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Yep, exactly. Today in class I was sat beside a girl and she's very pretty. During the whole class I was thinking stuff like: what if I like her? If I don't like her now, what if I develop feelings for her later? This is crushing me. I tell myself that if I did I wouldn't be feeling like sh*t, but then my mind goes ahead thinking that this is only because I'm in denial. I can't stand this anymore, it's making my life a nightmare.

Same with me but other way around

It's very scary. Today I woke up with a very clear mind. I was like: "where's the ocd?" (Since it's worse for me in the morning, generally.) I went for school, and then my geography teacher started talking about depression and acceptance and bam! It came back. Note: I'm not intolerant. I have nothing against gay people, but I don't see myself as one. I'm so tired of this, sometimes I'm too tired to even try to understand it, but on other moments it comes off so strong that I can't help it. I feel exhausted, like I'm not living, but instead, merely existing.

Yes! I've just read one of your latest comments here and we're going through the same thing. I don't mean to sound selfish, nor that I'm happy for you to be going through this too, but it's such a relief to not be alone! If we came all the way to this app because of these thoughts then there's definitely something wrong with them. We're going to get through this terrible and debilitating illness. I'm rooting for you too!