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Yep, exactly. Today in class I was sat beside a girl and she's very pretty. During the whole class I was thinking stuff like: what if I like her? If I don't like her now, what if I develop feelings for her later? This is crushing me. I tell myself that if I did I wouldn't be feeling like sh*t, but then my mind goes ahead thinking that this is only because I'm in denial. I can't stand this anymore, it's making my life a nightmare.
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Same with me but other way around
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It's very scary. Today I woke up with a very clear mind. I was like: "where's the ocd?" (Since it's worse for me in the morning, generally.) I went for school, and then my geography teacher started talking about depression and acceptance and bam! It came back. Note: I'm not intolerant. I have nothing against gay people, but I don't see myself as one. I'm so tired of this, sometimes I'm too tired to even try to understand it, but on other moments it comes off so strong that I can't help it. I feel exhausted, like I'm not living, but instead, merely existing.
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Yes! I've just read one of your latest comments here and we're going through the same thing. I don't mean to sound selfish, nor that I'm happy for you to be going through this too, but it's such a relief to not be alone! If we came all the way to this app because of these thoughts then there's definitely something wrong with them. We're going to get through this terrible and debilitating illness. I'm rooting for you too!
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For me it was a weird intrusive thought and after that I slowly started developing anxiety and I felt a weird thing like I was losing my attraction to girls. Then I woke up one day in complete panic cuz it felt like I had lost feelings for girls suddenly and I started searching online how to know if you’re gay if sexuality changes suddenly and I took some gay tests or sexuality tests online. Chat gpt was a big thing back then too. That was before therapy and before I knew what ocd is.Can anyone relate?
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Hey guys so I have been suffering with sexual ocd due to the fact that I don’t feel that romantic spark with him anymore, I love him and I know I do but I get to much in my thoughts thinking about why can’t I feel that anymore what has changed what if I don’t wanna be with anymore I’ve been with him for 4 years and at first I think it was ROCD but now I started thinking what if I’m into girls now I’ve always been the type to say oh a girl is so pretty or I like this about her but now I feel like every time I see a girl I’m like do I see myself in a relationship with her oh she’s pretty oh I like her voice do I find it attractive and sometimes I do !!! Which is killing me I feel disgust thinking about because what if I secretly am no shame to people who are my sister herself is but I just feel wierd because I wanna be with my husband and feel happy there not with a girl and feel like a man because I see myself in the mirrior and I’m like do I myself being a man do I look lesbian? Do I act lesbian or bi? What if secretly I wanna be a man or I imagine myself being a man in a relationship with a pretty girl and idk what to think
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- 9w
I have experienced every theme that can be added to post but I’m currently experiencing those. So I am on the spectrum and I happen to have a high sensory profile and it definitely gives the ocd more to latch unto. I would see a pretty female with makeup done and it eatssss and I would notice the facial symmetry + how her features compliment each other and my ocd would be like why did you notice she is pretty, BECAUSE I HAVE EYES😭! I can’t be the only neurodivergent person that notices details and how attractive people are intensely? I do not even care about orientation but I know for sure if I was into women, it won’t just start plaguing me one evening Im my head shouting “you are gay” like man Im a female at least say you are a lesbian 😭😂😂😂😂. How can I genuinely have no interest and get outrightly repulsed by females sexually and romantically. It feels like I am being forced to be something im not. I tried accepting i am lesbian but I experienced more anxiety and could not sleep till I accepted i am still straight and it is ocd playing with me(ocd leave me alone, I don’t even enjoy playing with you) I accepted i am a lesbian like ocd said I should but why do I still love my ex and hope I marry him😭 + I couldn’t bring myself to be interested in females. OCD leave me alone because I don’t enjoy this game again! I’m not homophobic at all but denouncing Im straight doesn’t feel like home and I still find myself yearning for only men
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