Magzzz
- Date posted
- 3y
Anonymous_234Anonymous_234
- Date posted
- 3y
i hate ocd sfm😞
MagzzzMagzzz
- Date posted
- 3y
You and me both. I want to cry
Anonymous_234Anonymous_234
- Date posted
- 3y
@Just Breathe ❤️ my thoughts/false memory keep trying to make me hurt my sister by having thoughts of her boyfriend. it makes me so fucken sick to my stomach. i feel the need to confess to her bc i can’t stand the guilt and shame from all of this. i also struggle from pocd. im so tired i feel so exhausted.
MagzzzMagzzz
- Date posted
- 3y
@Anonymous_234 Just remember that ocd likes to take the things we love most and what we value and attacks them. I’ve had many intrusive thoughts about the people I love and care about but at the end of the day, it’s ocd and it will do everything in its power to have power over you and convince you of what isn’t true. Best thing to do is accept uncertainty. Maybe, maybe not. Try saying it out loud or write it down and rip it up and then let it go or let it be. Otherwise ocd will just make it worse than it needs to be. The amount of guilt and pain you feel doesn’t change anything but accepting uncertainty is what you have to do to train your brain that there is no danger. Confessing is a compulsion I unfortunately struggle with that as well with the feeling I have to confess every little thing. Just let the thoughts be there, let it try to convince you all it wants to just think of an old man yelling at you and then walking past, and let it pass on it’s own. Eventually it will get easier. Stay strong and know you are not alone. I completely understand and it absolutely sucks. Pocd is my worst theme and there are days I’m on top of the world doing great and other days I want to crawl in a dark corner and cry all day but we have to get up and not let ocd rule our lives
Anonymous_234Anonymous_234
- Date posted
- 3y
@Just Breathe ❤️ i feel so scared saying maybe, maybe not. i feel like my mind is gonna think the content of my thoughts are okay & lead me to acting on my thoughts. that puts so much fear in my heart. sometimes i just stay up crying trying to figure out where i went wrong in life. im only 17 trying to make the best out of life & now i’m dealing with pocd & intrusive thoughts of my family. i feel so drained and tired. i just pray and hope the urges don’t come back. those scare me the most. im so sorry you’re going through this. i can tell you’re such a sweet person😞! thank you for taking time out of your day to respond to me, i appreciate you sm!🥺 & i agree pocd is the WORST theme for me. i think tiktok has to do alot with why ocd got so bad. im not saying it’s bad to post your traumas on tiktok but i used to cry when i would see the ones of them talking about how the people they trusted the most turned on them & did something absolutely terrible. that worries me so fucken much. it got to the point where my mind started making me question my family and that broke my heart. i pray one day we heal from everything and don’t have to worry about anything anymore 😞
MagzzzMagzzz
- Date posted
- 3y
It’s so scary I completely agree but remember you’re not accepting them as being true, you’re saying it as an exposer to show ocd there is nothing that needs to be feared. I’ve had pocd for 3 years now and you’d think I’d be a master at making it go away but unfortunately I can’t. But doing exposers and doing the things I need to do will help lead to recovery. I know my values and morals and I never in my entire life would ever want this. I’m a good person with a heart of gold and huge dreams that are crushed by this horrible disorder. I want to help others not feel the way I do. Don’t let ocd control you. I let it control me long enough. The more you do exposers, the more ocd will get better to deal with. If you don’t have a therapist I do recommend getting one, I have one through NOCD and they are very helpful even with POCD. I wish I could take away everyone’s pain from this horrible disorder. I pray one day we all heal too 😔
Anonymous_234Anonymous_234
- Date posted
- 3y
i hate that the feelings/thoughts feel so real. ocd is so convincing it makes me question who i am as a person & what my intentions are.. it damn near almost ruined my life. & me too! i have an appt with my therapist tomorrow @9 through the nocd app🥺
MagzzzMagzzz
- Date posted
- 3y
@Anonymous_234 I hate it so much too. It’s almost ruined my life. It’s taken away what little self confidence I had. Good luck with therapy and remember to do exposers. It will help you in the long run on your road to recovery!
Anonymous_234Anonymous_234
- Date posted
- 3y
@Just Breathe ❤️ i feel so sad, i can’t sleep. i have a sinking feeling in my stomach that i just can’t get rid of. i cant stop crying. i want this to go away😞
MagzzzMagzzz
- Date posted
- 3y
@Anonymous_234 I’m so sorry. Sending lots of prayers. Maybe watch your favorite show or listen to some music to calm down. Just know you are not alone. I’ve been where you are many many times. I’m so sorry you are going through this
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