictures I always see myself as someone who enjoys it. I know how to deal with this anymore. My mind is trying to convince me that that I actually like these images and thoughts and this is the hardest part, that Iām doubting myself. These images pop up in my head so naturally that I always question myself if I actually donāt like it why it comes so naturally or how can my brain picture things like this if I donāt like it. Itās getting worse day by day. Itās in my head 24/7, canāt concentrate on anything else, I canāt eat because Iām constantly throwing up. And my mom has to sleep with me every night because Iām so disturbed by my own mind. My parents know that thereās something wrong with me, they think Iām depressed but sadly Itās not something I can talk openly about with them. Iām seeing a therapist next week but Iām genuinely scared to open up about these thoughts that Iām having.
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I started having intrusive thoughts about my sexuality when I got into a relationship with my ex and I wondered if it would seemingly go away but it hasnāt and I find myself ruminating about it constantly especially before or during my period. Has anyone else felt with this?
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- 12w
Why are things so real the first time theyāre in my mind and then when I think about it later itās easier for me to be like wtf?? I was watching a movie earlier and the young girl had developed more in the chest area than the last movie and I felt the desire to check her out so I did. Then later I let myself imagine her having sex and I liked it. But now looking back Iām like ew. The boys in the movie have also developed as the movie went on and I couldnāt help but think that in their real life theyāve probably woken up to boners and s*men and stuff. And looking back itās just ugh. Idk if itās sexual relevance but I genuinely let myself indulge in these thoughts and groinal responses and I remember thinking to myself I donāt want to be attracted to little kids and how do I stop myself (everyone has attractive qualities so in younger boys I see man like qualities). Idk I need help. I wouldnāt type this out if I truly believe I was messed up but Iām still scared
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