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Yep, exactly. Today in class I was sat beside a girl and she's very pretty. During the whole class I was thinking stuff like: what if I like her? If I don't like her now, what if I develop feelings for her later? This is crushing me. I tell myself that if I did I wouldn't be feeling like sh*t, but then my mind goes ahead thinking that this is only because I'm in denial. I can't stand this anymore, it's making my life a nightmare.
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Same with me but other way around
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It's very scary. Today I woke up with a very clear mind. I was like: "where's the ocd?" (Since it's worse for me in the morning, generally.) I went for school, and then my geography teacher started talking about depression and acceptance and bam! It came back. Note: I'm not intolerant. I have nothing against gay people, but I don't see myself as one. I'm so tired of this, sometimes I'm too tired to even try to understand it, but on other moments it comes off so strong that I can't help it. I feel exhausted, like I'm not living, but instead, merely existing.
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Yes! I've just read one of your latest comments here and we're going through the same thing. I don't mean to sound selfish, nor that I'm happy for you to be going through this too, but it's such a relief to not be alone! If we came all the way to this app because of these thoughts then there's definitely something wrong with them. We're going to get through this terrible and debilitating illness. I'm rooting for you too!
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Im a 21 year old female in a straight relationship with the best guy a girl could ever ask for. About 2 months ago, I went to get coffee with a friend and as I dropped her off, I got a “weird” vibe from her and the look she gave me which lead to the thought of “should I kiss her”….Ive never had a thought like that before and I never have ever wanted to kiss another girl. I have also never had a desire to be with another girl (sexually or romantically). Now though, I have had one other experience of being with a different friend going to get lunch and it felt weird. Ever since then I have been on google non stop with hundreds of different searches, questioning if im lying to myself of my boyfriend, wondering about my past relationships even though Ive only dated boys, been attracted to boys, crushed on boys, etc… boy crazy! Reading on other forums has been a big thing too or doing quizzes. I believe its SO-OCD but im so scared that what if its not. I am in therapy and actually had two weeks of not even thinking about it or googling it until yesterday. I dont know what to do.
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For me it was a weird intrusive thought and after that I slowly started developing anxiety and I felt a weird thing like I was losing my attraction to girls. Then I woke up one day in complete panic cuz it felt like I had lost feelings for girls suddenly and I started searching online how to know if you’re gay if sexuality changes suddenly and I took some gay tests or sexuality tests online. Chat gpt was a big thing back then too. That was before therapy and before I knew what ocd is.Can anyone relate?
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Hey guys so I have been suffering with sexual ocd due to the fact that I don’t feel that romantic spark with him anymore, I love him and I know I do but I get to much in my thoughts thinking about why can’t I feel that anymore what has changed what if I don’t wanna be with anymore I’ve been with him for 4 years and at first I think it was ROCD but now I started thinking what if I’m into girls now I’ve always been the type to say oh a girl is so pretty or I like this about her but now I feel like every time I see a girl I’m like do I see myself in a relationship with her oh she’s pretty oh I like her voice do I find it attractive and sometimes I do !!! Which is killing me I feel disgust thinking about because what if I secretly am no shame to people who are my sister herself is but I just feel wierd because I wanna be with my husband and feel happy there not with a girl and feel like a man because I see myself in the mirrior and I’m like do I myself being a man do I look lesbian? Do I act lesbian or bi? What if secretly I wanna be a man or I imagine myself being a man in a relationship with a pretty girl and idk what to think
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